After I am gone,
I want you to find me again,
as my essence walks along the streets ,
searching for something I can't define.
I want you to look at me,
See me in the smile of a hurried woman.
remember me.
If your eyes meet mine,
recognize a love you had once.
The kisses that made you lean closer.
The scent you couldn't help yourself from whiffing.
If you find me,
Remember me,
And our love.

You saved me,
From my destructive self and hormonal imbalance.
From intrusive people and ruthless ideas.
You were there,
to tell me to open my eyes.
To push me forward when I almost gave up.
You said I should think before I act,
So I never learnt.
You took away my mistakes and experience.

I don't have a lot of optimism left,
Had that trampled out a while ago.
With good for nothing people and crushed dreams.
Again and again stomped upon.
I don't have memories left,
Of good times i once had.
Write it off to disappointment and heartbreak.
I don't have much left,
Having had everything wrung out.
Look at me as a shell.
Holding a vacuum within.

You will never know how much,
How much I long for you.
I don't want to meet your eyes,
Am afraid you might see through me.
See my deepest thoughts,
Find them colored with you.
I tell myself I don't need you,
Convince myself you're wrong for me.
It hurts too much,
You matter too much.
My every tear is tied to you,
You didn't call, you didn't want me too.
How can I be rid of you,
When I can't think of anything but you?
You break my heart and somehow its only you who can fix it.
I want to be with you,
Somehow you're what I need.
Can you feel it too?

She has such a sad soul.
My arms reach out to her almost without me noticing.
She wears her pain like a veil:
Blocking out the world and keeping her cocooned in a shell.
I can still see the history of suffering,
The longing for less.
More invites pain like a beacon.
Keep her safe, I whisper to the angels.

The darkness calls out my name
When I walk past it's yawning hole.
It reaches out fingers like a gnarled tree base
and brushes them against my face.
It leaves a trail, moist and humid.
I settle into the abyss.
My thoughts and body laid to rest.

There is no such thing as us.
It's just you and me and all the people out there.
They don't want to feel alone so hold on to hope.
Someday they will meet a partner and begin to morph so their desires meet.
They put them first hoping its enough to make them stay.
But in the end people leave,
It's what they were meant to do.