I know am supposed to wake up
Go out and do something.
But i can't bring myself to leave bed
and face the pain over again.
The emptiness inside filling out
The hole you used to occupy.
It aches and incapacitates me
With numbing sharp blows
I can barely walk.
Doubled over awaiting relief.

I tried to get to know you
Met resistance at every turn
And now am faced with loving
A stranger i can't predict.
Do you love me or want me back?
I can't see past you anymore
You have broken my heart
In a million different ways.
I just want to smile again
But in this dark lonely tunnel
I can't even see a light.

I miss him.
He seemed to complete my days
And give me a reason.
I miss him.
With every part of me.
My soul aches for him.
I miss him.
Who could make me smile
Even when i was trying so hard to be mad.
I miss him
Who my heart belongs to
Nothing can sever the bond.
I miss him.
That makes my heart sing
And my thoughts float on a cloud.
I miss him.
Who i want to spend my days with
And whom i ache to kiss.
I miss him
That puts order to my chaos
And a lid on my pain.
I would give anything to get back
Everything we had.
Oh how i miss him.

I watched my prince come in
Walking down a classroom aisle
He sat right infront of me,
He turned in his seat and smiled
A slow charismatic turn of lips.
I looked down at my book
Doodling tiny hearts
In tune to my fast beating heart.

The next day he sent me a note
'I like how you can't meet my gaze'
I swear i turned red
Even if am black and can't blush.
I scribbled a :p on the note
Passed it right back.

One day he asked me
' are you ever going to say anything?'
I asked for his name
He said we could trade names for a week
He was Jessie i was Jesse
We laughed at the word play.

He stayed after class the next day
We spoke through texts and notes
He perched on my desk and said
'That was nice. We should keep doing this'
I gathered up my books
He backed me into a corner
Kissed life into me
This was the start of our romance.

She was alone
Oh so terribly alone .
She wondered who to call
If they would help or didn't care.
She was but a humble maiden
Had no delusions of grandeur.
She knew she had faults
Maybe more than the normal maidens.
She sat on her balcony
Watched the world go on.
She never went out.
Oh no she couldn't venture
Into the fold of humanity.
They were known to be picky
What if they didn't embrace her?
With her old fashioned mannerisms
And odd way of speaking.
She swung her bare feet.
Watching them move forward
And imagined she was marching
In a band somewhere.
Following music to a beat
Purposeful and deliberate.

She needed a friend
But how to go about collecting one
should she place an advert like she had seen in papers?
Or go to the fairs and wriggle her way into a group
What if they asked from whence she came?
And so she watched from afar.
admired a couple walking hand in hand
The boy pushing her hair out of her face
The girl looking up and smiling at something he said.
What she wouldn't give to feel normal.
Instead she kept house and world
Carrying the burdens of both.
For someone needed to protect humanity
From the cruelty of life.
She had a job to do
And so remained alone.

I am not dead,
Merely missing.
Numb and lifeless
Losing pieces of me in the wind.
No, i did not die
When you set my heart ablaze.
And sent me flying off a cliff.
I merely exploded into pieces.
Tiny immemorable bits of me.
A half hearted smile here
An anguished cry as i melt
Breaking into fragments of past, present and never.
This could really be my end.
Do not come looking for ashes
To gather and keep in a can.
I won't be confined even in death
Instead go to the quietest point
Where no noise and pain linger
Listen for my heartbeat
Faint, fading and unfettered.
Call my name if you want to talk
I will whisper in the wind
Enfold you in a rush of leaves
As you stand amidst the silence
I will be here.

I feel like i can see
after a moment of sightlessness.
Delighting in the little things
Like an unexpected smile
An all encompassing hug.
It fills me up and i float
On a cloud of meaning,
A little less that i don't know.
If nothing makes sense anymore
At least i can muster a smile.

I want to listen to the wind sing
Dance as it blows the figs and leaves.
I want to fly,
I could almost step off a ledge.
Drawing on strength from within
Absorbing pain from without.

I shudder from the pain of the oppressed
Unable to step out of jail
Shackled to hopelessness
Stuck in a third rate jail.

You hold the key to Destiny
If only you could cut loose your fears
Of failure, rejection and doom.
You need a friend to believe in you,
Share your dreams.
Go out to the highest point you can find
Rage at the world.
I am here! I belong!

I draw a picture
Of the sun, the moon.
You see the light rays colliding with colors red and blue
Such beautiful sparks to light your way.

I sing a song of love
Enduring and full of promise.
You waltz to the swing in my voice
And lead me on a merry chase.
Together we watch sound and light collide.