I knew I loved you
from the first time we met
It was magical
Everything seeming to fall in place
Our selves fitted like a puzzle
You embracing  me as I absorbed you
I wanted to freeze that moment
Wanted forever with you.
Never knew it could hurt
Like silver melting in my veins
Painful heated agony
Of you not wanting this
You couldn't even try.
You say you love me
But if love is only pain
I would rather walk away on coals
than be locked in this furnace.

We are living on borrowed time
Amidst our fortunes and pain
an extension of the sand
A twist to the hourglass.
We all should have died
When the world ended .
Instead we are statistics
people that survived the fall
Plowing on through daily struggles
Lost in the quest for more
something meaningful.
Life can't be this bland
All hustle and no glory.
Someone wrote us in
And forgot to write us out.
We are merely the forgotten
Holding on to thoughts
That someday the clock
Will bring us to the end of time.

Am tempted to ask why?
why bad things happen.
Sometimes more than
We could ever imagine.
How to cope with loss?
What to do when you can't go on
Curse?  Rave?  Rant?
Blame fate or God?
Breakup with God?
truth is I don't have answers.

I can't read you
It's like trying to fly
Or see through concrete.
Cause you are confusing
Sending signals here and there
Today you want me
Tomorrow let's be friends.
You miss me
You wanna be friends.
You ***** with my head
Make me scream.
Just face the truth
You want me not over you.
Pretty selfish you know.

Have you ever been disappointed?
Like really utterly surprised
By this person you love.
They steal your heart
Build dreams with you
Make you believe it's perfect
You found everything you want
They seem too good to be true.

Have you ever been confused?
So utterly confused
Questioning yourself
about choices you have made.
Why you were so gullible
Letting someone break you
When you love someone
Should you give them everything?
or hold some part back?
knowing you will be hurt.

I don't know where you end
And I start
It's all a little blurry
you see, you infected me
With a dose of you.
I see you in every hue.
Want you need you breathe.
You splatter my life with color
Shades of red blue you!
I can't go a day
Without my love
He hides in the recesses of
My memory and haunts me.
We are bound forever
Even when he breaks my heart.

I want to be someone else
For a day, or more, or less
Just forget all my troubles
Take on another life
One filled with passion
happy memories and hours.
Not have to worry about
Pain,  deception, distress.
wake up to adventure
be someone new.
And just gobble life whole.