We started out wanting the same things
now am not so sure.
You don't seem the same
Am different for sure
You don't call me
I don't sit waiting for your call
I grew up
Realized you don't want
To treat me right and make me happy
I just am not a priority
It's time I moved on.

I always take it for granted
That you walk me home
When I come to see you.
That five minute walk
where we say things
hitherto left unsaid
Squeeze as many memories
As possibly can fit
Into the slow paced steps
Often hand in hand.
I never think about the return
You walk all the way back
Alone.
With nothing but yourself
For company.
I wonder if you think of me then.

I wish I could be
With you all the time.
Just drink you in
Like a dose of drugs
Addictive pleasurable drugs.
And have you plant on me
Little butterfly kisses .
In your arms I am taken
To paradise.
I miss you
So much my love.

I want to create something new
           from dust and ashes.
A masterpiece never before seen
            not a copycat idea.

Everyone dreams of greatness
            to be the best in a field.
But there isn't room for more
             not every star shines the same.

There are the natural ones
            Already shining
                    Bright.
Those that you have to peer
     Into the sky for a while.
   Lose yourself in thoughts
Find your hopes and dreams
see where you are meant to be.

Every new creation and idea
Was there in the beginning
                  Smaller
            Insignificant
  but existent in it's capacity .
   It's watered and nurtured
Like a new born babe prepared
for the life the parents want.
  Better than what they had.
  Children are a way of living
Life in a newer more creative way.

The pain
        The agony
Like learning to live again
Without everything you love.
The nightmares
         The horror
of everything black and blue
Grey and brown hues.
Reality zooming in
           Dreams phasing out
Oh but for alternate reality
to have what I badly want.
The noise
       The silence
I would give for explosions
and implosions too.
The chaos
         The order
It's a bundle of contradictions
Scattered in the recesses
Of my mind.

It is now in the stillness
When the crickets chirp
That I need you most.
Awake and lonely at night
thinking of how you;
Look at me
Touch me
Kiss me.
It drives me insane.
I crave you next to me
In being with you,
I come alive.
Hold me
                      Tight
                     Tighter
So that where you end and I begin
Is a mere blur of the senses.
I am overwhelmed by space
-your space
You write your way in
Like a reality television script
You belong here
Among the folds of my day
For you are the clock
That ticks me through a day
Your absence lingers
Like a persistent fly
I can feel it
You're not here.