I treaded so lightly
so as not to break
the eggshells
that I broke
myself instead

what if we lived today
like there would be no tomorrow
no fear of the future in our way
even in the wake of great sorrow

I don't wanna change history
I just wanna change the future so drastically
that I don't have to regret the past
because the now is passing  so fast

The music that renders me saddest
reminds me of the times I was happiest

There's so much that I can't say
that saying anything at all leaves me in dismay

They tell the smarties that they're proud
but the geniuses have no pride allowed
For the smarties are part of an elite crowd
but the geniuses are in isolation drowned

Some live a broken fate
that this broken world precipitates
Some live a perfect illusion
their grasp on reality loosened

I don’t wanna be her when I could be me
But I do wanna be the one you see

May the words of the Lord
be the voice of our hearts

the pieces of me
that you kept understanding
became
the pieces of you
that I keep finding

The spring is no longer silent
and we are no longer blind
The fight has become violent
and we have so little time

If we don't fight for the environment
there will be no selfish treasures left to find

Words can be pretty
when my body cannot be

the typical me
isn't the one you typically see

They say I'm too much
that I'm crazy cause I
care so much
say so much
give so much
love so much
But if insanity is measured
by the storms we've weathered
the determination we place
in front of fear's face
and the dedication
never to take a vacation
then I want to be crazy!
Because the alternative is lazy
And maybe I'm not too much for you.
Maybe you're not enough for me.

I wrote a million letters I'll never send
to release a billion thoughts in my head
but still here are a trillion voices that never end

You find yourself
when you stop chasing someone else

live every day as if it is your last
for the now will soon be the past
and you don't want to regret
these days you can't forget
for when it has become "back then"
you won't be able to change them
but in the moment, you know how
and you can change the now

The things that happened to me before you
weren't yours
but they weren't mine either
The things that happened to me because of you
were all yours
and those weren't mine either

Don't think I didn't notice the way you looked at me sometimes
That room wasn't the first time I had noticed your eyes

You may be perfect on paper,
but you had no problem kissing her

I am done.
Done with people telling me I’m not calm enough, quiet enough, or pretty enough for them.
I am who I am.
I’m sorry I don’t behave like a placid lake, sound like a mouse, or look like a model.
I am done.

You’re no good for me
But thoughts of you won’t let me be
Oh, please, set me free

memories gone and skills lost
we can be cured at what cost

You didn’t want to take from me what I didn’t want to give
But all I want in this moment is to let go and live

Oh, my dear
please calm my fear
by staying near
as the demons jeer
and the ghosts leer
whisper in my ear
when the coast is clear

Would you mind if I stayed here forever?
Your embrace protects me from the weather
Your insults don't hurt, they're just clever
Your gentle breath make me sleep better
Your faith prepares me for whatever

We were meant to be,
even if not romantically

Your lips enveloped mine
and the world began to shine

Do you even miss me?
Not as far as I can see

You give me
just enough
to make me think you're not just taking

You love me
just enough
to make me think you don't hate me

You hug me
just enough
to make me think you care about me

You forget about me
just enough
to make me think you do not

With lots of pride
But no love in your eyes
What do I need to do
To be worthy of all of you

Your voice drifted over me like a long awaited hug
enveloping my ears as hands do a well worn mug
Your words did not explain much more than science
but I understood everything from your silence

The fires burn throughout the night
We try to leave them out of sight
But when darkness swallows the light
we can not ignore our plight
as it burns so bright
striking us into fright

We try to stomp them out with all our might
but only living water can make it right

You make me want to write
letting my heart take flight
fluttering toward the light
leaving behind my fright
'til it's out of mind and sight
because you and I just feels right

For months I’ve prayed that you might
realize you’re not alone in the fight
and wake up to see the light
but no matter how bright
it can’t seem to catch your sight
and you’re still living in darkened fright

As hard as I try
I can not justify
this intense need to cry

Reaching the light
may be an uphill fight
But once you make it you’ll take flight
so keep pushing with all your might

I struggle with the fact
that this scene isn't just another act
This time it's real
and I have to decide how I feel

There’s nothing to worry about
and that’s what makes me doubt

Grief is so traumatic
because you expect the change to be dramatic
But the world keeps spinning
and the mundane keeps winning

Maybe I’m so drawn to the dead and dying
because, by that point, they’ve stopped lying

I isolated myself entirely
because people never did want me