I want to be the sun to you
but I am simply a tornado to everyone

I was not raised Catholic
but I filed into Mass this morning
and received ashes from a priest who was not mine

I was not raised Catholic
but I remembered to stop after 'the evil one' this morning
though our Lord's Prayer includes two extra lines

I was not raised Catholic
but I stumbled through a prayer this morning
for a woman to whom I did not grow up praying

I was not raised Catholic
but I chose to observe Lent this morning
though I had never given anything up before last year

I was not raised Catholic
but I remembered how much I love Mass this morning
and how much respect I have for the beauty of Catholic worship

I was raised Protestant
but I serve a God, this morning and every morning,
who deserves a Catholic reverence

i told him my favorite track
it was his favorite too
i wonder if he could see in my eyes
that i got it from you

i went to text you today
not bc i missed you
bc i wanted something you have
bc i wanted your help
bc i wanted an explanation of something you understand better than me
and i realized
that you only ever texted because you wanted something i have
i just have more to offer than you do

Something about the unknown
felt just like home

Words trail around
in my head
with no semblance
of organization
no rhythm no rhyme
certainly no sense of time
and I long for
the perfection that used to be
where now I see only me