I put myself out there
For you
It wasn't much but it was all I could do
But she did that too
I guess she was more for you
Jokes on you
I backed down
and the other one stepped in
And you considered that a win
I'm glad I got out when I did
Because you ****

It feels childish at times
Me, trying to coherently express
What I have felt
In lines, in stanzas, in rhymes
It feels all too futile sometimes
To think that I have to say something
That others have already said

Stress. Stress. Stress.

Everything bursting at the seams. My mind is screaming.

"Please, do something!"
I cant. I cant. I cant.

Breathe, please everything is going to be okay.
School is temporary.

But stress is for now.
Stress, fear, I cant I cant

A wall, I need to do something, anything. My future is almost here.
I want to, I need to
But I cant bring myself to.

The what-ifs
The hypotheticals
All of half of my brain's creation
Running amuck and destroying
My precious dialectics all created
By my other brain
Who so cleverly claims
That it will prove to be illogical
For anything to transpire
Between us

She had put her faith into you
You held her trust in your hands
And every so often
You'd squeeze and tug
To see how far you could get
Before breaking her completely

I still think of you sometimes
And
Occasionally
Tears are brought to my eyes
Because of what you did
I can never see you
As anything
Not even a friend

Forgive me of my skepticism
As I find it hard to believe
That someone will actually
Love me
For me
There is no sadness within that thought
Occasionally, I've found myself at ease
Thinking that I'll only have to talk to me