When the air begins to cool
And the wind brings change
Glee begins to bubble and brew
As life begins to float behind the thought
Of a cloud covered sun
And the fuzzy state of mind
Of that of a perfect cozy scene

In the end
After it's all over
Moment like these
Make me appreciate life
To the fullest
After the pain, and the troubles have past
In a wave that has undoubtedly
Affected me
And changed my path
I am able to sit and realize
The beauty of everything and its worth

Am I motivated by
A thirst?
Or an association of worth?
Is that why it's never enough?
Never enough late nights
Never enough cringes at the state
Of a capital letter

If only it was that easy
If only the red string of fate
Was a reality
If only I knew someone out there
Loved me
In certainty
But, rather
I get a strange sort of freedom
In which it's half up to me
And for someone
Who's not good at decision making
It's a rather difficult thing

Cold and bitter
Lies on my tongue
Harmonious balance
Of right and wrong
Sweet yet acidic
Perfectly extracted
The effects
No longer work
But the taste will always linger
From the heavenly bewilderment
Of how a drink can taste so good

Mom
Why are you hiding?
I cant help you anymore
Don't you know?
All the bad memories I have with you
And you don't remember do you?
That night in my room
You had taken too many, hadn't you?
You said all those things
And yet I have to forgive you
Because I understand now
That wasn't really you