Where's the Music Man?
He's gone away, off to play
Along with my understanding
He rips it off with an apology
And goes to a redwood tree
Very far away from me
I miss that man terribly
He doesn't understand
I need his understanding
For my sanity

I regret the endless nights
I thought of you
Of how you could maybe like me too
Of the perpetual zugzwang
You made me play
And I can see it now
Spot it from a mild away
Your childishness
That dragged me away
Will be the cause of your pain

And the truth is

I deserve better
I am a perpetual summer
I am a joyful serenade
I can see color in the gray

And in the end
You lose
You will lose her eventually
Due to your flippancy
And you have lost me
An incredible feat

I am terribly afraid
Of my mind
Deciding it doesn't want to stay
Of not being able
To remember the days
Of my memories slipping away
My body becoming a shell
My mind empty
My soul hardly hanging onto me
Independence lost from me
Slowly, so slowly
I'll forget those closest to me
My family
Will be ghosts to me
And slowly, so slowly
I'll forget to breath
As it did to you
It might do to them
And me as well