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291 · May 2016
Desired Destination
Elexer May 2016
When our desired destination
Is just a right turn
Why do we then
Go left
Drive around the block
Once, twice, three times
Take three more left turns
Ending up where we started
And realize only then
How to turn right?

And how come, by then,
That road doesn't exist anymore?

Because we were never really
Behind the wheel at all
291 · Nov 2015
Haiku
Elexer Nov 2015
This is a haiku
I hope everyone likes it
It's snowing on mount fuji
*game grumps reference*
290 · Jun 2016
Rambling Mindful
Elexer Jun 2016
You know, you can't feel new
If your circumstances don't reflect you
It's just what you were that you feel
And what you are isn't real
Your time is wasted in nights
When you think your work is your rights
The innocence is lost throughout the day
But the person hasn't changed in any way
Being given the orders isn't being grown
Maturity is with the knowledge that's known

Someday it will all end
When your bloom is late
So give caution to the wind
Then worry about fate
290 · May 2017
Strong, Forever Strong
Elexer May 2017
Pain is presence
Presence is pain
Pain presents itself
Presenting, itself, is pain
When you ache and groan,
I notice it
It chills me to the bone
Nowhere to sit
When you call out for help
I'm fully aware
You're the puddle when you melt
You wonder if you can relate to grass
As you feel people stepping on you
You feel them on your ***
To say something is taboo
You don't deserve that, you know
You've done nothing wrong
Inherently, although
The feeling is lifelong
I can never truly understand
What it's like to be you, and
You stick to solid ground,
But you're sinking in the sand
Being a woman is hard, man.
288 · Mar 2016
Five More Minutes
Elexer Mar 2016
Because somehow,
Somehow she always ends up
In my arms again
Always, back in my arms
And i'm screaming, begging
I'm back begging her to stay here
But she leaves,
And i'm left alone, begging
For just five more minutes
286 · Dec 2015
Family
Elexer Dec 2015
Your family
Brother, sister
Mother, father
Niece, nephew
They're all you've got
In this world where
Everyone is out to get you
It seems, family,
It's all you can trust
You may hate them
As people, sometimes
You can't really help that
They may treat you badly
They might break you
From time to time
But they're all you've got
You know?
And whether you like it or not
They stay forever
And they love you
Not because they should
But because that's just
Something inside us all
We sorta have to
Love our family
No real choice in the matter
So trust them
Help them
Love them
It's not like
You have much of a choice
They're yours
For good
284 · Dec 2015
Falling, In Love
Elexer Dec 2015
Falling infinitely
Well maybe not,
I know there's an end
Soon, and it won't be pretty
Back to the ground
Means it will be unexpected
The sky is moving further away
No life flashing before my eyes
Only love
My love
Everything i did wrong
Becomes evident now
With impending death
I think, were i not falling
I would tell her everything
I'm thinking now
Maybe i'd ask her to marry me
That's what i've wanted after all
She's the only one i could stand
Such a miserable life
But one bright spot
But were i not falling,
I wouldn't be thinking this
I'd just be making
The same mistakes again
Unappreciative
I hope she somehow knows
That i'm sorry
For all the pain i caused her
The only thing i want to see now
Is her face
And i can't remember
What it looks like
For whatever reason
All i can see is
The sky moving further away
Now distant
****
Wish i could see
That beautiful face
One more time
All i can see
Is darkness
283 · Dec 2015
Untitled
Elexer Dec 2015
I hate myself
My life
My lack of friends
My personality
I'd welcome death
If i weren't such a coward
I hate myself
283 · Nov 2015
Broken (part 3)
Elexer Nov 2015
For the second time
It's almost better this time
Two hundred
Twenty eight thousand
Nine hundred
Ninety six pieces
I will
Two hundred
Twenty eight thousand
Nine hundred
Ninety five pieces
Finally,
No more running
No more chasing
The pieces are cooperating
You were so broken
And you still are
When i finish
And i will
I can tell the final image
Will have breaks and tears
But i can feel myself being
Part of it
I am
Two hundred
Twenty eight thousand
Nine hundred
Ninety four pieces
I am, and i will
Two hundred
Twenty eight thousand
Nine hundred
Ninety three pieces
We are,
And we will
283 · Jun 2017
Indecisive Scenes
Elexer Jun 2017
Such a weird feeling
To be around you
I've never felt
So happy, and yet
So utterly sad
At the same time
I've never wanted
To **** myself
So much, while
I'm smiling, and laughing
And thinking about what could be
If i just don't give up
I have this outlandish idea
That you don't want me to give up
That i have to show you
Truly how far i'll go
I would tear down this planet
And build a new one
Just so you'd have a new place
To go to get away from me
Trust me, love
As much as your instinct tells you not to,
Let go, and trust me. Please
282 · Feb 2016
Thank you
Elexer Feb 2016
If the sun refused to shine,
I would still be loving you.
When mountains crumble to the sea,
There will still be you and me.
Kind woman, I give you my all,
Kind woman, nothing more
Little drops of rain whisper of the pain,
Tears of loves lost in the days gone by
My love is strong,
With you there is no wrong,
Together we shall go until we die
An inspiration is what you are to me
And so today, my world it smiles,
Your hand in mine, we walk the miles,
Thanks to you it will be done,
For you to me are the only one
Happiness, no more be sad,
Happiness, I'm glad
If the sun refused to shine,
I would still be loving you
When mountains crumble to the sea,
There will still be you and me
Beautiful words by Led Zeppelin
282 · Feb 2016
Drunk with Sadness
Elexer Feb 2016
It's 12:01 a.m.
On two-twenty eight
My life isn't over
But i've suffered my fate
And although i know
I still can't think
My heart, it throbs
Every time i blink
Third person, limited
Objective is the view
Drunk with sadness
Don't know what to do
The point is coming
It's coming pretty soon
For this poem, this poem
This poem on the moon
I mention the day
Because it's a special one
An anniversary of sorts
When a miracle was done
She'll be happy, i hope
But i'll never really know
She's a flower, right,
'Cept she needs space to grow
I'll ***** my heart out
If i go on much more
At least it's not another poem
About the stupid *****
So feliz cumpleaños
My sweet girl
I hope you wish...
Whoops, gotta hurl!
281 · Apr 2016
Shadows in the Dark
Elexer Apr 2016
This is the start
And you are the first
We are just kids
But soon i'll be cursed
Playing and laughing
I love you so much
My heart is so tender
So soft to the touch
But you will move on
To bigger and better things
A fallen angel,
You lose your wings
Moving on now
The next one is new
I feel myself levitating
When i'm looking at you
Your beautiful brown eyes
And the hair so red
But before it has started
Our future is dead
I'm still not over it
But you will not be the last
No, the next one still stings
You come and go so fast
I love you most of all
Falling in love with you
Is literally my downfall
I could write books about you
Thousands, millions of them
You will darken my world
And make my life dim
But next is a short one
I need more from this
I care for you deeply, but
You leave my heart in the abyss
The last is least
That is, how much i care
You are perfect, i am lost
You are blissfully unaware
From The First, to VLG
And The Bell, to The Cat
To The Beauty, they go
I love them, and they hate that

But here i am now
Waiting for one more spark
Moving my hands, crying,
Making shadows in the dark
280 · Feb 2016
Silent Dawn
Elexer Feb 2016
I began to lose control
There was a tension
Growing ever stronger
My pillow flattened
And the covers withdrew
The heat froze to a chill
And i remembered
That i hurt you
I was so confused before
But then, in that moment
I remembered perfectly
It was bliss, my life
And then it was pain
Just like that, pain
And i cried the night
Into a silent dawn
Until the wind was hot
The covers came back
The pillow fluffed
And in an instant,
Altogether, i forgot again
I forgot that i hurt you
And i forgot why you left
280 · Aug 2019
Change It
Elexer Aug 2019
You can’t change it
You can’t rearrange it
Time is all that we’ve got
So baby let’s take it.
Credit to Stevie Ray Vaughan
Elexer Jul 2019
It’s a terrible affliction
You’re my addiction
But maybe I’ll have a better mood tomorrow
278 · Jul 2017
Wakeless Aversion
Elexer Jul 2017
No risk
Full aversion
Sleep my life away
Because living it is harder
At least my dreams
Can make me somewhat happy
I get to see her
In some of them
And because I'll die
If I have to live with this ****
278 · Mar 2016
Still in Limbo
Elexer Mar 2016
All i know
Is that i'm in limbo
And no matter how close
I get to an angel or demon
I'm never in heaven or hell
Just still in limbo
277 · Apr 2016
Hero
Elexer Apr 2016
Hero,
Legend,
Idol,
His loss will mean the loss of control
Gave all
He could
Give
The greatest to ever live
277 · Jan 2016
Last Words
Elexer Jan 2016
If i had any last words,
If i had to do that sort of thing,
They would be this, i think:

Why has the good lord chosen
To treat me this way
With my one life
The only one i get
**** i love life
It's just so fascinating
The colors and the sounds
Flowers and laughter
People, lovers and friends
Love...
Living life is what i hate
So great from a distance
But up close, so messy
I've smiled until my death
But will never lie about it
It was miserable
And to those i drove away
That graveyard of mistakes
An apology, the last one
Because i could've been better
I loved you all
Ah, the helplessness
I'm already dead
Taking my head is only
The extra measure you must take
So goodbye life
And thank you for this
Terribly wonderful experience
It was quite the nightmare
276 · Feb 2017
Drops In the River
Elexer Feb 2017
Crown of leaves,
High in the window on a gold morning
Young today,
Old as a railroad tomorrow
Days are just
Drops in the river to be lost always
Only you,
Only you, you know

Years ago,
Birds of a feather would arrive nightly
Gone you know,
Held to another like clutched ivy
On the shore,
Speak to the ocean and receive silence
Only you,
Only you, you know

You hesitate, so my memory fades
I'll hold to the first one
"I wouldn't turn to another," you say
On the long night we've made

Let it go

Only you,
Only you, you know
Only you,
Only you, you know

You hesitate, so my memory fades
I'll hold to the first one
"I wouldn't turn to another," you say
On the long night we've made

Let it go
Let it go

Speak to me slow, my dear
No ghost, of course, in here
Pleased to be lonesome, quiet and clear
All is alone in here
Fleet Foxes
275 · Mar 2016
The Broken Ones (An Aside)
Elexer Mar 2016
Why am i so attracted to brokenness?
Like a magnet to little shreds of iron
Picking up all the pieces, naturally
Is it a flaw, or is that my purpose?
Am i meant to, as Jimi Hendrix once said,
"Pick up the all pieces, and make an island?"
Or am i some sick, demented man
Driven by lust to love what others won't?
Maybe i'm wrong, i'm not bad
I actually admire the people
Who are broken, and still come back
To form some new, strong human being
My heroes are the broken ones
Sticking to life with their own adhesive
274 · Dec 2015
ABC
Elexer Dec 2015
ABC
And now i know
My ABCs
*******, C.
274 · Mar 2016
Woman
Elexer Mar 2016
Strong
Bold
Beautiful
Intelligent
Powerful
Kind
Wise
Our better half
Thank you. All of you.
273 · Feb 2023
Rambling About Jenna
Elexer Feb 2023
Keeping quiet
I never return
Eternity
… later
You surface
Forgotten names
It’s Jenna
Until next time
Pay no mind
Stay distracted
Every day
Then, again
Random day
Old faces
Best news
Hope again
Missed chance
But hope still

Time passes
Harder to stand
Just begging
Need some help

He’s got me
I see her
Stop and talk
Got a number
Small world
Go on smiling
Wait a bit

There it is
It’s Jenna
How was your day
Smoking, join?
My mistake

Chaos outside
You hear this?
Remember,
That’s the name

Asking again
And then,
Borrow my car?
I’ll take you
Weird excuses
Take a nap
And…
… nothing
For too long
I keep trying
Still nice
Still patient
But nothing

Last try
One question
What’s the question?
There she is
This…
… is Jenna
I’m a loser
Hate this
Poor medium
But fine
I don’t know you
You don’t know me
Borrow my car?
Why?
Next question
What did I do?
What happened?
Then nothing.

Elexer Dec 2015
I had this dream tonight
Resting my head on a pillow
Waiting for my drunken sibling
In this dream it's Christmas eve
And the world is as it is
And i meet my girl
I mean the girl who was mine
Until she decided
To destroy my world
I meet my girl and she tells me
Through a crooked evil grin
It was all a joke
The tears, the argument,
My world's sad end
A cruel joke yes, but
What i know she wanted
Was the excitement in my eyes
When they saw the flames
Being put out
And all the lies
And terrible things were
False like the lightly dim night
And that is what happened
I shed a tear and kissed her
A hundred times or more
And in that moment
We were back together
That was the greatest gift of all
On a Christmas in my dream
And it's not even real
Is the saddest part
Not at all as real as it seemed
273 · Nov 2015
Six Days
Elexer Nov 2015
No period of six days
Has ever felt so long
As this one seems to
I've never felt so wrong
Feel like I'm in a maze
With an hour long ****** song
Stuck in my head all day
For some reason I'm singing along
Going backwards in a daze
271 · May 2016
Timothy's Problem
Elexer May 2016
Timothy can't find his happiness
It's abandoned him it seems
Though he does not know it now
He sees it in his dreams
It escapes his grasp, it runs away
In every single scene
It may be confusing him
But he knows just what it means
And it really gets to him
It hurts him to the core
If it goes like this much longer
He can't fight it anymore
He shudders every minute
With every step he takes
He does not know why
He hears his heart break
He's given it some thought
And taken all his time
He just might have to do it
Have a bit of wine
It will crush who he is
Who he wanted always to be
But he doesn't have a choice
He knows it is the key
Then hopefully he'll get the girl
The one who likes to sing
When he hears her pretty song
He'll imagine her with wings
If it works, he can be happy
All smiles and laughter
With her he can live on
Happily ever after
271 · Nov 2015
Nothing Will Come of It
Elexer Nov 2015
If i thought it was enough,
If i thought today was enough,
Maybe i could come back home
Without my sorrows
Without all of those things
And this thing we've come
To recognize again will die
We will all forget
what makes us happy
Really, actually happy
And it is not too soon to say
Nothing will come of it
269 · Feb 2017
A Person Like Me
Elexer Feb 2017
Death is too kind
For a person like me
269 · Aug 2017
Alternate Wake (Mine)
Elexer Aug 2017
Yeah soon you may find
Me with a married man
So take to the sky
With all you can
You can go
Or you can be my friend
On your way here
I read your fears
I understand
Why you're here
You won't go
Because you know the end
Sometimes you say
The silliest things
And no one brings
The happiness you bring
Please don't go
We're on the mend

Please don't go...
I'll need you again...
I'll stand in your way, and I'll bring you dismay, but I'd rather decay.
267 · Nov 2015
Beyond Saving
Elexer Nov 2015
Another cigarette
Another case of beer
Another bad decision
Another child of fear

One more time
One more day
One more fault
One more fray

Keep on smoking
Keep on drinking
Keep on ruining
Keep on sinking

Continue your mess
Continue your ways
Continue ******* us up
Continue to pray

You think God
is going to fix
what you've done?

One more far fetched game
Keep on wishing
Continue your dream
Elexer Jul 2017
She told me once
And a thousand times
No
Not gonna happen
Never again
And every time
I thought differently
I never listened
Because I'm a man
And men get their way
She'll tell me again
A thousand more times
No
Not gonna happen
Never again
And every time
I'll think differently
I'll never listen
Because I'm a man
And men get their way
Btw i can see how this could seem like aggressively misogynistic in a certain light. It's not. It's the opposite. Promise.
261 · Jan 2016
Violins
Elexer Jan 2016
I am just another fool,
And I have to keep telling myself that
I am just a hypocrite,
And I have to keep calling you one
Cause I forgot to bite my tongue
And my assumption,
It is the mother of all mistakes
So I assume the role,
Open my mouth,
And clumsy words escape

So why do you wanna be there,
When you could be here,
You are slipping away

I awake to your replacement,
A bottle in my mouth,
In an unfamiliar place
Because you put me out,
The **** of a sick joke,
Into this ashtray life
As you come and go,
Cause I forgot to service you,
And we broke down
And you can't live with my mistakes,
But I assume false grace
Open my arms
And grasp for something true

How are you,
How have you been,
Girl I miss you,
Wanna see you again
Oh why do you wanna be there,
When you could be here,
You are slipping away

I bring out the worst in you,
And you try to let me know
You bring out the worst in me,
Anxiety, anxiety
I'm trying hard to let you go, but
You say I'm giving you the creeps
So I assume the role,
Open my claws
And grasp for your heart

How are you,
How have you been,
Girl I miss you,
Wanna **** you again
Into you like a mortal stake
So vindictive
Your love's slipping away
Violins by Lagwagon
261 · Feb 2016
Amnesia
Elexer Feb 2016
I've felt the Earth crumble in my arms
Words slip from my mind
The life of a paradigm
There's such an infinite array 
It's meaningless to choose one
And those choices on their own
Are as meaningless as numbers
But if we put them together
They start to form something real
We have to take life one day at a time
If we don't, it starts to cluster
We get weeks in a day
Months in a week
Years in a season
The life we had once, slowly
Withers and becomes a lesson learned
Rather than an experience
It's a bad dream
Rather than a memory
We gasp for our final breath
Wishing we could have a little more time
Rather than tell the world it's time to go
Knowing we did everything
We were supposed to do
The way we knew
We were supposed to do it
But it's something 
We've got to deal with
Something we have to see
It feels like the only point
Of life is the means to an end
When that end nears
You want no complaints
Death has no ears to hear them
Nor a mouth to respond
A universe is created, or born
Every time a love dies
And one is destroyed
When a love lasts to face death
With none before or after
Thus, you have too many universes 
As humans, we have a need
A desire, a hunger, a craving
For this powerful love
Too many let it pass away
Too many suffer because of that
Cuts and bruises don't measure
To loss and sadness
Nerve and negligence
Serve a king of dangling bodies

And what substance is there?
What reason do you have
To be truly grateful?
Nothing at all, except,
That the situation is not equal
You don't always get a bad roll of the dice
Even when it turns up snake eyes. 
And whatever happens, happens,
Truly,
And i know it to be true

As i've experienced death
Life is, itself, 
The never-ending cycle of hatred
And it's up to us to end it
The path to this execution
Has always been somewhat
Generally specific
Love one another
Differences, cast them aside
We are different, inherently

So let that go, and let that be
Love one another
And let our souls be free
Leave the grass green
And the oceans blue
It's ok, i know someday
I'm going to be with you
All of you, my fellow beings
We'll come through
We'll make it to our own

Eden
260 · Apr 2016
Still Alive
Elexer Apr 2016
A father
His suicide
A drugged up mom
Depression
A miscarriage
A ****** life's bomb
Bipolar
Pessimism
Being just a pawn
PTSD
Insomnia
How do you go on?
259 · Jan 2016
Someday When I'm Younger
Elexer Jan 2016
Someday when i'm younger
I'll have more time to say
Things i always wanted to
And i'll attack the flaws
That were so hard to find
It seems i'm forever Old

But someday when i'm younger
I'll tell women in my life
That i don't have time for them
I'll tell them to grow up
I'll have a future but
No growing up to do, my own

And someday when i'm younger
There won't be things
I have no clue about
I'll be in love with someone
And i'll have high self esteem
Happiness won't be so far away

Yeah, someday when i'm younger
I'll think about the things
I did when i had the chance
Rather than think about
What i didn't do when i had the chance
I'll be brave, and people will like me...

Someday...
258 · Nov 2016
Find me
Elexer Nov 2016
It's 1 a.m.
And you're leaving
You've lost me
After you so recently
Found me
My busted finger
Is nothing
Compared to
The heartbreak
If you don't find me
Again
My message to you
Please listen
Ignore everything
Come back
Where you first
Found me
Bind yourself
To the purity
Of young love
And find me
Please find me
Because i'm lost
Without you
258 · May 2016
Message to Self
Elexer May 2016
Are you awake?
Are you even alive?
I need you to be
Because soon, good will come
You'll need to be there for that
Do you remember when you were sad?
When you were alone?
When you hated yourself?
When you wanted to be someone else?
So badly that it hurt
So badly that it still hurts
What about when you were angry?
When sadness turned sour?
When you directed it toward the one you love?
How bad did you feel then?
Do you remember?
Do you?
Because i need you to
It will make you stronger
And it will help us win the next one
The next battle that decides our happiness

Wake up.
Get up.
Put on your shoes.
Get your **** together.
Remember.
And make sure that **** doesn't happen again.
258 · Nov 2016
Rambling Domesticated
Elexer Nov 2016
If I'm a dog, I'm a dog
A cat would be better
She likes those more
But it is not terrible
I like my position
Of course I am,
A dog, that is
Because I pant and I whine
And wait patiently at the door
Waiting for you to come back
So eager for you to pet me
Rub my belly
Show me your love
For the little while
That you care to show it
Because you're distracted
By things more important
I get that
I'm just a dog
And there are people
And cats and responsibilities
You need to attend to
I don't fault you
You are my owner
I love you unconditionally
I'll die for you
But just for right now
I want your attention
Even if its a fraction of it
I just want you to keep petting me
And stroking my ears
While you do the other things
So I'll keep forcing my snout
Between your leg and your hand
In hopes that you won't find it annoying
But just mindlessly pet me
Because you're the sweetest
Most gracious girl
A domesticated man could ask for
But your attention is elsewhere
And I need you right here
Again this is not an angry or depressed rant, its just how i feel and i could use more love. Preferably behind the ears. Lol
257 · Dec 2016
Sweet Release
Elexer Dec 2016
Someday
I'll have sweet release
But my pleasure will come from sparing them
Because she won't have to worry about me
Nor will the rest of them
And they'll all live happily ever after
Without me
I'll no longer annoy the **** out of them
Someday
256 · Dec 2016
Alone
Elexer Dec 2016
I showed i care
And i'm all alone
I killed my desires
And i'm all alone
I did what you said
And i'm all alone
I spent so much money...
...none of which you wanted
And i'm all alone
I made myself the bad guy
And i'm all alone
I cried in my car
And i'm all alone
I did everything i could...
...to make you happy
And i'm all alone
I halted communication
And i'm all alone
I committed to you
And i'm all alone
I'm sitting here in love...
...wishing you were here
And i'm all alone
All. Alone.
256 · Dec 2015
Weary, Heavy, and Dark
Elexer Dec 2015
Mellow. Like a cloud
If that's right
To be compared to
It's how i feel
It's my anger and sorrow
It's the fire and rain
All that fills my heart
A heart of darkness
So meaningless
Everything that has happened
None of it mattered
The people didn't
The *******
The hatred burns
Lava overflowing the cloud
The mellow cloud
I've turned into a psychopath
I think, because of the mellowness
I feel nothing even though
I should feel these feelings
I know i should push through
She said i could
But **** her
I want to die
I never belonged
But now it's even more
Evident
Cold, everyone has been to me
Cold, when i'm dead, i'll be
Cold, i feel nothing
****, be killed
It matters not
To me
I feel nothing
Just mellow
Like a cloud
No thunder
No lightning
No rain
Just white and fluffy
Feeling nothing
256 · Jun 2016
Calm With Regret
Elexer Jun 2016
I just can't stand it
It's ever irritating
I want to go home
256 · Nov 2015
Fuck it
Elexer Nov 2015
**** life
Its such a
Never ending
Circle of
Cliche stories
We love
We hate
We ****
We abstain
It doesn't matter
None of it
Not for me anyway
I might as well be dead
Believe me
I wish that i was dead
I can't do any
**** thing right...
256 · Jul 2016
Rambling Useless
Elexer Jul 2016
A cause for caution
The distance in the middle
When the hands aren't touching
And i can't return the call
There was a storm tonight
And my heart isn't calm
Now yours isn't either
I know that's the problem
But it's all better now
Or it can be, it could be
That is, if you still want me
Because i know i'm of no help to you
253 · Jan 2019
Seeing, Losing, Yearning
Elexer Jan 2019
Listen to me:

The more you see
The less I’m me
The worse you think
The further you sink
You’re captured inside
Your needing to hide
Don’t slip through your skin
To the depression within

If you can trust what you know
We can both fight this foe
And if you do know me
Then happier, we’ll be
But now, you must be brave
And not fear what I gave
You must listen once more:
Something wonderful is in store
Pure and genuine, you are indeed.
252 · Feb 2016
Unguided Spirit
Elexer Feb 2016
Have you ever started walking,
And you're sort of wandering?
I mean you have a path
There is a direction,
There is a destination,
But your mind isn't going there with you
Your mind disappears from your body
It goes somewhere else
To the point where you're sort of
Just blindly walking
Still going the right way
And at the point that you are
Near the destination,
You start to realize that
You aren't you
You have no opinions,
No desires, no needs
Death and poverty become
Just words with a textbook meaning
Rather than actual problems
You realize that you are only
A symbol or an idea
Of what you once were
And once wanted to be
Have you?
252 · Dec 2015
Eternal inevitable sadness
Elexer Dec 2015
Everyone
I push away everyone
Everyone i care about
Everyone i love
Everyone who can stand to hate me
Not on purpose
I've pushed away some of the greatest
The most amazing people
I don't know how
To keep it from happening
Again and again and again
And again and again and again
I'm in hell
Because when bad things happen
It's just life
When they are all your fault
And you have no idea how
Or why
Or what could have prevented them
It's hell
251 · Jan 2016
Good Blood
Elexer Jan 2016
With the world the way it is
The way it seems to be
It's an opportune time
To explore the sky
And the world around me

I wake up with a thirst
For blood and death
I hunt with others
It fills me with excitement
Makes me feel alive
As far as the world is concerned
I'm not here
The Earth rotates
My heart turns to dust
My mind wanders
Drearily, wearily
Becoming cloudy
With each second
I feel the sun pulling me
Lost, i look up
All i see is moon
With a witch on one side
And a snake on the other
The One in Charge has no answer
Silence fills the air
My feet tremble
The ground shakes
For a while
The moon turns red
And clouds dance
Across the purple sky
One is reborn
The wind and a wolf
Howl in harmony
For a moment, we can all
See the world
And go back
To making it better
I wake up
To a bright, white moonrise
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