All i know
Is that i'm in limbo
And no matter how close
I get to an angel or demon
I'm never in heaven or hell
Just still in limbo

But you're wrong, my dear
You're mistaken
It is not me
I told you before
I know how it is
Better than you could ever know
Because i've lived through it all
More than once, sweet girl
It hurts, and it won't stop
Maybe it didn't start with you
It's certainly not your fault
But when you turned me away,
In The Midst of the Stars,
Remember?
You had the chance there
To end the cycle
That my life continues to perform
In that moment,
I loved you and no one else
So you think it's worth it?
You think i'll prevail?
Perhaps you don't know me
And my world
As much as i thought

Why am i so attracted to brokenness?
Like a magnet to little shreds of iron
Picking up all the pieces, naturally
Is it a flaw, or is that my purpose?
Am i meant to, as Jimi Hendrix once said,
"Pick up the all pieces, and make an island?"
Or am i some sick, demented man
Driven by lust to love what others won't?
Maybe i'm wrong, i'm not bad
I actually admire the people
Who are broken, and still come back
To form some new, strong human being
My heroes are the broken ones
Sticking to life with their own adhesive

It's 12:01 a.m.
On two-twenty eight
My life isn't over
But i've suffered my fate
And although i know
I still can't think
My heart, it throbs
Every time i blink
Third person, limited
Objective is the view
Drunk with sadness
Don't know what to do
The point is coming
It's coming pretty soon
For this poem, this poem
This poem on the moon
I mention the day
Because it's a special one
An anniversary of sorts
When a miracle was done
She'll be happy, i hope
But i'll never really know
She's a flower, right,
'Cept she needs space to grow
I'll ***** my heart out
If i go on much more
At least it's not another poem
About the stupid *****
So feliz cumpleaños
My sweet girl
I hope you wish...
Whoops, gotta hurl!

Imperfection, this feeling
And the level of self expectation
Misunderstood, but not right
Dying for attention, this feeling
Even just eye contact
Another person, another body
Do you ever really need somebody?
It eats away at the soul
Never fasting for a second
Slowly destroying the inside
It creates a crater of hatred
Draining the heart of love
Extracts the person from the body

You check and you see
I know, i know
I'm okay, or am i?
I don't exist to you anymore
I'm a figment of your past
And maybe i'm wrong
Maybe you're right
Maybe it is dark
But i think it's bright
The future could be
Joyous for us
If you just tried again
I know, i know
I can live without you
But a fraction of my heart
Is on life support for now
Hoping for your return
But it won't happen
This isn't a fairy tale
No happy endings for me
There never have been
But the same goes for you
You missed it
Because i do this thing, see?
I make a happy ending
For others, see?
But you skipped out
And i no longer exist
Just know, sweet girl,
I'm not okay, nor will i be
For the rest of my life
So you check, and you see
I know, i know
This is how things have to be...

If the sun refused to shine,
I would still be loving you.
When mountains crumble to the sea,
There will still be you and me.
Kind woman, I give you my all,
Kind woman, nothing more
Little drops of rain whisper of the pain,
Tears of loves lost in the days gone by
My love is strong,
With you there is no wrong,
Together we shall go until we die
An inspiration is what you are to me
And so today, my world it smiles,
Your hand in mine, we walk the miles,
Thanks to you it will be done,
For you to me are the only one
Happiness, no more be sad,
Happiness, I'm glad
If the sun refused to shine,
I would still be loving you
When mountains crumble to the sea,
There will still be you and me