I am just another fool,
And I have to keep telling myself that
I am just a hypocrite,
And I have to keep calling you one
Cause I forgot to bite my tongue
And my assumption,
It is the mother of all mistakes
So I assume the role,
Open my mouth,
And clumsy words escape

So why do you wanna be there,
When you could be here,
You are slipping away

I awake to your replacement,
A bottle in my mouth,
In an unfamiliar place
Because you put me out,
The **** of a sick joke,
Into this ashtray life
As you come and go,
Cause I forgot to service you,
And we broke down
And you can't live with my mistakes,
But I assume false grace
Open my arms
And grasp for something true

How are you,
How have you been,
Girl I miss you,
Wanna see you again
Oh why do you wanna be there,
When you could be here,
You are slipping away

I bring out the worst in you,
And you try to let me know
You bring out the worst in me,
Anxiety, anxiety
I'm trying hard to let you go, but
You say I'm giving you the creeps
So I assume the role,
Open my claws
And grasp for your heart

How are you,
How have you been,
Girl I miss you,
Wanna **** you again
Into you like a mortal stake
So vindictive
Your love's slipping away

You should be careful
When you juggle knives
There are people you love
And you could end those lives

You think that it's simple
Or its all just a game
If it's alright with you
We are not all the same

It's just not fair
And it seems that way
But it all comes together
At the end of the day

And we'll be with each other
If you let that be, here
There's nothing more
That you need to fear

I'll be here, and there
I'll be your bleeding star
In the darkest night
Sit here with me in your car

Forever please

Some coincidences
Are crazy
The numbers
The meanings
At 6:38, she wrote,
Use the numbers
Multiply them
You get 228
Significance?
Evident, her day
Coincidence?
Possibly, but really
I could never know
But she loves numbers
She'd appreciate that
I know it

If i had any last words,
If i had to do that sort of thing,
They would be this, i think:

Why has the good lord chosen
To treat me this way
With my one life
The only one i get
**** i love life
It's just so fascinating
The colors and the sounds
Flowers and laughter
People, lovers and friends
Love...
Living life is what i hate
So great from a distance
But up close, so messy
I've smiled until my death
But will never lie about it
It was miserable
And to those i drove away
That graveyard of mistakes
An apology, the last one
Because i could've been better
I loved you all
Ah, the helplessness
I'm already dead
Taking my head is only
The extra measure you must take
So goodbye life
And thank you for this
Terribly wonderful experience
It was quite the nightmare

Meadowlark, fly your way down
I hold a cornucopia and a golden crown
For you to wear upon your fleecy down

My meadowlark, sing to me

Hummingbird, just let me die
Inside the broken ovals of your olive eyes
I do believe you gave it your best try

My hummingbird, sing to me

Don't believe a word that I haven't heard
Little children laughing at the boys and girls
The meadowlark singing to you each and every day
The arc light on the hillside and the market in the hay

Apologies disintegrate
So much regret i have
One swift swing of your blade
Silently, i die
You'll never understand
How much i'll suffer
Without your silly siren

With the world the way it is
The way it seems to be
It's an opportune time
To explore the sky
And the world around me

I wake up with a thirst
For blood and death
I hunt with others
It fills me with excitement
Makes me feel alive
As far as the world is concerned
I'm not here
The Earth rotates
My heart turns to dust
My mind wanders
Drearily, wearily
Becoming cloudy
With each second
I feel the sun pulling me
Lost, i look up
All i see is moon
With a witch on one side
And a snake on the other
The One in Charge has no answer
Silence fills the air
My feet tremble
The ground shakes
For a while
The moon turns red
And clouds dance
Across the purple sky
One is reborn
The wind and a wolf
Howl in harmony
For a moment, we can all
See the world
And go back
To making it better
I wake up
To a bright, white moonrise