Happy, if we're talking
What could have been
Meaningful, and full
Of emotion, good feelings
I never had doubt
All you had to do
Was let it work
Two lives that will be
Now forever plagued
With sadness and misfortune
They'll end on the same day
And far away
From each other
The problem here
Was not me, it was you
My dear, my darling
My sweetheart
I loved your singing, but,
Sad, if we're talking
What will be
Meaningless, and empty
With regret

How do you let go
When she's the first one
You ever really loved
When years ago
You swore that you would
**** and die for her
The first time you felt that way
About someone else
You find that they might
Be happy, while you aren't
How do you let it go
How do you keep from
The overly protective instincts
Almost like a parent
You accepted you weren't
To be with her
Or even see her again
But come to find
There is someone else
She can trust
But can you trust him?
You knew it would happen
Didn't want to think about it
But realized the inevitability
How do you see him now?
And how do you react now?
And how do you live now?
All the flashbacks from before
Rush to you, paralyzed
You are, sitting, lying
This is the first death
Of the first love

Someday when i'm younger
I'll have more time to say
Things i always wanted to
And i'll attack the flaws
That were so hard to find
It seems i'm forever Old

But someday when i'm younger
I'll tell women in my life
That i don't have time for them
I'll tell them to grow up
I'll have a future but
No growing up to do, my own

And someday when i'm younger
There won't be things
I have no clue about
I'll be in love with someone
And i'll have high self esteem
Happiness won't be so far away

Yeah, someday when i'm younger
I'll think about the things
I did when i had the chance
Rather than think about
What i didn't do when i had the chance
I'll be brave, and people will like me...

Someday...

There are places I remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Because why
Would anyone
In their right mind
Be in love
With me?

I picked up some pieces
Broken pieces
I put them in a bag
Figured i'd wait until later
To put them together
And i went along
About my business
But at a certain point,
I realized that
For every piece i picked up
Five more appeared
In another place
This brings me to the
Conclusion that
I'll never finish
I'll be done when i die
And i will have accomplished
Nothing i set out for
All of my hearts desires
Will rest in the ground
Without content
It took me this long to see that
My efforts were wasted
And yet i still feel the need
To pick up more broken pieces
And each time i see
Other pieces being formed
Uniting on their own
Without my help
I see pieces of my own
Falling from my body
With shattering descent
Looking behind, i see no one
Picking up what i've left
Do i have to pick up those too?
I feel like a mess
And when it's all said and done,
When i'm dead,
My bag will weigh forty tons
A full bag of broken

Mellow. Like a cloud
If that's right
To be compared to
It's how i feel
It's my anger and sorrow
It's the fire and rain
All that fills my heart
A heart of darkness
So meaningless
Everything that has happened
None of it mattered
The people didn't
The *******
The hatred burns
Lava overflowing the cloud
The mellow cloud
I've turned into a psychopath
I think, because of the mellowness
I feel nothing even though
I should feel these feelings
I know i should push through
She said i could
But **** her
I want to die
I never belonged
But now it's even more
Evident
Cold, everyone has been to me
Cold, when i'm dead, i'll be
Cold, i feel nothing
****, be killed
It matters not
To me
I feel nothing
Just mellow
Like a cloud
No thunder
No lightning
No rain
Just white and fluffy
Feeling nothing