It gave false hope and hidden nightmares within its rays
It gave only lies threw the clouds and left the moon with the sad aftertaste or the truth
The trees knew the truth yet they smiled back
The birds still sang their songs even when the sun didn't sing it back
When did the world prefer a lie?
When did the moon hold so much sadness even in its most peaceful times?
When did the sun deceive the dreamer?
It was when the clouds begged for warmth,
when they couldn't handle winters truth.

She was beautiful
Her dance moved the clouds and shined threw the trees of tomorrows darkness
She was bright and smiled in ways angles couldn't sing, even the moon sat beautifully in her sky
She was the sun and I just a dreamer under her light
She made the coldness of winters sadness leave even for a little while She made it more beautiful then the first shed of leaves in falls embrace
Her light took whatever darkness laying in my mind and turned it into the most loveliest of memories, dreams, and wishes.

its hard to fight this inner storm
the hurricane of emotions
its hard to forget it all and yet I still try
she was taken from me
but my love for her never left
the memories of her haunt me from time to time
I had her once and lost her twice
and now they all expect me to lose her again
she wants to come back but should I let her in?
its not her fault it hurts to hear her voice or to see her smile
she was just a kid
do I allow myself to open up
even with the chance of me braking again?
would it really be worth the fight just to see her again?
my heart hurts and my mind is conflicted
question is: am I ready for her again?
or will my broken heart pollute her joyous life
will my depression spread to her happiness like a virus
will I break her like they broke me?

I've never felt it so strongly till now
I'm envious of her
I don't understand why I feel this way
I don't understand feelings much
I typically block them out
is this normal?
why does it hurt to know that she fell for you?
I never cared before
so why now?
why does it hurt to know I might lose you?
I never cared before
why am I so jealous of someone I don't know much about.

I was thought to be in love once
perhaps the thought was true
the only thing that I knew is the piece of a heart he stole
perhaps he hid it to control it from time to time
to control my heart and the butterflies in my stomach
I was thought to be over this love
perhaps the thought was false
when hes around I try to **** the butterflies with the pain of memories
before they can grow to fast to fight
but when he gives me a look its hard not to feel
I was thought to be over this love
perhaps it was true
the hurt that comes back is the blade I use to exterminate the butterflies
I thought I lost my heart
perhaps its true
my body couldn't function for sometime
perhaps I found someone new
but even though he makes me happy
and hes perfect in every way
he wont love me
and perhaps I wont love him like I loved you
the thing I know is that my heart is confused