I have never understood
The one night stand
To give you body away
And then to demand
That it not be taken

To borrow the flesh of another
For one moment of pleasure
Then to ****** it back at them
To never know for sure
Where your partner has been

To accept the music of their body
In exchange for your own
To share the most private part of your soul
And not to call them home
I’ll never understand a one night stand

I broke myself to fix you

I hated myself to love you

I killed myself to save you

I put myself in darkness to give light to you

I once loved someone
Who never really loved me back
So I decided I would make this person
Who I wanted them to be
So I made them hungry until they shook
I laid them on the floor and made them
Sit up sit up sit up sit up
Until it hurt to stand
I rolled them over, made them go
Up and down up and down up and down
Until it felt like their muscles would bleed
I stood them in the shower
And let the water strip them of their skin
And then
I looked in the mirror
At this person I once loved
And I was still not satisfied

Why do stupid people
Feel the need
To share
Their misguided opinions
When absolutely no one
Asked for them

I have no pity
For anyone else
Beacause no one
Had any pity for me

I am lonely beyond what words can tell
I am angry beyond what I can say
I am hurt beyond any understanding
And somehow,
I am numb beyond any sort of warmth

Everyday I miss you
But tonight I miss you more
For in the morning you should smile
But tonight the sky’s tears pour
And tonight I miss you more

Everyday gets easier
But tonight is hard
For lavender rain falls
Where wild laughter should flow
And tonight I miss you more

Everyday we spend a part
But tonight I feel you near
This time should be spent together
But “Quoth the Raven ‘Nevermore’”
And tonight I miss you more

Even when life
isn’t worth living,
The Earth Mother
keeps on giving

Even when there’s
nothing left worth stealing
To Father Time
we keep appealing

Even when we have
worked ourselves to bleeding
Brother Fire
we keep on feeding

Can the spring ever meet the winter?
Can the broken stone once more be sealed?
Can the dove make peace with the crow?
Can the dark ever see the light?
Can the stars ever be friends with the sun?
Can the past ever stand beside the present?
Can the beauty ever be a part of the ugliness?
Can the pain ever make its way to peace?

Today I saw the world through someone else’s eyes
Like a hypnotist in disguise

I saw the light twist and bend
I felt my life coming to an end

I sensed the pain of a thousand suns
I heard the firing of seven guns

I tasted bitter freedom on my tongue
And smelled sweet smoke in my lungs.

Just as the dove
And the crow
Cannot lie together
The same bird
Of a different feather

Just as the mantis
Cannot stay
With his tender mate
The same creature
Of a different fate

He was beauty, inside and out
He was the silver lining in a world of blackness
He was my light
And now I’m in the dark

I am tired of this
I am tired of you
I am tired of him
I am tired of her
I am tired of that
I am tired of them
I am tired of people who pretend
I am tired of life
I am tired of deaths
I am tired of black
I am tired of white
I am tired of being awake
I am tired of sleeping
I am tired of dreams
I am tired of nightmares
I am tired of not sleeping
I am tired of having too much else to think about
Most importantly:
I am tired