I gave my virginity to a stranger
And when it was over
I told myself this was the best day
Of my entire life
I’d become a woman
I’d make my own decisions
But as I sit here alone,
Drinking too-bitter coffee
I watch gentle held hands
I think of setting myself on fire
Maybe then I’d feel clean
And be rid of this sin

As I sit on the rooftop
Listening to angels sing
The lights on the street
Make it to bright to see
Those stars, so beloved to me
But the lights on the ground
Reflect in the snow
Stars on the earth
And I hear the angels
Welcome me home

You’re still a stranger
Though you hurt me once
Once in a nightmare

When all of your dreams
Are nightmares,
Which one do you hope
Comes true?

I’m drowning
In a wicked sea
Pretending to be
A life raft
Collecting the weary
And instead
We’re all just
Sinking together