yet i say, don't cry babe it's ok
And yet i still take this hell in
And yet it's burns, even through the cold nights
And even if i cry, I would still get hurt
Now I just don't believe in peace
And calmness is all i have left
Heaven or hell, I don't mind
Standing up or laying down, the pain is all mine
And even if i die, I would still wish to die
I would wish to cry
If my veins weren't buring, I would fly
And if you have a fantasy for blood
**** the rest of me, I won't mind
But just set me free or let me be
How i were in my dreams and my fantasy
Don't get emotional !! Just get rid of me
Oh big deal like it's supposed to be
Laying in bed while you're hitting me
Don't worry I won't be able to carry my backpack for the rest of the week
And yet again this is how it's supposed to be
Crying under the covers, like am smoking ****
Or closing the bedroom door just to not feel weak
But, i still seems to upset everybody
So it's a good idea to break me down with words, neat
Yeah another day at school where I switch to a different person, fragile actually
Moody maybe
it's ok just ok.

I'm  hunted by an unknown ghost
I'm  hunred by devils and demons
And this is my last call
Hope your pain has been gone
Im standing, but not very strong
So i hope you are
Cause this is my last call
From the unknown heaven
From the Source of your dream
This is the best that can be
From the fairytales and the nightmares
I stand between
From the psychological reasons
I stand here not free
I stand here undone
devising something unreal
A sheer layer between us and fear.

That wasn't my intention, when i lost against you
And you don't mean it but you did it no
I weren’t  bragging, it wasn't for show
It's wasn't when you decided to know
The things that whispers inside, we both know it wasn't right
And I weren’t ready to fight
You when you say, the harm was done
And you were a part of it
Cuz it wasn't right to fail yourself, and damage everybody around you
You weren't ready to give up your life, you weren't ready to lose me
And i were closer, i was closer then the beading heart in your chest
I wasn't like the rest
But you've changed me to the worst person ever
I promise you won't like it
This is the end of us
And you are the only remaining part of this
And it's not a trick to want me more and more
It's a trick to warm my heart, that you froze
And for the last time this is the end of us
Cuz I lost the ability to trust

I feel sorry for the people who love
But some of them feel sorry for me.

It's deeper than just a feeling
Even the tears are full of words

‪Struggling, I thought I was standing strong‬
But i was falling slowly.

The stars are falling into my eyes, and falling out of it, in a shape of a tear.

Then you don't need a hand to hold
You don't need a way to go
Standing there waiting to fall

Hold your breath before someone takes it from you
I hope you love, and be loved
Cuz it's the only way to escape from life
Words you say to yourself, are no longer issues, do you need a moment ? Silence? Tissue ?

I don't care
That's what my mom says
It's not fair, that's what my heart says
justice? Who does it these days
I’m ok but my heart disagrees, you know it's only good when you say it's good
Don't calm me down, don't even say it's okay cuz those tears never fall with out me saying “no please no” so i suffer then i let them go
But you will never know, that's the way I choose to go
Don't cry baby don't cry, just wipe your tears and fly, it won't be easy but, at least
You won't die
So I hope you try it's a trip to haven.

Because you are the poison in my veins
and you are the one who I look for every single day

Stop trying for attention, you won't get it, no
And I know you want her so bad
Unless you want a ride in hell, ride it and fell
Test it well
You wanted it so stand still
Hold your breath, don't think about death
Don't Think about her, Think about the benefits, yeah there is none
Stupid and childish moves you do
She knows, don't you feel like a dupe ?
Crazy world i live in
i have to deal with this **** every day
and there is no pay day.

I learned that it's always ok to die, to cry, to fly, To fill the emptiness inside with stupid lies, to Hate, it's always ok cause it's your faith
It's ok to struggle with your pain
You are numb, but you are in the same way
You feel, I feel but, we bury our feelings in the same field
Encouraging  they sound, they just want you to Jump from the same height
You know it's ok to be afraid from the light
Cause you were born in dark times
It's always okay, but when will it be ok to be okay?
When will i have a good day for the whole day !
Cause I'm trying to embrace
I look all around me, and i see rehabs
Them people need a decaf
This is where you are trying to put me at
But I am going to put you at it, amma show how to be a drug addict
But this is what I’m trying to do, write my Feelings down so i can beat you
You're being unresponsible
But the funny thing is, you are who helped me grow, but I still know Im weak inside but wont let it show, won't let them stupid people know that i still have hope
And just want you to know
I always let the door closed, just for you to sketch your feelings and go.

I am that strong girl
Who cares but, don't say
Who cries and feel the pain
Who acts mysterious but, she knows it's just a game
She thinks but, her thoughts are all over the place
She knows she is bigger but, still playing with those beginners what a waste!
She's been hurt so many times, now she doesn’t know where to begin in this race
Are they with us? Or are they our enemies?
But, now she knows them by the face
She gives what she needed the most
But, they don't know
She asks herself “do they really deserve it?”
every time she forgets herself
Yeah that girl, who questions every relationship she has
Like there's a lot of them ..
But when she give, she gives hard
Love hard, livs hard
She knows how much she is Beautiful
But does she ?
She always says it to herself
But is she really?
Because she got lost between the words she write
You know, it's the only way to express herself
She doesn’t  tell anybody if she was sad
She doesn't even cry
She just says “I hate the world”
Basic right?
But she says it in her own way
She says it with hope inside, she knows there is a better way, she got to discover it , but with out herself?
Oh darling what a sad story you have
But they don't know they judge you from the outside
But you are who you are and you don't care.