EBTI - Hello Poetry

EBTI Dec 2018

Your words are broken
Your voice is shaking
You don’t have to tell them
The tears when they were written
The battles that you won and with every time you hope there’s a better one
A one where you actually won
Defeated without scars
I don’t wanna win if I won like that
The consequences,
I see the sky not blue but black
I’ll take breaking bones and bullet holes
People that you love always leave you alone and that hurts more
Falling down to a bed full of poetry
I’d rather die alone than live with my enemies
So you can leave me alone; I have my goodbye poetry
So the battles that you won have nothing to do with your victory
Fighting them was the real remedy
You are the masterpiece, if the world was ever a gallery.

EBTI Dec 2018

Untitled

You’ve always said to me “keep your eyes closed; I don’t wanna see your misery”
And you’ve said “ cry out loud cry out loud to the point where I don’t hear”
So I cried loud enough till the moon heard me and I talked to the echoes where my words faded into silence.

EBTI Sep 2018

Lost it’s way in war

They wear the blood of their victims like a suit so suited to their bodies
The guilt that they should’ve had lost its way in war to find its way into us
So as it kills us alive it keeps leaving corpses behind
So it kills us, not as it kills them
so we liv but it’s not the same without them.

EBTI Sep 2018

Like never before

My darling, they don’t have to love you as much as you love them
And they don’t have to give you as much as you give them and as my friend said “ there is only one of you, you can’t expect them to be you, that what makes you special”
And when they let you go you’ll see the way
And when they let you go you’ll outspread your wings like never before

EBTI Aug 2018

Blue mood

I don’t recall being happy now that i am not
I don’t recall a day with out sadness,
Diving into the blue mood slowly coming up for a little bit of air
Didn’t think i need more, never thought the world would have colors
I see colors but, my mind didn’t take them in
Coffee going in like water, nothing...
My system is about to shutdown,
Walking around- feeling like at any minute now I’ll fall, I’ll hit the ground
Constant pain, thinking sleep will help but,
As soon as i open my eyes it hits me again
No relive, no help, no support
And feeling every feeling but totally numb, hoping but, really desperate

EBTI Aug 2018

Smiling at me

Lately I’ve been alone with all of my friends around me
Lately i feel the need to cry when the sky is smiling at me
Lately it has been coming in waves
Knocking me down at night
Not as bad as last time but, god ****** it’s not easy
And that’s the beginning of it, knowing that any minute i could slip away and fall down to the opposite side of the smiling sky
Hopefully this time I’ll die.

EBTI Aug 2018

You are you to yourself

You are you to yourself before dawn
You are you to yourself when you are waiting for sunlight to be sunshine
You are you to yourself when you climb the mountain you fell from
You are you to yourself when a laugh end with tears
And most importantly, you are you to yourself when the beautiful sea
Makes you wonder why are we even here?

(The support you give to other people give it to yourself)