If I choose to stay again
Can you guarantee I won't feel pain?
Hardened barrier became very thin
I'm about to make another sin

Slowly awakening old me
Sleepiness vanished by just a mere fragment of thee
Blurred but I'm trying to see
This scenery, is this meant to be?

Like a pixelized screen display
Perfect straight lines but positioned in disarray
Unclear, still don't know what to say
Faint but I can hear my heart that says "Stay."

It's always me who leaves
Just like a thief
Stole their hearts
No permission, just brief

Tried to hold on and stay
Thought I was strong
Watched my resolve crumble, and sway
Guess I was definitely wrong

Freed from those invisible shackles
That is holdin' and weighin' us down
Filled and stitched those painful holes
Tryin' not to make ourselves frown

Smiles that I took from those faces
Killed the happiness, I once saw in those eyes
Tired with my own sorries and apologies
So I'm setting everything free and our hearts

Words won't come easy
Don't wanna be cheesy
All of these cliche's
Searching for ones niche's

This is my safe haven
But also my struggling place
Expectations that I'm always chasin'
Always puts me in a daze

Careful with every move I make
All of this for everybody's sake
Afraid I might forsake
Always very careful on what I should take

To whom, should I move freely with
To whom, I can take a steady breath
To whom, I can be emotional with
To whom, I can feel truly safe

Blinding sunlight
Fascinatingly bright
Caught up in the moment
Feels like heavenly sent

Can everyone also see?
Or is it just me?
This picture perfect scenery
Of astounding beauty

I was drawn by their smiles

I unconsciously push everyone away
When I needed them to stay
Used to conceal everything I feel
Hidden behind a facade, it ain't real

It's my defense mechanism
Cause I know where it is leading
Stack myself with optimism
To survive and continue living

It's not easy to change this attitude
I don't want to appear as rude
But I'm doing everything that I could
Because I know that I should