Darkness, nightime
Night highs,
Sleepless

Heart racing
Fast pacing
1 2 3 turn 1 2 3 turn
Mellow music hoping to calm
The storm that rages inside

This weight in my chest
this breath on my tongue
you mention her name
you smile as she texts
and this weight gets heavier

There is a war deep inside
I cannot hide
This war has begun
They will not stop til it has been won
There is a bullet in the loaded barrel of a gun
Held against my head
I cannot catch my breath
My anxiety through the roof
Until I find
That the hand holding the gun is mine

Slit my neck
Slit my wrists
**** your friends
**** these feelings

Take me home
Where I may roam
Those open fields
So I may not yield
My sanity

I need a hug
But if I get a hug I will break down
Down into the ground
While my heart pounds
Out of my chest
When I become one with the earth
As I ride in a hearse
To my own funeral