I want to die
But I don’t want to say goodbye
It’s getting too hard to try
So here’s what I recite
“I love you
I’m sorry
I know this came from nowhere
But please believe me
I’ll always be there.”

We are the authors of our own dreams
But you can’t seem to see that I am me
You’re floating on the sea
On a tidal wave of pain
A navy plane flying overhead
Trying to save you from drowning
In your own lack of self esteem
You are seemingly hurting in your own way
And you expect me to spend all my days fixing you well I won’t
Because I have to fix me first

He makes my knees weak,
pink cheeks,
happy for weeks on end
When
He abandons me
Joins the military without telling me
Leaves me for his country
Patriotism showing through the scars he brings home
While my anarchy shows through the flags I’ve flown

I’ve found a new man
A new hand to hold
New body to cuddle when I get cold
“I love you” he says
Often and warm
He fills my heart up with warmth

She is me
But happy
She is unbroken
Unchoked
Unfucked
She is me but she is younger
She 3 to 15
Singing dancing drawing
To her hearts content
She is me but younger
Unfortunately
I killed her

I'm about to break now
Throw me down
Take me away
You shut me out
Took me around
******* with your hateful sound

You've left me
In the dark
I hear the sounds
Of the night
The nightingale sings
But I cannot see it
For it has abandoned me
Same as you