The cut you left on my heart is not the first of many to come.
Deeper compared to the others I admit.
Nott healed just yet.
The same pain.
Similiar situations.
Soon to be all overcome.
I have no doubt this will be afixed.
Staying clear of you, it'll mend into a scar, just like the rest.
Leaving in imprint, but not a setback.
This pain shall end.
This encounter, conquered.
And thats really whats keeping me together right now.
Me.
My Self.
And I.
I lost you, yet in the midst of it all.
I found myself.

As the light begins to fade
The Windows begin to shade
I watch our memories flash
Knowing they've already past
All I feel is ***** coming up with you as the after taste
My body too numb to remember what you did to me
It seems only at night
My darkest of fears shine right past my guard
I'm left with only dreams of you
To guide me through
Hate is what I'm supposed to feel for you
But sorrow is all I can manage torwards you

I fell in love with the idea of love it's self

Your deception hidden behind that smile

Smooth talk and irrelevant lures blinded me from seeing what others perceived

My anxieties vanished when those misleading lips of yours pressed against mine

Once letton go i knew all I heard where lies

To be honest, You're the only one I've ever spent this much time and effort on

Endless marathons of movies
Late night dinners
Our 3 am conversations
Weekeneds spent getting to know each others families
Silent afternoon walks

I was convinced you and you alone would make me happy
I was convinced we where meant to last because you promised me
I was convinced I couldn't let you go because than you'll let your self go

But you dug your hole deeper
You took my second chance for granite
Controlling me because you thought I would keep on following
You believed I would chase after you like any other girl

Little did you know I'm really "not like other girls"
I'm a strong independent women
I don't cry over a man
I don't beg him to stay and I sure as hell don't let him walk all over me

She takes in deep breaths trying to savor the taste of nature
Amused by the opulence
Her bare lips against the wind
Enchanted by the view
Laughing along with the birds tune
Soaking in the vibrant sun
Her vacant mind wondering off to the blisfull trees

The ending will be the same
Blood shot eyes
With stinging tears leaving me marks to remember
I stick around because I love you
Although you trap me in a glass box Somehow making me feel invisibe
One day I'll give up on you
I just wish you knew
That day it's coming soon

They're biting their toung, vividly picturing a perfect vision of  themselves.
Crossing they're sweaty fingers,
While trying to hold still they're shaky hands.
We all want others perspective of ourselves to be someone were not.
We're not doing it to impress them.
But to prove to ourselves that if you want to be someone so bad you might actually turn into them.
(DM&C;)

The silent connection broken.
My secrets held on the edge of discovery.
Forgotten promises.
Lost words.

I can almost hear
The hot sun on my skin.
Cold ice on my lips.
Watching my legs sway back and forth.


The whole world's upside down.
Holding that sight,
I can see birds in their nest.
Singing along with the wind.


Sweat.
Sunglasses.
And Sun Burns.


Oh the sweet summer days.
Bringing me back to the good o'l days.

I can hear it playing,
Yet feel it coursing through my veins.
Pumping my blood with its rythm.
Running wild through my frame.


Filling in every empty mass.
Retrieving lost remains.
Rearanging my thoughts.


I'm new.
Affixed.
Secure.


Listening to it come to an end.
I can no longer feel.
No blood pulsing in my veins.
A walking corpse is what I am.
Only a metaphor of life it's self.


Anticipating for it too begin,
So I can once feel again.

I used to be scared.
Fearful of the months to come.
I was raised with lost trust.



It's not you that I ever feared.
You've shown me love.
Passion.
Respect.
And care.


You my darling, are something different.
Nothing I've ever imagined.


Your like a dream.
My dream.
With passion deeper than my own.


I'll hold on to you tight.
Never let you go.
Love you endlessly and free.


For you've helped me break down those walls.
No longer isolated.
Open to new love.
You've proven me wrong, that I can still trust.


(And at one point I trustED you)

I control her,
Silencing her when she speaks,
Telling her not to believe,
She thinks she controls her thoughts;
Little does she know I do.
Only I can make her go back when she’s down
The right path.
Seeing her calm makes me feel wrong.
I force her to isolate.
Laughing because she can’t escape.
I’m watching her life flash before me,
Planning her next thought.

-Inner Indecisiveness

It won’t be the end of the world.
The sun will keep on rising,
The clouds will still be moving,
People will be talking,
And the stars won’t stop shining.
Maybe it won’t be the end of the world;
But the end of mine.
Darling I don’t know if I’ll still be living
When I lose you.

My optimism turned
Into pessimism, It took over.
Waiting for my turn,
Yearning to be heard,
I searched for a way out;
Clawing, Screaming, Scratching, and Crawling.
I found an escape,
But it lasted nothing but a day.

It gives me a natural high
Being next to you
Holding you tight
Watching you cry
Knowing I’m the reason why.

I can’t help but love you,
There’s something here that won’t let me leave you,
While we sit in silence my minds racing,
Heart pounding.


But you never loved me,
It’s a game to you,
Playing me like a doll.

I make excuses for you
Hoping one day you’ll fall for me,
Loving me as much as I love you.

A            beautiful               disaster,
     Reflecting       off      the     mirror;                            
                                     A         peaceful     S T O R M
rolling                         through                 town;

                              A           creative          mess,
  on         the      museum                 wall;
              A           fearful              fighter,    
          Overcoming           his                 anxieties;
               Listening            to the             art,
          While       watching      the           music,
A                    mess         born            sdrawkcab;
Living                         inside                            out.

I can hear the music in the background
Cold sweat rolling down my chest
My heart pounding to the beat becoming one with another
Hitting every eight count  
Leaping across the floor higher than before
The louder the music the faster my pace
Nothing on my mind, my body getting lost to the music
Smiling because they’re watching
Hair in my face
Adrenaline running
Feet aching
Body ready to collapse
Pushing for the next count
Knowing every pointed toe, releve, and turn can break it or make it.  
Striving for more, because
Dance is what I live for.