Darkness fills my vision
Filled with nothing but indecision
When will I finally find your wisdom?

It's lonely and cold
Just like how you foretold
It makes me feel holed

Are you coming to save me like you always have?
Or has the way I behaved pushed you away?

To Love:
You seldom stay
I can feel you pass me day by day
To be cherished
Is all one desires
It sings to me like a sad choir

Little one
So full of love
Find your heart

Little one so full of wonder
You didn't know that it'd ultimately turn into your blunder

You saw the world through rainbow glass
But now your feet are planted in the grass

Mind drifting
Where is my reality?
Vision blurred, sight depleted
Where have I gone?

Cluttered thoughts, stuttered speech
Better to just not open my mouth at all
Where have my words gone?

Overly emotional or no emotion at all
There is no balance
Something I cannot overcome

Over medicated
The only way I can express

What is my reality?
The only way this could end is in catastrophe.

Little girl, where have you gone?
I wish to find you for it has been so long

If I go back
will I find you
Underneath the big oak tree playing with the tree worms during spring
If I look in the garage
Will I find you cuddled up in your blanket
Singing your songs that dad used to sing
What about in the living room
will I find you on the couch with your brother
heads resting against each other

Oh flower
where is that flower that bloomed bigger every day?

I want to find you.

We exchange pleasantries
Having conversations with no real direction
Then we retire
Morning comes
We exchange pleasantries
The no-substance conversations
The cycle repeats
We exchange pleasantries
I want to say something of substance
No meaning conversations
I want to speak about things of substance
We retire
I want to tell you to tell me something of meaning
Please say it out loud
The cycle repeats