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320 · Feb 2016
Atlas
Denxai Mcmillon Feb 2016
I want you
Like echo
Wants narsissis

I need you
Like Icarus
Needed to fly higher

Yet here I am
Holding the world of regret that I created on my back.
320 · Dec 2015
Rainy eve of Christmas Eve
Denxai Mcmillon Dec 2015
A bus ride at a quarter till eleven
An angel rocks back and forth
looking for a comfortable place to sleep
Head on window
Head on my shoulder
Oh my dear
Sleep right here
I'll open my rib cage and let you sleep soundly in me.
With my heart as a pillow
With my lungs as a blanket.
Sleep soundly.
Denxai Mcmillon Oct 2015
I'm sitting on the three blankets and pillow, I've been allotted to sleep on.
I'm listening to the song I always do for these mind cleansings
In the background, further still, my roommate talks to her friend; loudly, I might add.
I have a lot on my mind and no one to talk to.
I'm quiet here, anytime I speak I'm generally ignored.
For the most part that's fine.
My anxiety has been really bad as of late.
So has my nicotine addiction.
No matter what I say or do,
I can't pull myself out of this rut.
I've been going on walks
Two days ago, it was three or four miles
Yesterday it was five or six
Today, I walked at least six
I'm not really keeping track.
I'm not letting myself think.
I'm not allowed to.
"You're affecting everyone in the house."
I wonder if you thought about how much that hurt me.
I doubt it.
I'm not wallowing in self pity so much as emptying my head.
I quietly sit,
No one has similar interests as me.
I watch anime when I'm bored
Or sleep.
I think the epitome to how lonely I am here is the playing chess alone.
I haven't had an intelligent conversation
Well, since Ken and I discussed the black hole theories on time slowing and wormholes
A week ago.
I can't joke the way I do without hurting someone's feelings or being too obscene.
I'm lonely
Very lonely.
If this were a game of house,
I'd be the dog.
I want a job so I can move out.
So I can make friends.
I want to go hang out downtown with people who want to talk to me.
Who don't make me feel like **** for getting in my slumps.
I want to be around people who won't tell me that I'm not allowed to be negative
only to immediately counteract that with hypocrisy saying
"only were allowed to be negative."
I'm fluxing between three and four cigarettes a day.
I'm not allowed to wear my safety hat because it's negative
I'm not allowed to listen to "negative" music.
I have more rules here then I did living in my dad's basement.
"The grass is always greener"
Honestly, I knew it would be like this.
It's still better than being emotionally abused.
Well, romantically anyway.
I'm tired.
I'm tired.
Physically
Emotionally
Mentally
And I'm getting fed up.
Honestly,
the only thing that keeps me from commiting suicide right now is seeing an new city.
Not my friends
Just the sites
Everyone back home has forgotten me
Everyone here acts like I'm not.
I don't fit in anywhere.
I'm immersed in my reading, anime and poetry.
No one understands. I ******* hate being inside my head.
I ******* hate this.
I ******* hate me.
But I'll never say a word.
Because if I talk,
I'll be scolded for ******* feeling.
317 · Dec 2015
Sunsets in Frederick.
Denxai Mcmillon Dec 2015
Sunsets come at four
With the fading of days warmth
My head is at ease.
317 · Dec 2015
My head hurts
Denxai Mcmillon Dec 2015
My head is a shroud
I am oblong silhouettes
Ambiguity
315 · Feb 2016
Hand to mouth
Denxai Mcmillon Feb 2016
I want a kid,
I want to teach someone the way I wish I was taught.
I want to play like I'm;
Two
Five
Six
Eight
Eleven.
I want to be like my father before me.
I want to be like my father.
Denxai Mcmillon May 2015
There are days when it seems the world feels smaller,
Maybe, I'm being overly self-conscious.
Probably.
Today, I have to pack my ****.
I'm moving back home,
I'm not ready to be alone.
Yet, here I sit.
At the same spot I wrote "All children make mistakes"
This will either be a "part two" maybe just another "Untitled"
I'm throwing back two shots of whisky
And putting the empty bottle in my pocket.
I know I'm a good poet,
I know at some point I've written something someone could relate to.
Maybe even saved a life.
I'll never know,
I don't think I want to.
Growing up I always wanted to be like the people who saved me,
Develope some ability to stop someone from...
Well, let's face it. I'm scared of the word.
It's like it has the ability to turn from letters into a rope slipping up my leg,
A snake in the grass
And tie itself around my neck and lead me like cattle.
I'm strong
I'm strong
I'm...
I'm just a ****** up kid
in a twenty year old's body.
Ive realized that the pressure that comes with saving a life is overwhelming,
Too much for little 'ole me.
"I'm not like the rest."
I am.
I know I am.
My depression is bad.
Real bad.
I'm scared it'll rip you away like a scab,
You'll tear the scar tissue and be freed
While I'm left with a hole, bleeding.
My now ex-roommates
keep asking me if I'm okay.
Nah, I'm not.
I'm so lost.
Happy with things, honestly.
It all kinda worked out.
I'm just lost.
And I wanted to talk to you about it on our walk.
But, you wanted to be with your friends.
It's okay though. I'll just pack my **** in a bit and when you ask if I'm okay,
I'll pretend I didn't write this.
Not to spite you,
But because I'll have pushed it into the box of negativity that everyone calls a heart.
Well, metaphorically.
310 · Dec 2016
December 1st
Denxai Mcmillon Dec 2016
I'm doing something
Something I never thought I would be.
I'm laying in bed  
my first love with me once more

we're mostly quiet
We're listening to the music
The music we used to aleviate the pain
Of our break up

It's odd.
Very odd.
However, I don't mind
Denxai Mcmillon Jun 2015
I'm starting to dismiss
the thought of marriage
with the woman I love.
Not because my feelings are dying
But because I feel like the harder I try
The harder she'll push me away.
So I'll pretend not to care
I'll pretend I'm not hurt
Because I love her so much her happiness comes first.
This time, I'm putting myself on the back burner.
302 · Jun 2015
Untitled 32
Denxai Mcmillon Jun 2015
I'm not as easy to read
As you may believe
My head's a war zone
My heart's a sinking ship
My shell seems vacant
Because I'm trying
to keep my head up
But that doesn't speak for me.
My appearances don't match my feelings.
I'm trying to recalibrate
But one thing I can't stand
Is when I'm told
what
I'm
feeling.
301 · Aug 2015
Rip tide
Denxai Mcmillon Aug 2015
The sea pulls again
With my smile following.
Beautiful rip tides.
301 · May 2015
After work.
Denxai Mcmillon May 2015
Seeing you after work
Is kind of like not wanting to swim
but enjoying the cold on your feet
As you dip them into the pool
No matter our situation,
No matter our title,
That feeling won't go away.
Denxai Mcmillon Apr 2017
I'm drunk again
Nothing new.
Nothing different.
I'm drunk again
Listening to music
Nothing somber
Nothing sad
Maybe a little of both
I'm drunk.
I've started drinking wine;
Riesling
Honestly, it started because of Mac lethal.
Honestly, I really like the taste.
Honestly, I don't know what to do
Honestly, all my dreams have come true.
I'm back with the first love I ever had.
I have the job I've wanted for years.
Between all the new beginnings.
And
Between all these awful dreams
Is where you can find me.
Where do I go from here?
Where do I go?
Knowing that I've achieved something.
Am I proud?
Should I be?
I drink nightly,
I smoke most nights
And I play video games so I can feel alive.
Where do I go from a new bottom?
I think...
No,
I drunkenly declare!
That there is no top
Only a bottom
It rises with you.
And my new "top"
What should it be?
What do I dream?
What do I see?
What could I be?
298 · Oct 2015
Burned bridges.
Denxai Mcmillon Oct 2015
I shall cut ties to this ****** town
From the frays of the rope
I'll ignite the flames that burn the bridges.
I'll miss you all
when I think of you from time to time
I'll revisit the place where I used to meet you halfway
Shrug, turn on my heels and return to where I am respected.
297 · Jun 2015
Careless
Denxai Mcmillon Jun 2015
Your words are careless
I feel like you could care no less
Is this really love?
297 · Sep 2016
May flowers.
Denxai Mcmillon Sep 2016
In the late hours
Post work
Post civilzation.
When I'm drunk in our room
listening to music
Looking at you.
I realize how lucky I am.

You listen to you my bad jokes
You let me annoy you.
You listen to my music
You're there when I'm *****
and you remind me what it's like
To feel as wanted (sexually)
as I want you

I feel I never tell you enough.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
296 · Nov 2016
Misplaced anger
Denxai Mcmillon Nov 2016
Tonight, for the first time in a long while, I am angry.
This, of course, is to be reread in a very matter of factly and sing-song voice.
I'm not sure where it's coming from;
Perhaps, I am simply exhausted
Perhaps, I am simply exhausted.
This is what I tell myself.
I sit locked away in the bathroom listening to the leaking bathtub faucet.
Honestly, it's rather annoying.
Wasteful.
I'm moody.
Maybe because
I've been smoking so much ***
Or
Maybe I need a stiff,
No very stiff,
Drink.


Drink

Drink
Drink.
I don't know what could be wrong.
I highlight,
in my head of course,
All my flaws
Nothing there
seems to be causing this Anger

Maybe it's all the political turmoil

Though that probably isn't it.

I think

I think

I think I'll shower and have some tea.
Drink some ***
And smoke a bit
Cuddle the beautiful woman
I snapped at
After a very necessary apology
A kiss and some rest.

I'm tired.

So I'm not angry

I'm grumpy.

I'm sorry.
After a long day I needed to see what was in my head to find why I was snapping so much. Sorry to waste your time, hahaha
- Sqid
294 · Apr 2015
Moonlight
Denxai Mcmillon Apr 2015
Watching the moon wane
Shows me your break draws near
I hope you'll return
293 · Mar 2015
Cats and rabbits
Denxai Mcmillon Mar 2015
When a cat falls for a rabbit
He's unable to see that the rabbit,
Unlike him,
Does not have claws
Teeth made to puncture skin
He does not see that when he plays
He's too rough.
                    
When a rabbit falls for a cat
She does not realize she;
will be unable to stop his play,
Will be hurt though
the cat could never know
She doesn't see that she is the prey

When the cat falls for the rabbit
He doesn't see how much she hurts
Because in his mind they are the same.
There is no excuse for the cat.
But when the rabbit flees
He will realize
that he wasn't the right thing.
290 · Jan 2016
Heresy is all I know
Denxai Mcmillon Jan 2016
I wouldn't call myself spiritual.
I'm agnostic for the most part
With a lot of atheist anger
It's hard to believe in what I can't see
I can't believe in man either
So call it what you will
I'm a heretic
I'm a sinner
I'm sacrilegious
All I know is that
I am God
And God is alive in all I touch and see
I can not believe in a bearded man in space
But I can believe in myself.
I can believe that I can help
I can believe I can lend an ear
I can lend a hand
I can become the merciful God
That I have always wished was there.
We are all gods with our own reach.
So if there is a real God looking over me,
I'm not sorry.
My body is my temple
And I need not sheep to worship it.
I will worship myself.
289 · Feb 2016
It's starting to hit me
Denxai Mcmillon Feb 2016
Life's realities
Settling like falling snow
Can smother any flame
289 · Feb 2016
Untitled
Denxai Mcmillon Feb 2016
This nighttime cough syrup warms my throat the way you would warm my skin.
Denxai Mcmillon Dec 2015
I'm freaking, the **** out.
It's the first really bad panic attack
I've had in a while.
I don't know.
I don't know.
Maybe I'm just way, too, paranoid about this.
You said I have no reason to worry
I need to accept that
But swallowing a saw blade seems easier.
I trust you,
I'm just scared
And today
Waking up when you weren't there
Finding you in the bathroom
Going back to bed and waiting
Just to have you leave
after being back for five minutes
and be gone for what felt like years.
I wish I wasn't so clingy in the morning
****
I'm really not okay.
I have to work in thirty minutes.
Leave in twenty
And calm myself down in ten.
Take me back to 3:10
Take me back to reclining into you
Take me back to listening to music
I'm too inside my head
I'm too inside my head.
I'm way too inside my head.
Save me,
please,
Save me.
289 · Sep 2015
Care
Denxai Mcmillon Sep 2015
I don't know where to begin,
I listen and listen
When it's my turn to speak,
I'm shut down.
My worries,
My struggles,
No one cares.
No one.
I am mute
I am dumb
I am locked in a box
And inside that box
I'm locked in my head.
Someone save me
Someone listen.
No one will
I'll head to the bottom of the bottle
to quiet the suicidal screams
inside my head.
I'll hug my knees
I'll disappear into another hangover
288 · Aug 2015
My stomach hurts
Denxai Mcmillon Aug 2015
We all suffer the strain and struggle
When our guts bubble.
287 · Jan 2016
Bus ride
Denxai Mcmillon Jan 2016
I offer a helping hand to others
Though fleeting, It brings me joy
I'm so depressed
I can hardly manage a smile
I can hardly manage a heartbeat
I'm falling.
I'm falling victim to my thoughts.
I feel alone
I feel alone.
I feel alone.  
Feeling is so hard these days.
I don't want to fight anymore.
I don't want it to be winter.
I don't want this.
I don't want this.
Save me
Save me
Help
Help
Help me.
Please.
Denxai Mcmillon Dec 2021
I have always had a fear of heights.
I was reckless when i was young
skirting the edge of my fear while laughing
I never knew where it came from
It's still here as an adult but I think I figured out why
I always knew that falling was bad
Off a stool down the stairs
out of bed
I always knew falling was bad.
Today,
I think I know why the small child that built me
Hated heights
I wanted to jump
If it hurt enough everything would stop hurting
that fear of falling is still bad
But it's the fear of falling not because I want to plummet
But because i want to stay grounded
its still fear but because for the first time it's self preservation
286 · Sep 2015
Sociopath
Denxai Mcmillon Sep 2015
I will not allow myself to be hurt
I will stop myself from feeling love
I refuse to feel envious
I will drain emotions from me and replace them with ***** and ***
If I feel nothing at all
then maybe
Maybe
I'll free myself
So please everyone
Watch me as I **** off
every ounce of my humanity
It's nothing personal
But I'm not allowed to care anymore
I don't want to.
285 · May 2015
Your head is my bedroom.
Denxai Mcmillon May 2015
With your radiant smile,
waking my heart from its slumber after,
what feels like,
years of hitting the snooze button.
I feel as if I'm laying in bed,
sunshine peaking through the corners of my thick curtains.
As I look around the room
I feel I've never seen before
it becomes very clear that this
is my home.
The first steps onto the floor
are like
running my fingers through your hair, familiar and comforting.
Your touch,
warmth creeping from the ceiling chasing away the rush of cold
that comes with exiting bed
on a winter morning.
I wander through the room
taking in the calming feel
of the cool green paint on the walls, sunset peeking through the canopy
of the woods that I plan on taking you,
one day.
I find myself resting my hand on a messy desk.
It reminds me of how cluttered your head is.
Trying to sort through the papers seems impossible.
I found a lot of amazing poetry
and a lot of sad thoughts jotted down
Abandoned rough sketches.
I like this room a lot.
The ceiling has a line of paint flicked across it,
stars in the night.  
I enjoy it, 'Tis Like freckles.
It's sporadic, draws my attention to it. The bed is large,
I'm only now noticing it.
Comfortable, it seems easy to overlook . I'm glad I didn't.
The door is open,
I wonder where it leads
as I let my overwhelming curiosity lead me.
Into the next room.
This is the first of a group of poems about the woman I love based on a writing prompt I found here on hello poetry. I hope she understands how much I truly adore her. I, also, hope she follows me as I lead her through what I see and feel when I see her. This is an adventure that I know will only grow as we do. This project makes me happy.
Denxai Mcmillon Aug 2015
Have you ever looked out at the sea
Really looked,
as if you were looking
for where the next continent might be?
Have you ever been so sad it's as if you may die simply due to the compression of your chest as if your drowning somewhere along the horizon?
I feel as if I'm dying.
I wish I could hear your voice
even if you were yelling at me.
Even if you said you don't miss me
as much as I miss you.
I'm homesick
I'm so homesick.
I miss Frederick
I miss the ****** people
My ****** job
My ****** pay
My room
The clutter
The basement
And I miss your room
The paint on the walls.
The division of your half
And your sisters.
I'm realizing I'm not ready to leave yet
Not nearly as ready as I have claimed.
283 · Jul 2016
Untitled
Denxai Mcmillon Jul 2016
I'm burning
I'm burning
Excitement
and
Yearning
Positivitly
Concerning
I'm burning
I'm burning.
I'm so excited to move away.
Denxai Mcmillon Apr 2015
As the weeping willows bend in the breeze never to break,
I will bend as well.
I know that every kiss was real,
Every touch,
Placed deliberately
Every night spent with you in my arms was appreciated.
I knew from the beginning you may change your mind,
To wish to return to the longing stares
That I'll throw your way when I see you in a crowded room.
I knew that we could,
very well,
return to your hand moving past mine unstopped.
I'll miss letting you claim me with your lips
Allowing you to stroke my soul with words unbound  
I'm not okay with the situation
But, yeah,
I'll be your friend, again.
283 · Jun 2015
Roots
Denxai Mcmillon Jun 2015
I'm going to find myself one day.
I'm going to mend
Eventually, I'll move on from my past
One day, I'll look back on my life
And wonder who I was then and try my best to remember
What it was like to struggle.
I'll lose my self in music and running
And I'll leave my problems behind
I'm starting to lose sight of who I am,
But that's okay that's how I know I'm growing
I'll reach up to the sky like ivy.
I'll reach up to the sky like trees
I'm a plant and I'll grow towards the light.
I'm a plant
Only I'm pulling my roots up and looking for better soil.
Denxai Mcmillon Mar 2015
am I really worth anything?
If the bridges I've burned looking for myself could be rebuilt, would there be a home to return to? I don't know whether or not I'm going to be okay.
282 · Apr 2017
The protector.
Denxai Mcmillon Apr 2017
You needn't worry;
For I am here.

To

rub your back
And
kiss your fingers.

To

Brush your hair
And
Make your dinner.

You needn't worry;
For I am here.

to
hear your thoughts
And
Clear your mind.

To
Hold your hand
And
Wipe your tears.

You need not worry, my dear;
For I am here

To
Watch you fight your battles
And
Lift your spirits.

You needn't worry;
For I am here.

You needn't worry;
For I am here.
280 · Jun 2015
Inside the void
Denxai Mcmillon Jun 2015
As if a frozen waterfall
Words that should fall won't
I'm holding back
Biting my tongue
Because my words feel meaningless
Everyone makes me feel pointless
Everything leaves me empty
I want to scream
I want to bite the hand that feeds
I want to challenge authority
I want to feel something
Anything.
I'm tired of waking up.
I'm tired of seeing my reflection.
This field that I'm looking out over,
This field in the darkness of night
This field understands
It never asked the wind to rip away its seeds
I feel as if I'm giving you everything I can.
But it's never enough.
I'm an empty room
Nothing to offer
Nothing left
I'm the shell of who everyone loved.
I'm a shell.
No one loves who I am
They never will.
What the **** am I fighting for anyway?
280 · May 2018
Looking back
Denxai Mcmillon May 2018
Looking back over my poetry
I find
I'm an amazing writer.
I find
That it's only when I'm sad.
I find
That utterly disappointing.
280 · Feb 2016
Escape
Denxai Mcmillon Feb 2016
I'm trying my best to plant my feet; stop pushing.
280 · Jun 2015
My first suicide note
Denxai Mcmillon Jun 2015
I'm sorry, dad. I've failed yet again in making you proud. I've looked deep into the eyes of myself in the mirror and I've completely given up on life. I remember a time when I was younger when I didn't hide how I felt. I was a cry baby. Yet, here I am. Writing an apology for something I'll never be forgiven for.

To my siblings, I couldn't do it. I know youll all be able to succeed where I gave up. I love you all.

Mom, I will hate you into my grave.
-the experiment child.
I was having a ****** day today and I only had a ******* day when I found my first suicide note. Then I got into it with the person I love. **** today and it's ******* emotions.
280 · Jul 2015
A page of good thoughts.
Denxai Mcmillon Jul 2015
You are a world of tiny people.
Trillions of large personalities.
Clashing like tectonic plates.
You are the mountains
You are the valleys
You add depth to each life
You show me that with you
Even I, an inhabitant of your life,
Can touch the stars.
You are loved.
You are enough.
You'll always be enough.
279 · Apr 2017
All children make mistakes
Denxai Mcmillon Apr 2017
Sometimes,
I get tripped up
when I think of going back
to
who I once was;
a poet,
a man with his head held high
and
chest pushed out
like some sort of
sixties super hero.
Can I really replicate that?
Can I write poems as I once did?
I find that in these times
words
fall
like
a
waterfall
from my head,
through my nervous system,
into my chest
where a gust of wind
is pulled between my lips,
down my throat,
into my lungs
where it becomes vibrations
climbing out of me
like the victim of a car crash.  
then comes my teeth,
The porcelain wall.
my mouth,
the black hole.
Nothing seems to escape me anymore. I find that
in times of utter contentedness,
I can not speak. "
It's hard to write content." Unbelievably difficult,
unbearably so.
Yet, here I sit,
tapping away at my phone screen, dividing myself from my surroundings by vibrations of sound.
Yet, here I sit.
Trying to pull the lid off
of
this porcelain vase.
Yet here I sit
begging my body to let go,
some of these words
are to heavy to hold.
And  
some
to light to be held back.
Mind *****
278 · Apr 2015
Untitled 10
Denxai Mcmillon Apr 2015
****, just ****.
I'm a hotheaded *******.
I'm not good enough.
I'm not supposed to wait,
But I told you to your face
All I want and crave is you.
I wish you honestly felt the same.
He's so much better than me.
I'm a larger piece of coal
But he's a smaller pressed diamond.
Its my fault.
278 · Sep 2015
Third try's a charm
Denxai Mcmillon Sep 2015
We sat I. The swing again, the swing that has had many a bottom placed upon it and chit chatted as we have before. This time I felt more like the swing. So close to a person yet completely unnoticed. I felt the metal grinding against metal indicating it was probably time for some wd-40. It's kind of how I feel about my life right now. I feel myself trying really hard to be happy and I feel myself getting there. But like ball bearings without grease I am starting to lose my luster and keeping myself moving is really just too much to ask.
277 · Jan 2016
Off to work, too, early.
Denxai Mcmillon Jan 2016
A sleepy morning
Rushed out of bed; off to work
What about cuddles?
277 · Feb 2016
Untitled
Denxai Mcmillon Feb 2016
I just deleted all the photos of us, you and some of the things we did off of my Instagram. I've never felt more hollow.
276 · Jul 2015
Glass(un-a)ware
Denxai Mcmillon Jul 2015
Today at work I dropped a glass
a quiet gasp
followed shortly by the shrill crash of glass on ceramic tile.
As I look at the mess I, myself, made
I saw myself.
Perhaps due to the fact I'm a hopeless romantic with the acute ability to personify everything I touch.
Perhaps because I know that I, too, am a mess.
As I stood swearing under my breath about the cost of the glass and the possibility of management's wrath.
The shards of glass thrown across the floor in a pool of melted ice, and what remained of some dark soda pulled song lyrics into my head

"Why can't a glass speak for its contents"

Because the glass is empty
The glass is simply a vessel.
Am I then a vessel as well?
I hope not.
I hope not.
I swept the glass
and the thoughts
Into a dust pan
And
Threw them away
275 · Sep 2015
Untitled
Denxai Mcmillon Sep 2015
My friends don't realize;
I don't need advice
I don't need to be alone
I'm not okay.
I'm trying to reach out to them
I'm scared
I'm too suicidal to think straight.
All I want is;
For some one to listen and not speak
To just be there
To get better
To be heard
To have them reach back.
What I'll get is ignored texts and unwanted life advise.
I'm better off alone.
If I stay in my head I won't get hurt.
275 · Oct 2015
Christopher Columbus
Denxai Mcmillon Oct 2015
I'm getting to the point where "lost" isn't even close to enough to explain where I am mentally. I know what I need and from now on I have to listen to my head over my heart. More often then not I find myself pacing and I remember how much my ex-fiancées mom hated when I paced or how much it stresses me out. I need to escape. I need an escape from my head and writing seems like it's going to stab me in the hand. My random bursting into tears are happening more often. No one seems to care. Who am I ******* kidding. No one knows. Anyone I feel like I can tell, I can't.  I wish I could stay in my small town. Lead my feet with my chest and walk casually through life. But leading with my head is speeding **** up so ******* much. I had my first really bad panic attack in almost a year at the airport on my way home. I'm not okay because nothing stays the same. My head is an abusive dog owner and my heart is a puppy that can't keep up on the walk. I can't breathe. I'm freaking out again. I'm ignorant and naive.
272 · Oct 2015
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Denxai Mcmillon Oct 2015
You, are like dust that has settled in a fine layer on an undisturbed surface
I am that surface.
There is no breeze in this house,
No pesky humans clearing away clutter
No inward traffic to move you from me.
Nothing has changed
Nothing will change
In a weeks time I'll be flying again
In a weeks time I'll be listening to "maps"
In a weeks time I'll be wishing I'd stayed.
The city I'm leaving for is the only thing waiting for me
But in my head, no one is cleaning
But in my head, no one is wandering
But in my head, memories of you are falling over me like dust.
You are dust
I am your surface.
There is no breeze in this house
No pesky humans clearing away clutter
No inward traffic to move you from me.
You are dust
I am a surface.
I am your surface
so rest here comfortably.
272 · Sep 2015
4w
Denxai Mcmillon Sep 2015
4w
I am, undoubtedly, alone.
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