You are deaf
and in a rush
otherwise
I would
send you this poem

and know
you wouldn't
read it
whilst thinking
what a////
slashing me

and you squish back
to central now
where the vibe
and the fits
are clear

and nothing else\
well me
is dear

You and I only exist now.  Though that’s a squishy statement since I am writing this in my now and you are reading it in yours.  

What is the temporal connection between our nows.  The fierceness of now is not overcome by our distance.  Or our different calendars.  Is now held here in this almost physicality of looks-like-print?

Isn’t this is-now-between-us not the same somehow as where your hand rests as you read what my hands type is now? I’m still trying to ask that question. Abbreviations.

What wants to be felt that is lost in this small wire?

My skin would brush against yours.

You would not say
late things
to an early bird
the idea is absurd

this might be empty
tho
of well you know
but look no

don't look
at me
whilst i whittle
away to almost far enuf

I was just thinking
and then I realized
I should be having ***
instead
still I'm thinking
and typing
and you're reading
this might not  
be ideal

The spoils of war
lie before us today

Thinking creates
physical possibility
Awareness finds
ready-to-be way
tho not like me
to take it

What does that mean
I ask someone other
than me inside my head
they respond quickly
inquiring as to my
need to know

I need to know  her number
her skin
her dimples
let's not dance around this
I need to know
her as a human

I don't know what
the world is
or what part of it
rubs so roughly
that I wish not
to open my eyes

I don't know who
you are being
or what part of you
lashes out so fast
that I wish not
to open my mouth

I don't know when
I'll be ready
or what part of me
hammered so thoroughly
will heal first and desire
to open my heart

I spelled this moment out
of something
it didn't like
and it was grateful
if confused as to which
whatever next

And it stood up fast
impetuous wrinkle
time a clenching
scenes bunching up
it a little aghast
whatever next fast
it thought

There is this marble
rolling and stopping

and there were
curves and reverses

on the way
to stopping

and the marble
hoping for more

Hey you rub er write one
out with me
picture me sipping
my tea
enunciating a line
with that look
a glance who's
breath you took
and I deeply inhale
then, slowly,
lay the cup
down

I just let
the words
emerge
that follow
this contextual
curve

til comes a
swerve

I have ridden in
some elegant moments
where I was resolved
within beauty

Always surprised
at it self ignorant
beauty breaks upon
our day a rooster

in beaming sunrise
silhouette on a fence rail
a blinding after image
or right now's want

I can't see you anymore
I'm thinking with  each
entreaty to burn here
here and right there

wants of fire and cooling
needs of held and soothing
swings of hurt and proving
I am certain...enough

I have no ability
outside that
which is called for

by your thrumming
incessantly
even if quietly

so I dance to this
tune that is you
abruptly blue

I stench this moment
with fulsome smell
of you at your earthiest

blown away now to nose
at a rose of spectacular
lid lowering sweet musk

I'll wait for your imaginary
neurons to catch up and
breath deeply of that would be

wafting through imaginarium
the exquisite elemental smell
of you nearby

Abstergasm again
you know how
that feels
No pretending

This looks
too poignant
I thought
and that
too pithy
we don't need help

Why you always

are you scared
are you sure

you can't take
a breath
here

so stop breathing
as if

To land this one
requires you
to be earth

Not an imagination
masquerading
saltily

And I
must be lettered
as an inkling

Foundered in type
meant to be
something clever

an escarpment
of all the same
to you and me

now take your leave
the beckoning

Is there a crack
in your wind
shield
I often ask
of fellow
motorists
tooling down
my time
to the beach
where its fixed
by sand
sun hot
have to dance
hot

and the melt
pulling
like beauty
has you

go ahead
rub your face

trace yourself
here quiet

I've pre-applied
for my misery
aim to be
hollowed out
on time
this way
this way

I've lumbered up
these steps to this
penultimate one
asking if I'm here

And I am not here
again on my way
steps I have taken
follow me loudly

If I am accepted
if I get to say
well, anything
am I gone away

Let's lie to the wind
and the sun
let's tell them
all the work
is done
Let's invite in
all of your sins
do you have
them within
you now
In a sentence
what **** of
what would
you join
and why

There is this
dissonance some
confusion over
innocence an
inhuman
diffusion
begging for
resist dance
and I comply
mashed potato
pie in your eye

So mostly I do this
write upon
same as you
And then I'll obscure my state
not to mention my actual
not knowing thas howsum
jes like yours
fold it back
like you do
consider
all the ings
and ain't they
ringing
to my distance

lerilu and kerilu
went humming
merilu merilu hu
hu-alu alu lu-lu

Did you get that
almost musicalness
tyin' ta crawl out a
my eye ear sockits

sock it just sock it
away nameste'
eh
'nucks gratit-rude uh u

the wholistic labelling
of little bits
of said
is what we're
med ov

The squirrels
ate my
train
of something

Nuts

Right

Veer quickly

Stil Heer

are ye

Festus and I are
having a contest

Who can be most
colorless

Let the cold stone
brew

an' oscillate
or ocelot is it
again

we talk about when
we are anticipated
to be
extinct

there  I said it
no more of
surly make up
who we are hunh

the face the final
drift against the
hardness and smile

oh just for a while

And if  I wrote a poem
after death would I be
laughing laughing
over you

There is a line
inside my mind
climbing higher
trying to get to you

Intent to unwind
inside the lines
already in your mind
trying to get to you

an Ah wanna be a soun'
at keeps going roun'
and roun' **** tryin'
jus' can' put me down

oh once I hear a song
bout crying over you
can't put that down
that I can't for very long

would you be part
of some sing song
right being wronged
just because I long

And then
there are
these things
called words
oh my

About you
not about me
About you
not being
about me
About you
me being
always
About you
caressing
ahead
for you
while you
you
you

me fleeing
about you

I am erased
happily
thereafter
non
anydamnthing
a vapor
a mist
several molecules
amiss
won't even
be noticed
what are you
doing here

R u ?
I seem
Un

prepared

Is there
a chef

chopping
away
at muh
day

for the
good stuff
to add
tua soufflé

Val
ieh
day
shun

thrum
thing
****
thing

my ****

maestro

know
my music
so I can
hear me

It is this
confrontation
of the moment
we seek
and hide

Oh we could
do better
we think

shrink

or inflate

now always
makes it
too late

This current
this hellacious
flow
slow it down
build it up
let it go
pull it down
onto you
crush you
very much
and spin

I just want to
take a gun
and use
the ****
of it
to erase
penetrations

People that hurt me
I want to hurt
this includes
you

Next sweat profuse
upon
your brow

this cow
's milk
soft

too
[noise]
cookies relent

as if they    
were stars
in some sweet
universe

where random

I drifted out of
3 planetary aware
ness

Have you heard
bodies
3 of em

A problem
to ***
stroh-fizzy-ists

caught picturing
it perfectly
again

I can't navigate
you circling
him

What is the taste
of now

Is the world's vibe
straint

Acidic
We all tryn
ta be a fabric
an dissolve one
at the sa-ame tom
wassat wassat

i here this note
i here n dis note
i hear'n deez
notes

So let's get into it
[pause, open door
climb in, look about
form an opinion]
how's your model
refactoring questions

allowing just how much
of now

are you?

And so I'm thinking
this is precarious
Putin on the Fritz
****** in a bunker
with a big bang button
these men around him
or is it a heroic woman
will save us from himself
taking himself seriously
his bath house brain
boiling in tostesterone
I spelled that right
from my home watching
homes burn at his whim
because we scare him
how dare we
and kids die

Media is us
news is
to taste
may I
offer you
my insistence
take and shove
seem handy
now
and you're
on the other side
of my lens
so

Here's the gin
as if poured
quickly in
an empty skin

A second's wake
across inher-
ited cake
my face icing's take

swirls yesit swirls
girls girls girls
are behind all
hold my soul, twirl

sweet are you my
would you be my
could you be my
somebody better

find me ahm not um
all them things or
jus' some kinda ***
or even on the run

considering some
will be thinking
from inside
and others not

I roll over
give my soul
a comfy cot
call you a snot

blather
a lot
specially
if you're hot

I relinquish today
and all days
boring as that sounds

I serve up
a quietness
that will eat

and I take
you with me
to hold

you wonder
about that
and I insist

You accept
that
and make ready

If only
that which graced me
would save me

Driving this inebriated body around
thinking about how that sounds
in your  head in your bounds

Do you leap up at
What do you leap up at
Is leaping up still a thing in you

Turn, do you have a turn
will you take a turn at this
ode to the things in the way

yay, they are us, we are one
holding on for dear life
that opposition you see

me falling away grasping at you
while you ask why do I run
and I am here *** falling away

The fields we can't detect
except with the heart
are occupied
paying sorrow backwards
thinking the past can hear
and time is an involuntary
oof

You are allowed
to be beautiful
You are allowed
to be fun
You are allowed
to be *****
You are allowed
to lie
You are allowed
to know
It's you that
allows

I've been calculating my life
over rice
I've been percolating again
thank you
Against the grain making
grin (awkward)
I've been sublimating my life
now you see
I've been culminating all along
feel the rise
I am candilating my life
on the way
meaning surrenders
and making stuff up
puts down its tools

I'd like two ******* to go

I'd like skin against me

I'd like nothing so much

I'd like to dispel a rumor
about poets
they actually are
best in bed

I was talking to the french fries
about my love of golden brown
You  know how you are in a salty
conversation and you don't know
how you got there when you only
and then that plunge into hot oil
that you know is so-oo unhealthy
and that burn you love that burn
and that shake of salt is the light
of day and you pull up a shake
and slake that crunch's salty wake

He did a gnarly no
and a gnarly yes
and yet there were things
he could not profess

S he could S he couldn't
S he sees and
S he has no redress

As a you as a shoe
all these things are
seemingly up to you
coming down on you

I was counting on you
coming through  thru
grading papers & chins
all is if they all was
capers and fins