This garment time
made of illegible
old paperwork
and garden slop
and almost always
ill fitting

encumbers
everything with
smears of meant
and wasn't meant
and peppermint
and I never meant

everything did i
and I never meant
every time did i
ever mean what i
sank down
in the mud of now
on my knees to say

but today with you
being gone and all
on the way there
to not here or this
again but not again
or ever again i guess

outfitted in today's
threads ticking quietly away
like some bomb vest
hand stitched of veins
and thin bright tracts
of beliefs writhing
in dreams of ruling

I have chosen
my perspective
oh ****
it *****

not overly concerned
with beauty
i think and realize
it's topological
these lines
describing
curves and ridges
as if my heart
on skis
determines arcs
and the snow clad land
undulates to fit

somehow downhill
i am rising

it is these physics
of compression
and expansion
under your gaze

that unbinds me
why does my heart
have a ripcord

why is it
so easily pulled
even spectators

a drift is prepared
shift now
sinking and reaching

clutching and grasping
thumping now
i try to hold myself still

so here i am small
as if aware
the bulge of my generation
in the human timey sausage
shrinks and is past
it's peak
a sag
in the lag
and inside
a bog
imagining i'm
exploding
with life
with every
line sublime
scratching out
this is fine

Transaction:
You are how?
I am good
You  thanked
Feeling Feeling
Grateful
Full
of gratitude
Full
of it must be
and it never

is it ever
ever

nah it is always
past
as this point

out of
     frame
     grasp
     here
     time

finishes arrive
arguing
amongst themselves
no one wants
to start

even the moment
has an opinion
opining in a rushed
whisper
that we should
and we should
now

wants  filled
almost anything
will do
and you

this far in the spin
enough to desire
dizzification

my Monday-ne
smeared
into glittering
what's that

You know you are in trouble when
your advice to your girlfriend is
stop smacking people around
in front of witnesses
you *******
right?

Until now
experts
had no evidence
of your existence
however
be assured
you have since
interacted
with these
entangled photons
and you are now
not unknown
but remain
mysterious
you're welcome