I believed in the power inside,
That waited silently by my side.
The power of manifesting and waiting,
Of learning and praying.
The odds were high, the road was tough,
The efforts many, but never enough.
Still, I waited, through doubt and fear,
Waiting for the moment to finally appear.
I waited as my heart embraced each fall,
Waited till I could rise from it all.
Then, freed from struggle, I could see,
I was standing right in front of my dream, finally.

My emotions are here and there,
Scattered, everywhere.
I try to collect them, yet I’m tossed,
In this chaos, I feel so lost.
Forsaken are my feelings which are left untold,
My thoughts lie hidden, dark and cold.
Unspoken words, unwritten lines,
In their silence, my soul confines.
I wander through this empty space,
Seeking fragments, a fleeting trace.
Amidst the void, I search in vain,
To find myself and ease this pain.
Though scattered still, I’ll mend each part,
And piece together this broken heart.

A hollow inside, I feel within,

A broken heart and a tattered skin.

I stretch my hand, but nothing to reach,

Bound within the walls, that silently beseech.

The darkness that surrounds, swallows me whole,

Scattered are the fragments of my soul.

Has my life always been this way?

Or is it my mind that leads me astray?

An unforeseen situation has finally came to an end,

A flicker of light now guides me again.

The path, once unknown, now stretches ahead,

Leading me forward from where dreams had end.

The future I dreamed is now here in my sight,

A vision fulfilled, a shining new light.

I welcome it gladly, my heart open wide,

For this is the moment I’ve longed from inside

As long as I have lived my life,
I thought it would be all smiles.
But should I tell you a story, where I cried all night,
Despite my sufferings, I would still stand and fight.
For I have known, my life is nothing but chaos,
Chaos everyday and everytime.

I thought I would live my life – right and bright,
But what is this darkness that surround me all the time.
People say I am sad and I am depressed,
But no, I know, I am not.
I am just trying, trying to be me and trying to fight,
living in this chaos and to smile.

The first time we fell in love,
You took my hand and we ran away.
To our world that sparkled with twinkling stars,
Where our love bloomed with the roses.
The first time we broke up,
You left my hand and rip apart our world.
The fallen stars and the throne roses,
Never to be the same again.
Our life drifted away,
Our love faded in the sky.
But the heart remembered,
the twinkling feeling when I saw you again.
My dear love.

Last night I saw you in my dream, Mom

You stood still, even though I called,
I screamed, but you did not turn.
I was scared of losing you again;
I cried and cried and cried.

Then your warmth enveloped me,
Like a baby, I drifted off in your lap.
I felt complete when I woke up today;
I missed you and your gentle presence.

Thank you, Mom.