What does it feel like
To be understood?
The nausea of it all
The seek of the release
It keeps going on and on
There is no ending
I hang by a thread
And I can never turn back
A terrace I never chose to wander
Crossed eyes my sister watches
It never stops
I remember it all
Like it's my own memory
But it's not her recollection
Flashes of the burgundy floral couch
Still, haunt me before my understanding
I remember it all but not through my eyes
All above
Outta my body
This is my story.

Why does history repeat itself?
Everyone is quiet
Some sort of cushionionary tale
Eire whispering tails of death
The third-generation curse
A complication
My body relives her fear
Cause no one acknowledges her pain
She's forgotten in the heat of it all
Shadows cast away her life
Until one day she couldn't take it anymore.

Even in death, she lives in the dusk of the moon
There is blood on her name
There is blood on your hands

I am safe, I am safe
All I ever wanted to hear was that I was okay
Baby, it’s okay
It’s okay.

It is only a thought away
It is just a heartbreak away
It is a loss away
It is a smoked mind
A fearful heart
It is a mist of something wrong
A total distant soul
Starts in the mind moves its way into the form
Not one sign of connection insight
Creating a wall in between the ones closest to you
Confusing you, they are all enemies
No one will ever understand you

Anxiety
Tied me up in a terror
Wrapped me and squeezed me bleeding
I can not see indefinitely
My hearts racing and I have no clue why
Deeper and deeper into the rabbit hole I go
Losing any sign of a glow
You convinced me
Now even becoming my only friend

Anxiety
Is the total loss of control
So far gone I never thought I could go
For trying to hold it all
Thoughts I'm embarrassed to say
The hatred of it all
It is the judgment therefore all
It is trusting no one
But constantly holding on by a hair
Praying no one will strike a twine
Cause all is fragile
And every word is a knife
A blade and some
Whispering to me
Searching for a release
Never able to see the other way
And I'm far removed
So what's the use of it all...

My dear,
Take a deep breath
You have survived this far
Because of yourself
Learn compassion
Learn to love
And connect the body mind and soul
Have a little faith within
Forget the shame
You are not alone
Have a little more strength
To know you can't fight this alone.