Every piece
I find of you
Draws me closer to your essence
Cannot cope with your absence
Blue is my color
For every piece, I come across
The more your presence overcomes
Parameters of my heart
I'll shatter them and join up with you
Leave everything behind
While time cannot rewind
Today it shall be streamlined
For every waking hour
Spent in decay
Miss the one who always
Guided me down pathways
May have been the mosquito
That made you dread tomorrow
Yet you cured my vertigo
As my personal quest
Call me obsessed...
...but I must cure the repressed

Tears
In your eyes
I'm not a bad man
I can only be
Just a man
Broken, but moving forward

I tremble to speak
I've run out of words to say
I forgot my voice
Replaced by distress
Marked by unrest
So much time
Left to think
Wondering deep inside
When was the happiest I have ever been?
Even when I know you will be here
In the broken frontier
Year after year, still filled with the same fear
How much longer can I keep this up?

Perfection, standard
Criteria varies with all
No definition

Working toward perfection
Puts more tears in your collection
Such a disconnection
Disaffection on all fronts
No intersection of the heart and mind
Search for some redirection
How can you accomplish something with no concrete definition?

New brings fear
Old breathes comfort
What was once abhorred
Now gets smothered
Cannot say
Cannot think
If you wear that
You can expect to sink
Learn this, ignore that
Laws of our present
Ignore the past
Prejudice changes
But dresses the same
Power over peace
Strength with no release

Enjoy life today
No more ranting, for minutes or months
To conformity

Water
Falling down
Not from above
But from these two voids

Bleeding ears
Tinittus
Not from me, must be you
Noise pollution
Covering eyes and ears
Like you could look
The mirror reveals all
Who caused this pollution?
Species, for all to see
Never slurred or stuttered
Cold hard truth
Warmed by hands
With blood all over

So did the problems

Time goes onward
Things may change
But the root of all problems
Stays the same

The greatest tragedies come from
The shortcomings of society

Feeling lovesick
Good thing I'm back home
Time to atone

Be afraid
Of the man
Who has lost everything
For when you lose something
His sympathy will turn to battle malice
Alice fell down the hole
But, he embraced it
And lost self-control.

Immaculate
Not in this world
Nor any other
Teeth sharing a gap
****** front teeth
Impurity
In this world
In many more
Gang shootouts
At 3 in the morning
Flawless corruption
Impeccable filth
Mix both up
Cocktail of existence
The flavor is immaculate

A theme park that entertains
Cure all of the negativity
Finally
Mirage no longer
Real
Abandon doubt
Throw out fear
For now...
We'll be entertained
For now...?
Not forever?
Right...
Sensing a theme
The park has a half-life
Like you and I

The one with everything
Feels nothing
Wanting to feel something
Only bringing suffering

I know it's illegal
I know I could be better
But this
Is all I've ever known
If I must
Die in a heist
Stealing to live
Protecting the ones
Who understand the most
My people...
So be it
I'll end my life
Doing something good
Selfless
Not selfish
It's morally flawed
But what else is left?
Wasn't born
To act as a renegade
Don't look down on me...
It's how I keep on fighting
My lineage is already spoiled
What's one more?

Look before you leap
Into arms that deceive.

7 + 2= 9
12 x 12= 144
2xy - xy= 2

Will I be a light?
To drive away the fright?
How coarse is the sand?
Will I ever learn
How to soar away?

One day
One month
One year
Time flew by.

How do I grow?
Will I be a mold?
Are you okay alone
Mom and dad?

Will you be sad
When I have to go?

Can't find peace
Doesn't exist
In the second level
All we know is desire
God I wish
It would be tired
No longer brings pleasure
Longing not for a *****
For...
For a ladder out of here.

Searching for stability
Happiness without friction
Isolated, cold as icicles
Hollow hopes
Full of falsity
So much truth
Now peace is displaced
Euphoria, dysphoria
Joy, anger
Distress with no duress
Is this how we are meant to be?
Is this everything you've been longing for?
Tell me, please, who is satisfied?

In
Then out

Memory
Distant memory

I call it
School

WELCOME TO HELL
...
Wait...
This is a gas station bathroom
...
You cruel fate dictator!

Born in
No mistake
Today
The start
Of opportunity
Alongside
Mistake
Oh mama, please understand
Everyone isn't perfect
Stop pretending you're not the same
Downright deranged
Oh mama, who do you love?

I gave you everything I had
Instead
He gave you what you wanted
Who's the real winner?

Bound by blood
Warm-blooded
But you're cold

When the days go by
Slow as elderly grandmothers
Tendencies turn to luxuries
One game
Simple flight
To explore a world
No combat
Nothing harmful
Just bliss.
Piano keys illustrate
A reason why
Such an experience
Had to exist.
Whether I should cry
Longing for times of little care
Or smile
For not forgetting how far I've come
Maybe...
It's okay to do both.

IQ grows
The more seeds I sow
Thoughts in tow
Why can't I take it slow?

Castle walls crumble
Revealing treasure daily
Universal fact

Misplaced the bullet
That was meant for me
Oh, so you picked it up
Wait, don't!
Hm?
I see...
Contradiction in my nature
A sacred oath broken with lead
You
Lied to make me realize
Can't write my own conclusion
Cutting it short
Never again
At least
Not anymore
Yet will this decision
Persist through the next day?

Nothing stays the same
Even when it's meant to last
If the opposite is what you proclaim
Look inside at the change you have amassed

Why must the best of us suffer most of all?
Why is our success measured in height?
Why does division exist if we promote to not divide?
Why have we moved forward? Why have we moved backward?
Why has injustice come out now?
Why must the past be repeated?
Why are we on a diverse planet?
Why are we here?

If we move forward
To create a better world
Is it worth the pain?
When it will be gone at the end...?
Evil cannot exist without good
The inverse property applies.

Loaf to slices
Crackers to crumbs
Savings to starving
Space to crowds
Smiles to frowns
Every generation, worst to best
Returning empty-handed
Just like the rest

Oh, so we're playing a game?
My anger exceeds
A game of Monopoly
Go Fish for another
Don't call me your brother
I've connected the lines
One, two, three
Connected four
Resist the urge to label you a *****
For neither was the Mastermind
Tripping down a candy lane
Candy Land is one you're always in
Questioning me daily
Where did you go?
Who were you with?
How are you so late?
Didn't know I brought home Trivial Pursuit
Category is paranoia
Oh look! I've found you.
Back in the day
Once thought you were cute
But all things are
Until they get in your car
Game of Scrabble
Nothing makes sense
Took a Risk
Now this is my Life
Devoid of a Clue
Can't see how I'll pull through
Perhaps my exit is long overdue
Crumbling down
Dominoes
The problem we can't just skip
Get ready
Tonight we play Battleship.

I'd like to live long enough

To write my own epilogue

Even when hands start to loosen
Grip on reality
Starts to slip
Look back
Moments when everything
Was in your control...
Wait
Is that even possible?

Many nights
Come to pass
With minimal slumber
Over imaginary
Visions
Starts the same:
Wake in a house
Suspended by nature  
A rope of vines
Impressive
But no one can make such
Only in dreams
Then in comes:
The running man
A shadow
Devoid of recognizable features
Merely a silhouette of the night
Try to catch him
Yet I never do
Instead I awake
Trapped in vines
Another dream?
I wish it was so
Time goes on
Now I’ve seen things
Lived a life
Worth talking about
Laying on a cloud
Grounded down
I see it:
The house bursting with nature
The shadowy silhouette
Kneeling down
Inches away from my breath
The darkness melts from it
Underneath
My eyes go wide
Mouth agape
Extravagant…
My son is here!
Then I awoke
He left years ago
But-
Just one quick look…
…was all I asked for.

Good
Bad
None of it matters
We're all fighting
To protect the things
We care about.

They painted you in their colors!
Attached strings to your frame
Call you a master, yet..
Behind this facade
Resides the masters in the shadows

Leaves twirling about
Changing face as seasons pass
Us, identical

Have we truly grown?
Or...
Are we still buds
Waiting to bloom?

Rearrange your complexion
Not purely out of hate
But despair
I don't have what you do.

I like you
Or is it hate?
Wake up early
Maybe late
Hungry
Not anymore
Which is such?
Like there's more than me
Residing inside
A chamber of flesh and bone
Mind decides
To flip like a coin
I feel like heads
How about tails?

Fun is infinite
Then how
Would we know anything else?

Against the wind
A car pushes forward
I'm in it
Looking over and over
At a world so pure
Full of sunlight
Free from daily strife
But oh
Here I am
Taking a trip down to my decent
A rollercoaster that only goes one way
D
    o
      w
         n
To the depths
Send a postcard
Even my family cares about
Where I'd end up
Once all is spoken
Promises broken
Did what I could
More rigid than wood
Regret my mistakes
Now I'm stuck in this place
Full of blaze and constant craze
Road pulled out from under
Time to plunder
Was this the life I've been preparing for?

Shuffling along
On a yarn thread
Could break
At the slightest mistake
Think about wholeness
For fractured thoughts
Chip away at the strand in the mind
Dangling above
Blackhole darkness
What lies beyond the veil?
Frankly, I say
Nobody wants to find out
Nothing ties down
Such a fragile red strand
Tightrope walker
Never signed up for that occupation
Seconds into life
From the first day:
I've been walking on the line
Yet in younger days
A bridge took its place.

What's joy?
Something earned playing with toys?
Gathering a solid grade
For academics is your trade
All of these gaps
Happiness is a time-lapse
Everyone digs for its remaining wraps
Can't think of a time where it didn't collapse...
But that's alright.
It is no blight
Merely a runaway
For in due time, we'll meet halfway
It never remains, so why should we feel betrayed?

Staring at trees
Shaking and sway
Only entertained
For I can't look away
Longing for days
When I had more patience
A little bit of bravery
Confidence, even just a speck
Today I will leave
Understand the danger
Of running into strangers
Exhale of the lungs
Tomorrow the funeral
What is the world trying to tell me?
Our time has expired?
Humanity will be retired?
Don't want to sleep when I'm not even tired
Let me leave when I've become
What I've aspired.