I'd like to go with the notion that everyone is beyond ****** up.

sometimes i sit in a silence
that feels like darkness
feeling the way it would be
to lose you
re living loss of others
i make myself feel
like i miss you
that i need you
like i forgot to appreciate you
and that you are no longer around
i make myself feel
as if i have done something wrong
again;
in preparation
for
when
i
do

If it was meant to be
Then you two would be together
There's a reason why you are not
Move on