They say to reach for the stars,
And if you miss them you'll still be higher than everyone else.
But when you're that high there's no where left go but down.

I fall through space,
Looking at the Earth,
From the brilliant stars and planets,
And I know that soon I will be on the ground,
And the fall will be from so high,
I will die.

So I don't want to go on this journey,
Up that only leads to down,
I don't want to,
*Down Fall

I don’t know his name
He is drunk
Eye bags swollen
Loosening jowls
And feisty

He asks if I am working hard

I tell him I am doing my best

He says I am a liar

Your best is for scientists to decide days after you die
And they map out your life until they find that one day you actually were
You can only be your best once young man
Do you really want it to be today?

I don’t want it to be today

I can be better

There is too much beauty in the potential of kissing

And I am still healing from the fighting

Am ready to fight some more

There are engines revving in my bones
A takeoff of fire
And the shaking of dust

I wanna leave this life so *****
From mud
I’ve been dragged through

Be ******* me dear life
Dear lover
Dear friend

I smile and sell him his beer

He nods his head
Puts a cold paper hand on my check
Tells me I am so much better than this

I am so much better

Cockerel sunshine slips between the curtains
Energising dust to dance in beams
Lifting lethargy as I do the duvet
A good day I think.

It seems today is not quite here
Well it wasn’t when I looked last year!
And if it’s not here you cannot see
How outrageous I can sometimes be

I’ll run naked through the park and city
But to be ignored seems such a pity!
Or kiss that lady on the Tube
Invisibly? – far too subdued
Dance in the street with one I adore?
****! – I’ve done that one before

So perhaps I should refrain from play
And look before I leap today!

Little was said
Yet both of us knew
As the hands on my watch so treacherous flew
Leaping too gleeful between stolen glances
Obscene in their haste
Making light of our chances
Still the word would not come
How could that be so?
When it seems twixt our meetings
Whole worlds come and go.


Ten lifetimes could never do justice to you
Yet scant moments are all I can treasure as true
When my hand touched yours
Then all earth stood still
With a jolt of raw power
A tectonic thrill
As if Physics had said,
“This time is theirs”
“Forget for one moment responsible cares”
But too soon did the sun race low in the sky
Our own thief of time that demanded “Goodbye”
So with fortitudinous smiles we both did depart

And that word left unsaid
Still sits deep in my heart.

Silver field shimmer in the moonlight,
Silver field glow,
Silence, in the face of the lady,
As she bathes the world below.

Cool and Pale, her gift she gives,
Never forced but enraptured,
Serene Siren of all with a heart,
Grasped at, but never captured.

His quirks…
fascinate me.
He…
fascinates me.
I am…
Fascinated.

He draws me in…
with his eyes.
Those same eyes…
alternating blue and green…
that once led me to believe…
he and I…
could be…
One.

I resolve…
to hate him.
If only to save…
myself.
But myself refuses…
to be…
saved.

The only way…
to protect…
myself…
is to avoid…
Him.
His quirks.
His eyes.
His smile.
His laugh.
His jokes.
His lies.
My pain.

And so…
I hide.
Within the safety…
of myself.
And I know…
he will not find me…
here.

For he has never…
bothered…
to look.

And then his eyes…
meet mine.
And my resolve…
breaks down.
And the walls…
come down.
As my guard…
goes down.

And I…
once again…
am drawn in…
by the quirks…
by those eyes…
by those…

fascinating…

Lies.

I sit
silently
on the bench
my bench
our bench
The one we always sat on
Only this time I sit
alone.
And the empty space next to me
creeps into my heart
and makes its way through my veins.
the sun is shining
the air is still
no noise to be heard
in this
serenity.

But I am so cold.

And I
for a moment
allow myself to believe
He is here
next to me.
I ask Him if he feels this

cold.

But He makes no reply.
And I try to remember
His eyes.
His soft lips.
His hand holding mine.
His voice.
But
I can't.
My heart is frozen solid
And I dream
to
forget.

Tell me your hopes and dreams
I want to know them
Share your secrets and fears
I want to hear them
Show me your mistakes and lies
I will adore them

No matter what you dare to dream
What you’re scared to say
Or what you want to hide
I am here
To tell you it will be ok
And I know because…

All the secrets I kept
And all the mistakes I made
Helped me find you.