I see you in my dreams
Wishing I could see you in the real thing
Holding me in my dreams
When I know it won’t be a real thing

I feel like a vase
Used
Empty
Worthless
Knowing one day you’ll knock me over and break me

I have my earbuds in
Blaring my music
Walking down the hall
You stop me to see if i’m okay
I say i’m fine
I realized that you can see straight through my lie

I crave to see you
I crave to hear your voice
I crave to feel your of lips on mine
I crave for your attention

You crave for attention
But that attention isn’t mine
You crave her attention
Her smile
Her voice
Her lips...

Running them deep in your skin
Pushing it deeper into your skin
Watching the blood drain from your wrist
As your bath water turns red
Your sister breaking the door open
You lay there light headed telling her to leave
You faint feeling shortness of breath
Just to wake up the next day
To feel even more pain

Done,
I'm done breathing,
I'm done smiling,
I'm done smoking,
And I'm done crying

How do I cope with the pain.
Everyday I drift away.
I can't cry and I wonder why.
Taking pill after pill.
All I do is lay still.
Music and yelling in the background.
Just laying there wondering when this will end.
Everything goes black and I wake up the next day with a worse pain.
All I can think is "when will this all go away"