Jordon Rivir

Jordon Rivir Feb 2019

I've been losing sleep,
Lately I've pondered, where are the sheep?
Not to count,
Solely for the company they will keep,
No longer alone,
As I drift off and sleep deep.

Jordon Rivir Feb 2019

What Love Does to Us

I wanna fight you,
I wanna protect you,
I wanna build you up,
I wanna perfect you,
Wanna ride,
Won't run and hide,
Wanna stand by your side
Won't neglect you,
Perpetuate you,
Integrate you,
Imitate the things you crave,
Lie down and be your equal,
For you I'll be a fool,
My heart and soul are cruel,
For you they burn until I don't know what to do,
My heart and soul are ice,
You melt me, warm me up, for a price.
Admission is admitting
The love you we in,
Or secede from this love treaty,
We'll both lose in the end.

Jordon Rivir Feb 2019

I Tried and Failed

I tried not to love you,
Since the day first day we met,
I try not to love you,
I try, but forget.
I can't figure out,
If we will or if we won't.
I try not to love you,
I try to forget you,
I try to hate you,
But I know I don't.

I'm a hopeless romantic, pining a lover in my head

Jordon Rivir Feb 2019

My Puzzle Piece

How can I say I love you?
Do you understand?
Can you feel what I feel?
How can I feel your love?
Do you know what's real?
There's a spectrum and sliding doors and too many turning tables.
I talk to you the best I can,
I talk to you when I'm able,
Many a day my spirits were broke,
My heart was hurt,
Body crumpled and beaten and left in the dirt,
Still I love you even though I know your a selfish little brat,
I love harder and I love wiser now,
I have you to thank for that.
As simple as this is but as complex as it gets,
Parenting is a lot more intense when you throw autism in the mix.

Venting...don't talk about this much, it's just life for me.
Painful and beautiful and worth living.

Jordon Rivir Feb 2019

I Don't Know Exactly What I Don't Know

I've always known,
I'm no heir to no throne,
I've finally concluded,
I'm better left alone,
If alone is all we are,
I'll soar in solitude,
I'll go too far,
I'll remain purdah,
And seclude my all,
I'll open my eyes,
Then I will fly,
A roaming heart,
A solemn star.

Being alone is wonderful, but finding sanctuary in solitude is true bliss.

Jordon Rivir Feb 2019

Bottle of the Bottom

I keep a bottle by my bed,
There's never a moment,
I don't need to escape my head.

Jordon Rivir Feb 2019

Never Ever

Make me feel like every love song written ever.
On repeat forever and ever.
Letting the melody of you and me take over.
Never letting go, ever.