I know

You TRIED to break me…

You were slick… Using the very vulnerabilities I had shared with you to claw your way in and make me feel safe, and once that happened, you took your ******* mask off and the real you came out, like I knew was there in the past. I should have ran far and fast right when that happened, but you had your claws dug in so deep, I could not flee.

You knew you were never good enough, so to keep me, you had to break me down and reduce me to nothing, stripping me of all my power.
You had full control and called all of the shots.

Your hope was that when you drained me of my use and decided to leave, taking everything with you, the destruction you caused would permanently shatter me…

Well let me tell you, I have done so much work to heal and build myself back up…
To make you just a little blip in the timeline of my life, instead of a massive disaster.

Looking back, I do not remember any of the good times, because they were few and far between, and most of them were followed by a one way fight, you screaming and me just taking it…

So maybe it was just to spite you, or to **** you off, but after you left, I kept living…

I can’t for one second say that I wish you well… Because that would be the ultimate lie.
I wish you the life you have, and all the karma that comes with it.

These next words are like honey and Lavender coming from my mouth,
I survived you.

Hey little buddy. Listen here,
I know you still exist…

Somewhere deep within my soul, in the very core of my being, you reside,
I feel you, deep down,
You feel Scared, Broken, so small and in SO much pain.
The scars of the past still burn so deep.

I know, you couldn’t defend/protect yourself back then.
And you bravely stood alone against an army of those who turned their backs on you.
All you could do was survive, using all the energy you possessed to simply make it through each new day that you faced.

Well, just know this.
You survived. You made it out of that time when you didn’t think you could.
You didn’t think you had the strength to make it out.

I wanted to say thank you, for staying so strong and for not giving up.
On yourself or your future.

So here I stand, at your side and at the ready,
To fight for and protect you.
To honour you, to fight for you and to heal you.

And eventually, to lay you to rest.
You have done well, little one. Now, lay down your burdens…
I will take it from here.

You know, I have spent way too much time trying to be enough for EVERYONE else around me.
Thinking that my worth was based on their opinions,
how they see me as a person.

But the truth is, that is all *******...


I just need to be good enough for my own self,
and at this point, I am.

I am worthy
I am enough

There will always be dark times along your journey.
The path you walk may crack and break, and you may stumble and fall.

Sometimes you may not want to get back up, but you always will, because you know that these dark times are not forever, and you will be walking in the light very soon, feeling the sun gracing your skin once more.

But until then, I will always be here to illuminate your journey.
My heart, soul and spirit will always be a beacon of light during your darkest moments.

I will always leave a light on to help you find your way home.

They say legends never die.

I believe,
Legends do die, they just never fade.

The memory of legends lives on forever and never fade away into oblivion.

Tales of their life are written in books, spoken of far and wide and shared at dinner tables all over the world.

One day, after I am long gone, my name will still live on as legend.

My tale, etched into the book of time.
Where they remain for eternity.

You see…
You saw your position in my life as some big thing. Like you were irreplaceable.
You made it seem like I needed you to survive, and that I’d be nothing without you,
When the truth is, you just occupied a few chapters in the book of my life.
A few sad, measly chapters, that you never deserved having your name written into their pages.

Now, there are some chapters of my life I wish to revisit and read again, but the chapters involving you, I wish to never revisit.
I wish to lock those away in the very depths of my being, where they will get lost.

Those dark chapters never should have been written… And I would erase them if I could.

I NEVER needed you.
Your exit from my life was the best possible thing to happen.

Now, I am focusing on the chapter currently being written, and the ones to come.

I do not know what words are to be written in the story of my life, but I am excited to write each new word, for I am in a better place and am finally with the one who treats me right, every single day.

To the chapter currently being written, and the chapters to come, I am ready for you.
I am ready to read your words, and to live your tale.

At the end of it all, all we are is lines drawn into the sands of time…
Lines, to be erased by the crashing waves and torrential winds.

Hear this,
When the last grain of sand falls from the hourglass that is my life,
My name will be permanently etched into the sands of time, never being erased or forgotten.

I will rattle the stars and shake the earth
I will not be forgotten
I will not be silenced.