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Jeremy Bean May 2018
As I look upon a broken sky
very much as I
showing hues of midnight blue
the stars weeping bright
my soul sits here in darkness
but my eyes still seek the light.
Jeremy Bean May 2018
I want to **** the sadness
and strangle the heartache
which gives life to madness
not sure which is worse to take.
Jeremy Bean Apr 2018
Set me up for failure please
Sell me into slavery
keep practicing apathy
as a cog inside of the machine

Bombard me with redundancy
imprint me with this disease
teach me only of dependency
keep your eyes fixed upon the screen

Leave your mind idling
stay blind to everything you see
be deaf to what you are hearing
life is made for forsaking

Influence my way of thinking
following robotic dreams
keep the lemming mentality
pray to non responsive deities

Do not dare to break the mold
stay calculative and cold
unless you wish to face the scold
by those doing what theyre told
Jeremy Bean Apr 2018
I did nothing but try for you
I sacrificed for you
altered my life for you
everything that I had to lose
all that I had to choose
to make it right with you
I did nothing but try for you
I sacrificed for you
altered my life for you
after all that we both been through
you only needed me
for benefiting you

I guess I'm destined for relationships that don't work
shooting from the hip with "I don't cares" but it still hurts
holding this heart broken too many times
with cracks growing so big they're resembling fault lines
where every falls like a bottomless pit
Ive been coasting so long that I hope the bottom hits
I could call you ***** or could call you a *****
I could break the bank at the profanity store
but I wont though, what good would that do?
because even in the end I wish the best for you
Even if I wanted to, we both know the simple truth
when we get to questioning just who really failed who
I held my cards close, but yet I exposed
myself and look just where I got with that gamble
Yes I knew the odds, it was a long shot
dancing in the moonlight with frauds on a grave plot
of whats dead now, you made sure of that
handling that rabbit you kept hidden in your hat
**** all that

You play the victim so easily
love lost, misery, someone too hard to please
I never really asked for too much but with your me me mentality I'm losing touch
Planet earth population one, here I stay finding ways just to remain numb
its like they say. whats done is done, don't jump the gun, have you ever felt alone when you're with someone?
I know its I who left, it wasn't lack of love, it was abundance of stress when push comes to shove
My glass jaw has been broken and shattered from the masks I saw in your manipulative patterns
I saved you whos supposed to save me from everything you turned into a tragedy
made you my one and only, when were you there for me?
when its bad, in jail, rehab, or when theres cash to grab
https://soundcloud.com/projectbean/project-bean-do-not-resuscitate
Jeremy Bean Apr 2018
My heart hurts
and Im not sure whats worse
the pain that remains
or that I disperse
I try not to spread
that which is in my head
should I try to ignore
or share the ache instead?
Who would that make?
Is that me?
Why can I not shake
this discrepancy.
I hide with a smile
questioning the worthwhile
I feel like a fake
just an unsure child
Have I known
who I am?
Whats left to be shown
should I give a ****?
I have built a wall
and Im still adding bricks
wondering if this all
I should just submit
Jeremy Bean Apr 2018
What happened to the dashes?
Where are they now?
They used to like my poems
some of them cried afoul

Electronic phantoms
ghosts in the wire
these digital unborn
Where have they retired?

What were their names?
where did they go?
Im here just the same
In the afterglow
Jeremy Bean Apr 2018
If loving you too much was a crime
I willingly admit my guilt
And I'm still doing the time
My memories of you
Are the cold steel bars I look through
From the back of my mind.
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