Shaking
From the curl of my toes
Since I was 6 years old
This is just culture
This is just a
Rite of passage if you will
Watch me dance
And twirl
I'm your girl
I'm the best girl
Daddy's girl for all but daddy kind of girl
Wash me in the sink
Pound my head against the drain
Until I bleed
Can you see me anymore

I just wish
I didn't spin
in circles
I just wish
I wasn't so dumb
Fall into your arms
Spread my legs
I just wish
I didn't get wet
every time I hear your
Name

So wet
Are my thighs
After talking to you
All afternoon
And night
And even as
Repulsive as I find you
I can't help but ***
Upon hearing your name

Aggressive
Like the door I can't shut
Like the call I can't take
Like the money he pays
Like the way he talks
Like his stare
Like the kiss I can't stop

Why tangerine?
Because it's the glow of your smile
It engulfs you
It warms you
It creates a flow around you that only I can taste
My baby
So sweet
And a tongue for you and a tongue for me
Licking sweet treats til each other bleeds
I miss you so

I like to swim
In
Doors
Of coffee filled rooms
I dream of you
And God you
Feel
Like
Brand new shoes

I see my hand in the sand
Reaching for a bottle to break over your head
Have you ever met a soul so detached and ungrateful
You say I entangle my words tight enough to choke you
If that's true, please choke and swallow
I have bruises all over my soul and they tick and they tock and they manifest when you talk
Ans I'm so tired of saying sorry