Brianna

Brianna Feb 2014

I just stare down at white lines on blank pages and whisper the only words I have ever know: I love you.

We fell asleep under the blurry night sky with old light above us and new light down the road.

We made love under palm trees listening to each other breaths in sync with the soft breeze of the ocean near by.

With skin touching and bodies uniting we became one and as if cliches weren't enough I fell in love.

With your rough hands caressing mine. With those blue skies you call eyes. With lips so red like sweet cherries on my tongue.

We entered the summer with such romance; such passion for being so young and naive. You took me for the fool I was and left me in the winter for a far more interesting adventure.

And as I sit staring at this blank piece of paper I wanted to fill with words of anger I will write the only thing I have ever know to be true: I love you.

Brianna Feb 2014

Humidity in the airport

It was hot... Almost to hot.
Hot in a sticky wet way that made me want to run away.
I was from this high and dry desert town; we complain about dry heat but the humidity is by far the worst change I've ever experienced.
I walked down those airport stairs contemplating where I could get some water or coffee; I mean it was 6 in the morning!
I remember thinking how angry I was going to be if you weren't waiting for me.... I know you hate mornings.
And if there is one thing I'll never forget for the rest of my life is the way you stood at the bottom of the stairs in that airport terminal and the way you made me catch my breath.... I almost forgot that humidity that made my skin pour and my hair frizz.... I almost forgot I needed that coffee or that I had just been on a plane for 6 hours....

But I sure didn't forget how I was so enamored by every single piece of you.

Brianna Jan 2014

Staying cool in Ohio

We spent the night on old couches in some family mementos basement out there in ohio just trying to stay cool in that summer humidity.

We fell asleep watching each other; I always found that weird but with you I guess it was okay... I wasn't going to tell you no.

You told me stories about you as a child and I watch the glimmer in your eyes as we stood at the widow watching the summer rain.

It was beautiful the way everything felt so connected! Everything felt so right. Even our fighting seemed so natural.

The day we left ohio I saw a piece of my soul attach to those green fields or in that park where we had lunch with the family and I knew right then and right there.

I knew I had already given up on ever loving anyone but you.

Brianna Jan 2014

Will you still love me in the morning?

I hope tomorrow you'll still tell me how much
You love me instead of
Drinking coffee
Reading the newspaper
Watching tv.

And I hope when we go to bed tonight you still
Feel the passion we have instead of
Thinking of bills
Rolling to your side
Dreaming of someone else.

I hope you still love me in the morning.

Brianna Jan 2014

Lungs filled with smoke

Smoke filled his beautiful tan skinned cheeks with dimples so cute along that innocent face. His eyes were glazed with love or amusement or pain I couldn't quite be sure.

He kept his teeth white and his hair slicked back. He kept his clothes neat and his shoes polished and he smelled of the midnight sky; I was always a sucker for a well dressed man.

Love wasn't an option but no one said I couldn't be infatuated with his deep voice and dark words that taunted me so easily.

Lusting after you was easy as pie... And just as sweet. You licked your lips and whispered words of ecstasy in my ear. Grabbed my hand and off we went to explore the charming unknown.

He drank whiskey and cheap beer but that didn't stop him from being ever so dashing. I wasn't sure where this was headed but it wasn't smart.

He choked down the shakiness in his voice as he said his goodbyes. He had to get out, move on like those bad boys in the movies often do.

But I realized this wasn't a movie and he would soon be gone. I guess love was an option for me.

Brianna Jan 2014

I'll be seeing you

We fell down the mountain into piles of cold snow and we never saw the frostbite headed our way.
It was cold and lonely as we went our separate ways but the ice had only just begun to form in our hearts.

It was like trying to cross a train track when the train was moving full speed ahead; death was around the corner laughing at us. It was like trying to breathe underwater; impossibilities were not our strong suit.

I would like to paint a picture of us but I wouldn't know what color to start with. Sometimes I picture us so blue and calm with tiny hints of red... But it was more like red slashes along a white canvas.

We hit the winter at full speed with only our naive hearts guiding the way. Love melted faster than the snow that night and there was nothing we could do to stop it.

Brianna Jan 2014

Long Winters

It was cold in my room
And all I wanted was for your body
To replace my sheets-

I wanted fingers interlocked
And legs crossing one another and
Body's so entwined we became one-

I wanted laughter suppressed
By whispers of ecstasy as our breath
Was warm on the back of our neck-

I want shivers running down
My spine the minute your fingers touched my back-

It's been a long winter and spring
Seems so very far away
And I miss you-

So when I sleep tonight I'll dream of
Your body against mine and
I'll know you're thinking of me too-