It's funny how you seem so tough

I know you've been through something tough

You think that you can stand your ground.

without making a single sound.

you think your fine

until one lie

destroys your world in just one night

you had a relapse so you hide the bruise not giving anyone any clues.

your a fraud

your a fake

your just a mistake.

Stop trying to act like your okay,

Your hep will come in many ways.

If I could unfold
I would be told
to forget the past, run away
and face today
they wouldn't see
my biggest plea
to take a knife
and end my life.
What they would see
is a girl like me
who fought to keep her friends happy
In the end
I fell again
but no one was there
No one would care
that someone like me
suffered by three
just to keep her friends happy.

One day
One day when I stand on the edge of a bridge
I don't think I'd care if I really trip.
I'd rather slip
then move on again,
cuz in my head I just want it to end.
All the painful nights,
again and again;
all the blood I lost,
because it won't end.
I wish it could stop
instead of keep going
it's like an endless river flowing.
If I cry out,
would you hear my shout?
or would you let me waste away?
Would you tell me i'm nothing?
or tell me i'll be okay?
you hurt me once
you hurt me twice
you even hurt me a thousand times.
Again and again
you don't want it to end.
you want me to hurt
like never before.
One day I'll say,
I can't do this again.
So, instead i'll hang
from my closet door.

When I found out
I couldn't make a sound.
No words came out of my mouth.
That night I cried,
like never before.
My small world,
wasn't perfect anymore.
It's funny I remember it like yesterday,
how memories just won't fade away,
unless time comes out to play.
I often find
myself thinking at night,
how much my life could be different tonight.
If time had waited just one more night.
When I think of myself during this time;
I find that time
has made me stronger in life.
I can't control it,
I can't stop it,
I can only make the best of it.

One hit, two hit, three hit, four.
Slowly i'll pick myself up off the floor,
I'll hold my head high,
as they walk by.
They lay on my chest
giving me a quest,
to get rid of the thoughts,
I should have never bought.
I will not lie,
I will not die,
instead i'll rise,
i'll silence my cries.
Getting stronger everyday,
one day i'll say,
I'm a child of God,
and I have moved on

You heard my plea

But you dont see
That what you said
Is not what i read
I try to pretend
Like this isn’t a trend
it makes me sad
it makes me mad
It makes me confused
On how you spill the “truth”
It’s only a matter of time
before you realize
The moment when I stop fighting for you that’s the day you’ll lose me two

It hurts you again and again
making you wonder where it began.
At times its loud,
at times its proud,
at times its broken
but those times are unspoken.
Its innocent,
but not for long.
It grows up
and learns the wrong.
In the end,
there is no friend…
just the pain
that drives you insane.

Her time was stolen
Her heart was broken
around and around
she always fell to the ground
Then one night
she saw her light
she rose from the ground
she didn’t make a sound
In the light of day
You’ll never see her play
In the dead of night

You were toxic
and I lost it.
I wanted to scream
I didn’t want to be on your team.
But I always came back.
I would always act,
as if there was no pain
that you caused in your “game”.
But I wasn’t going to play anymore,
I didn’t want to be tore.
I knew you would hurt me just like before.
Now your gone,
and it’s been so long,
and honestly
I’ve moved on
from the time you did me wrong.

I’m sorry I’m not perfect

I’m sorry I’m not worth it
I'm sorry i cant speak of every little thing
That takes my breath away and drains my light of day
And feels my life with pain
Mama there is really nothing to say
except that I’m in pain
And one day when you read this
Everything Will Change
You'll realize why I struggled every night
Why you got into So many fights
Needless to say
I love you the same
If not more than yesterday