THE BACKWARD LOOK
( for D.B. )
the blackbird
leaves me a note
pinned to the sky
that blue
beyond
blue
the tide
of the moment
turning turning
Time
like apple blossom
falling through my mind
the little boy
unable to believe
that this day is not
made of forever
and only
now
I walk back
through my self
to unpin the note
the blackbird wrote
with his voice
still pinned
to that
self same
sky
the blue so still
beyond
even its self
I, at last, able to read
the birds words
its language a secret
no longer to me
"I sing..." it says "...I sing
because all this must die!"
"I sing the moment's tide
its turning
always turning!"
It's throat
full of song
glorying in being
alive for this
one eternal
moment
A moment ago he had been singing( as he had been singing for me all these years ):
"In the event
that this fantastic voyage
Should turn to erosion
and we never get old
Remember it's true, dignity is valuable
But our lives are valuable too"
I was also reading this 4 line fragment from the 9th century :
"There is one
I would wish to see again,
And give the golden world to win -
All, all, though all were vain."
"Fil duine
Frismbad buide lemm díuterc
Ara tabrainn in mbith mbuide
Uile, uile, cid díupert."
And so I wrote him this little poem....THE BACKWARD LOOK.