What happens when you have a broken heart?
Does  it fill with blood and burst?
Does it bend to fit in the tiniest box,
locked up in your chest.
Entwined in your rib cage.
Does it pull to the left or to the right?
Does it hurt and ache?
Does it long or yearn?
Does it feel at all?
Is it an old familiar stabbing pain?
Is it dull or like roaring flames?
Is it hard to breathe or even to see?
Is it a panic attack, or just me?
It's a ******* explosion.
It's asking what ifs.
It's reflection.
It's the past.
It's a constant.
It's a constallation in the far out space.
It's the space between you and me.
It's a ******* monstrosity.
It's a game.
It's a mind ****.
It's a lie.
It's life.
It's love.

A break in the barrier
Of my universe.
Let you seep
Through the cracks.
But I think
I got swallowed into
A black hole.
Because I feel like
I'm constantly falling
Into your eyes.
It's like seeing the sunrise
From the bed in my basement.
The fear of leaving this island
That I've created.
When will I escape it?
When will I ever learn how to
Not sky dive without a parachute?
When will I learn how to not drown
In the depths of someone else's hurt?
You say all the things
That are jumbled up
Inside.
Even if they don't
Come out
Quite right.
Sleepless nights
Drugs eating away at
Your insides.
You're inside.
You're inside
My basement.
No windows to see
If the suns shining
Losing time.
You're losing time
You're losing time
Again.
So I sit,
And watch.
Silently beg
And falter at your feet.
Pleading.
Please
Please just be free.
Escape your mind.
Escape me.
Be your own personal rainbow.
Be your own personal jesus.
Be anything.
Just be.
Just be.
Just breathe.

****,
I'm at it again.
Believing that caring exists.
When most people
Are just in your life
To make you feel like ****.
This feels like ****.
Letting people in.
But not too close.
Ok?
You inevitably
Will just always be
An arms length away
Emotions just make people crazed.
And then you have to go back to the first line.
Because when the ending comes
You just rewrite the rhyme.
When the end comes
You just add a quaint line.
When the end comes,
It's never really an end.
Because you're always begining again.

I feel motivated to say
That nothing bad in life
Ever stays.
It gets washed away
Like the rain.
I'll be your steady boat
On rocky shores
Holding you together
Like the many times
You've done for me
Before.
I'll help guide you
To the mountain tops,
And navigate through
The valleys of shadows
That linger in the dark
Corners of your mind.
Just stay the night.
Fight.
Fight this feeling of lost hope.
Fight this feeling of choking
From the inside out.
Fight with everything good inside you.
I know you can.
I'll be here to hold your hand.
Everything is temporary,
But my love will last a lifetime.

Up all night thinking
I've been thinking
Maybe we've been at this too long.
Maybe the feeling is gone.
I don't like the feeling
Of you
Anymore.
The pasts steady grip
Takes hold once again.
Again
Again
This is the begining of the end.
Your steady ******* boat.
Hitting rocks
And waves.
My minds astray.
I ******* hate this feeling.
Like the feeling after a one night stand
When you're just waiting for the other person to leave your bed.
Only, 10 years doesn't make you just a one night stand.
I can't stand this.
I can't stand.
I was over the mountain
Walking through woods
Then you back tracked the process
I'll never meet the wizard at this pace.
There is no end goal.
There is no end
We have yet to begin again.
There's a foundation
You see
That's built upon trust.
Once you lose that
All hope is lost.
Unless you're her.
See
I've been around this block before.
Over mountains
Through doors.
Hopes just a four letter word.
Like love.
You can't pack concrete into cracks
And expect **** to last.
The foundation is cracked
The foundation is cracked.
This love won't surpass.

Tongues twisted again.
You're still my best friend.
I've missed the comfortability.
Skin on skin.
Naked again.
Emotions stripped
Bare to the surface.
I feel my pupils widen
When I see you.
It's electricity.
The currents of two souls
Colliding.
Entwining again.
The almost extinguished Flame
Once again ignited
on full blast.
You may very well be
My addiction.
Still struggling to see the reality.
Still struggling to fight the thoughts that you don't love me.
Still struggling to just be.
Maybe this is the begining of the begining again.
Maybe this is the begining of the end.
Closure sometimes comes when you least expect it.
Finishing the last chapter in our book.
Everything is written in the stars.
Our love will forever be eternal.

Every word pulls me in.
Closer.
Deeper.
To
Stardust
And oblivion.
Intelligence is appealing
To all senses.
Especially the nerves
Between my legs.
Your voice flutters
Into my ******* chest.
And though it rips it to shreds,
I love the pain.
Please hurt me some more.
Speak your volumes
With your muted silence.
Let's ******* scream.
Hand in hand
On mountain tops.
From the miles
That separate our skin.
Skin on skin
Hands tied in knots
Around my throat
Suffocating my lungs
Gasping for breath.
Feel me.
Feel my depths
Feel my soul.
**** me from the inside.