Bullets for words,
Without considering the exit wound.
Your hand continually strains the blood from my heart.
Tight grasp.
Steady grip.
No escape.
The bag goes rip.
And then the world
Spirals.
Down.
And up.
Puke your ******* guts.
Down and up.
I don't mind throwing up.
Down and up.
Until it stops.
And then
Back again.
Black again.
Wake up.
Wake up.
Wake the **** up!
I cant.

I'm losing my mind.
Trying to find a will to survive.
I've made it 27 years
Forcing breath
To enter and exit my lungs.
Maybe I'm someone
Destined to join the 27 club.
Morbid as ****.
Im just tired.
Beer bottles.
Whisky lullabys.
******* lines.
Shots to survive.
Pills eating away my insides.
My chest ******* aches.
Love is by far
The worst ever pain.
I'm becoming dull
And numb.
Falling down the inevitable
Rabbit hole.
I've already lost my soul.
I'm gone dude.
Black skies.
Black eyes.
No ties to my former life.
**** all of you.
*******.
I'm done.

There's a fire.
A fire.
I'm my chest.
An ache.
A burning fuckng disaster.
And I search.
I'm searching.
For some water,
Eveeywhere.
Just to put out this flame,
But I can't find any
Anywhere.
So I start to drink liquor,
As if that will be a cure.
Anything to make this fire go away.
And the fire in my heart is your love.
******* burning.
Suffocating my lungs with
Black smoke.
I'm not choking this time.
I'm not going ro falter.
I'm. Not going to fail.
I'm gonna climb up that ******* cliff
And dive into a deep ocean.
Submerse myself
Extinguish myself.
The flame in my heart
Will be forced to subside.
The flame in my heart
Once refused,
Will die.

The blackness of everything
Falls away.
Decay
Decaying.
No looking back.
You should have stayed.
Naked.
Bare.
Strip down to your nonexistent
Underware.
Flesh only lasts til the sun comes up.
Stare into my eyes
And you'll find
Nothing.
Emptiness consumes me
From the inside
Out.
Get out of my mind.
I'm ******* dead
Inside.
If only I had the strength
To take my life.
I would.
In a heartbeat.
A moment in time.
No thoughts resonate
Don't hesitste.
Just *******.
Break my ******* spine.
You'll always be mine.
Suffocate me.
Make me beg.
Make me feel.
More.
I feel nothing
All of the time.
Hurt me.
Make me rhyme.
The rythmic
Movement of
Two bodies entwined.
The darkness inside.
The black hole of life.
**** feeling.
Always stuck
Repeating time.
Fast forward
And stop.
Or just pause
On replay.
Why didn't you stay?
Why the **** didn't you stay?
I give up.

Boom
Boom
Boom
Shots of shots
Down throats.
Burning.
Yearning.
Hide your guts.
Hide your ******* feelings.
Everything is meaningless,
And forgettable.
Like words unsead.
Naked in bed.
Get up and dust yourself off.
Just another notch.
Just an her notch.
You're not the first to be tasted.
Bruises only last so long.
Sing a song.
Sing a song
Of life without you
Without you.
Everything feels wrong
It's wrong.
It's wrong dude
I don't know how to carry on without you.
Just tie me down.
Tie me up.
I give up
I give up.
I give up.
I wish I had the ******* strength
To end my ******* life.
Here's to a life full of wishful behavior.
Never really getting what you want.

Some drink to remember.
I drink to forget.
To forget the unforgettable.
The words you said.
"No one will ever love you as much as I do."
But there is no truth in lies.
The truth is found in someone's eyes.
Telling a depth of stories.
One tries to hide.
Hide from your mind
Drift away.
Into the abyss.
Down the rabbit hole.
You'll never find your soul.
But somewhere in the darkest parts
That you try to hide,
You might find me.
Too bad it will be too late.
You will regret the choices you make.
Don't ever look back.
Run from your mistakes.
**** the replaying of tapes.
Begin again.
Rewrite a future life.
No looking back.
Don't relapse.
It's ok to ******* collapse.
Fall to the floor and scream.
Your past is only but a dream.
It's just a dream.
It's just a ******* dream.
Wake up!
Wake the **** up!
Wake up and see.
See me.
Going blind.
You're going blind again.
But memories don't last forever.
Apparently they only last as long as it takes to put your clothes back on.
Existance is a ******* joke.

I breathed you in for the last time.
Crying eyes
While our bodies entwined.
Intensity in asphyxiation.
Your heart suffocates mine.
Collapsed lungs,
Breathing heavy.
I wish we were steady.
Standing on two feet.
One path to lead.
Hands entwined
Down dark tunnels
Leading us to the light.
It's dim,
But it still shines.
You're always in the back if my mind.
In the hiding place
I need to keep you.
Safe
And sound.
Never to be found again.
There's no such thing as light.
I'm bound
To life
Without you.