I have found it.
That certain
circular way of being
I was looking
for it,
so hard
my soul in turmoil
one slight scratch
under smiling surface
and I would become
a sculpture
made of wax
melting
at the slightest
wisp of breath
burning ,
mercilessly
at certain words
forming
from your mouth,
your mouth—
that has placed
itself upon me
so many times
on our mutual
faraway cliffs
that no-time-zone
meeting point
above stars,
in other universes
and believe me.
Nobody can
live this way,
suffering for
the want
of an uncontrollable
urge to be
so
very loved
So I have found it.
My way back
to balance
it was in your voice
and my own
together mingling
clear lines of phone
cut through soul tingling
I now take this lotus,
planted in my being
since birth,
and hold my stance
prepare to
perform
the sacred dance
a mandala-painted
halo around my crown
a holy stone
in each hand,
buoying my spirit,
anxiety down
stones I will never
cast upon you
because you
are forever me
even as I
take my heart
with two hands
and return it,
still aflame,
into
my
chest