I stepped outside
To see the view
The sky still dark
The rain just thru

Then the sun
Burst out its rays
And they shown down
Thru all the haze

So it appeared
As if next door
The arc those blazing
Colours bore

It seemed so close
I could just reach
And with my hand
Those colours breach

And as I stood there
In the light
It was so clear
It was so bright

The air was fresh
So clean and pure
I was amazed
By its allure

My nostrils flared
My senses peaked
The moment seemed
So quite unique

But as I gazed
More clouds appeared
And then my rainbow
Disappeared
BOEMS BY JA 218

Why do you feel unloveable...you are a beautiful soul...so kind and giving to all that you meet. They don't appreciate what they have in you; the forgiveness you have shown to them all....its unreal. Protect yourself from harm now, please.

Its not the way you were born to be feeling unlovable....I understand they have broken you in two, lied to you and made you feel guilt for it all.

Its so wrong little lady because they are the ones who created you and should have protected u from pain, not created a stain, feelings of guilt, like ur not good enough.... You are...your perfectly perfect as you are.

They were wrong to put u in the middle, all you were trying to do was stop the pain, create love but you got accused of creating a mess, they misunderstood called you two faced...you weren't you loved them both and wanted them to be kind to each other and about each other...

That is definitely not too much to ask

Just because they didn't listen and thought you had bad intentions, you know the truth....it was done innocently because you wanted to be surrounded with love...like you were used to...

You didn't like the hate.

But its fine to have a distain of hatred and negativity.... You were not born this way...you were born to love not deal with misplaced hate that they felt about themselves.

Not born to take on the guilt in all that you do... Believe little one that you deserve to be loved unconditionally not disrespected, lied to, shouted at, ridiculed, bullied by the grown up witch, picked up and dropped often dependant on your reaction to the words of the witch.

Your dad was wrong in what he has done...he should never have made you second best, but its his loss as he will of lost so much of your kindness although he has basked in your forgiveness.

Your a beautiful soul, you know. Its OK not to agree, feel free, be who you want to be.

You are not unlovable little one, cause I love you, so very deeply, your amazingly strong.

Hey, you
Yeah, you
the one way over there
ensconced in tall grasses
where do you
think you are
going
you extend a hand
and loving heart
to so many
and so few
see your brokenness
your pieces of shattered
glass from
all four of those
muscled-*****
blood-flowing
chambers in your chest
              all over the floor
And Hey
I see you
I see you deep
Your molecules rising
Up unto
that soul's
brightness and
so beautiful
outlook
wisdom gained
from time
mixed with pain
             and rhyme
Hey
Let me
wrap my tendrils
of healing all and up
around you
right through you
Hush
No need to talk
         Just let me
press my
blood-pumping heart
right into
        yours
Feel it
Let my light
infuse you
Let me touch you
deep into
under skin
just like
you
    touch
            me

The stars twinkle in the beautiful sky tonight
Four stand out
To my eyes
Show me beautiful sights

The first star is
The brightest in the sky
In the deep and dark night
Looks perfectly shaped
Perfect
Makes me feel that inside
Some time we miss
When the sky does not align with my eye

This second is
The most gorgeous star in the sky
Looks can fly
And they do through my eyes
Once my eyes go inside
The lack of depth
It appears
Dark at the heart
Deceives does this beautiful shooting star

This star
Number three
Illuminates me
It does not always appear
Flickers with light
In the blackened sky
When it does shine
Its so bright
It hurts my insides
I bask in the light
Makes me ache
I miss this star some times

The last star is unusually small in size
Sparkles from afar
Lights up my eye
Slowly building trust
Knowing its always there

What I need to find is my sunshine
The sun that shines consistently through the sky
Finds its way through the darkest clouds
Creating spotlight where ever she shines
Enhancing colours
Takes my breath away
Impregnates Feelings
Displaying different experiences
Helps me to create
Broadens my insides
Helps me fight
To see the light
And beauty in all that surrounds

How sweet she sounds

I will wait until your found
My beautiful sunshine

Heavily I move towards the door
Am a strong woman
Struck with indecision
Its written all over me

Shows my vulnerability

I go out  and sit on the step
You sit behind
Wrap me up warm with your legs and arms holding mine, wrapped around

******* are resting all over your arms
Never felt so comfortable and safe.

I hear you breath
The warmth goes deep into my ear.
Tingling
Through every space in my viens

You whisper sweet nothings
Make me want to stay

We hold and look at the sky
You kiss me gently, over and over.
You stop and pull me closer, tell me to look at the moon

I do
Its full

You point out the brightest star in the sky
Apparently reminds thee of me

Heard it before
But not felt
You before
Not ever

Its like a fish, swimming for the first time.

Free
Safe

We sit my head rests
Back on your shoulder
You grap my hair pull
And caress my neck with your breath

We control

Lent back
Head on your shoulders arms under
You wonder
I ponder

We discuss the loss
Under the sky
The feeling of breaking
And avoiding taking

The brightest shining eye

The feelings of loss has to go
Its about defining you know