what a lovely night, to hear love songs,as my heart grows big and my eyes grow small, oh how lovely, oh how lovely your smile shoots across the sky

What a lovely night to hear love songs, to read love words, as love has hopelessly disappeared, as my heart keeps closed, oh how lovely, oh how lovely were these times when our soul was exploding inside us.

oh how i wish these lovely times would come again! come and crawl back into me, oh how i wish, how i wish i could touch your lovely face once more, once more on a winter night

Oh how I wish I could have hope, a tiny finger of hope, just send me a smile, just tell me a word, just give me a look to tell me everything is still possible.

still possible for my love,for my love to creep back into your heart,still possible for my lips to touch yours,touch yours...

Oh, how I wish this could be true, how I wish these words were yours, how I wish you whispered them in my ears, how I wish your words could vibrate my ears and my whole body and soul, like they used to do. Oh how I wish what you are saying wasn't a dream of mine, oh how I wish you were really near to me, oh how I wish I could tend my hand and tighten yours, Oh how I wish if I rose my hand it wouldn't only grab the air of my loneliness.

oh how i wish, how i wish you were by my side on this winter night...

But you're not. I'm walking barefoot in the snow, and tomorrow I'll be sick. If you had only been
here...

Oh
Darling
Can you?
Will you?
Dip my heart in love?

in your eyes
i see no one else but  you
and me sinking in your heart
slowly slowly

yeah you
see yourself in my own eyes
and me drowning in my mind

yeah you and i
see nothing
but each other
and each of us
loves to sink into each others skin

rip off your skin
and wrap me in it


ill die happy
with the wetness of your lips on my forehead

sometimes
i never wanna wake up

youre so silent

i hate that...

" I ain't happy , I'm feeling glad i got sunshine, in a bag, I'm useless but not for the long , the future is coming on"

~gorillaz/Clint Eastwood

"roll up your sleeves were headed for winter i know...
and nights will get colder
and ill make my bed, make sure i'm all fed and asleep...
wake when were older"

~we were promised jetpacks/roll up your sleeves

"Get up, get up
Walking!
Sleeping..no
Keep on moving
Slowly
Good morning and good sunshine"

Midicronia/San Francisco

i dont wanna waste my time
become another casualty
in society
ill never fall in line
become another victim of your conformity
and break down

Fall in early September
My legs are getting tired
My bike ,rusted from the cold wind
The sky cries and the trees leaves die
Fall in early September
This feeling I remember
It’s been a while
And maybe soon you’ll be gone
But at least the memories of you are warm

my body is leaking through the cracks on my desk
im tired of the voices around me
im tired of all its fakeness
the scent of liquor lingers on my shirt
and  it reminds me  of the night before
my words are leaking through  peoples knowledge
they seem to be confused
they seem to be lost
but as lost as me?
i certainly do not know
winter is now printed on the city
everyone walks with there chin close to there chest
and there hands in there pockets
i wonder howll ill keep warm half the time
but i know i have her to warm me up
with her tight hugs and her soft kisses
i know i have her so i can talk to her
and she'll make me feel better
my heart is mellow
and i all i want is to  feel her light touch on my back

Your old arms are warm
and your brain has turned to coffee
i sit the morning grass barefoot
seeing the october leaves fall gently in summer
holding its beauty in the rim of my iris
just like the love i hold for you
stuck on very buried word i pronounce

i've fallen again in the water of fire
summer walks
dark city's
and liquid hugs
all held on the tip of my eyelashes

oh, skin turning
skin wrapping
around your blue knees

oh,your blanket fingers
your flower lips
and your melting hips
i want to drown in it all
and swallow it all in

You said loudly
''i    frail    packs    afraid    shore    you''
i never understood it
until i lost my imaginative mind in the rain
you simply meant to say
" i am frail,am tired of digging in my cigaret packs  every time the sun stops shining on my love.
am just afraid to land your  shore of love, cause i don't want to ruin the grooves of the sand."

oh darling
say no such thing
for i have waited for the moment
that your love would spread
like orchid laughter

all i need
is the drips of love
you run to from my head to my toes

all i want is
tongue bites...

I do not love you any less

It is my stupid selfish desires


I love you forever

You'll be mine forever

your hands went thorugh me

so my bones are gone

and legs melt down

like rain syrup....

oh its a shame

how all the fun i had with
thou

does not mean a thing
anymore

oh its shame...

oh are you happy
with these memories
are you

oh its shame...

how we both
forgot the meaning
of all those moment

and now our eyes
are filled
confusion or hate

Dressed for cold
we met in the park

On a cold fall night

Were the only people awake
were us

walked until the morning came
walked with smiles on our faces

we were together
we were happy

Oh how i loved
the cloudy sky
and the way the air made my nose cold
cold enough to see my breath

walking on the derserted streets by your side

standing on a cliff listening to river flow away

and the lights of the wolrd made the world shine

played in the playgroud

and walking on a narrow step
trying to keep our balance  

oh the night was alive

oh how alive

we sat in a gazebo
quiet we were

wanting to kiss
but to shy

what a lovely way to spend the night
with you

with you

oh how lovely
your bright green eyes are

and your raspberry smile

how lovely
you are

I remembered her face
On a winter night
Were my brain buried under snow of thoughts
what will i
what will i
say...
When her eyes glow in the moonlight
When I hear her soft voice wrap around my ears

I’ll turn my hand into a fist and hide it in my pocket
Trying to squeeze the life out of my nerves
Oh, her beauty
Oh, her beauty
How it makes my knees shakes
Oh how it makes my eyes turn
How it makes my words turn into liquid

But each night
My thoughts melt onto my pillow
What will I say
What will I do
I don’t care
I don’t care
All I want is to see her moonlight eyes
Moonlight
Moonlight
To see her beauty
To see your hair running down
Her bright face…

One day
One day
I’ll see her again
Standing in front of me
Melting the snow under her boots

And I’ll be standing there
Nervous as hell
Forcing the bundle of words stuck in my throat
And my frozen breath
Escaping the dark

But then I’ll wrap my arms around her
And hug her tight
Until my frozen body heats up
And I’ll look into her moonlight eyes
Moonlight eyes
And I’ll say
‘’it’s been a while hasn’t it?’

early in the morning

in your dark room

drinking ***

our skin touches

our lips in-tangled

heavy breathing

high moaning

love making

at its finest

i have this pain in my neck,

you see, i have it since fall started

its my constant reminder
that my mind still lingers
on the skinny splinter
of you...

the trail thats on  the map of my past
keeps going back around

theres no  road out...
there really isn't
i've tried
i have failed

These sunny days
Oh, how they beat me down
Let's not go back
To the days
That made us tired and old

Come on let's run
Let's run right through the grass
And sing loud songs
And fall asleep
In each others arms

In these summer beds

i wanna hold
hold...

ohhh
oh these cranberry lips
left by the mark of yours...

whistled
whistled
in my ears
and now i can't get that beautiful tone out of my
cold ears

oh
ohhh
felt the hairs on my arms
stand
when your
finger tips
oh ohh
touched
touch....

now i felt
ohhh
oh
the snowflakes
grow
ohhh
on my veins

watch my eyes
turn
turn
oooooo
when
she walks down
that
ohhh
leafy grove
ooo
oo

can't?
can't you..
feel my rosemary eyes
curling your toes

ohhh
ohh
cause your windy legs
makes me forget
ohh
ohh
about those...
those
ohhh
oh
you
oh
wanna dance?
oh
with my arms around your waist
and with my our..
ohhh
forheads touching

now
nowww
now
let me see your
your
night eyes
ohh
oh
lovely you are...
you are..
darling

It seemed to have
cooled down your head


all those times

we spent
running  through the clouds
at night

laughing
laying near a pond

looking the infinit stars

as our bones
melted in the green grass

2am
My eyes can't stay shut
My thoughts hectic
All I think about Is you

I don't know why but..
I feel uneasy when I think of you
Unsettled , troubled
Something's different

My soul crys
As if I lost you
Why?
You're still mine

Ugh
On nights like this at 2am
Thoughts of you circle my head
I love you and I'm afraid of losing you

I just wish we felt stronger

Grey Sky's
White earth
Cold but comforted
Sleepy feeling but the world is my own bed

Everyday i look forward
To talk endlessly about same old stuff
But I mostly just wait for a response now

Warm but  unnaturally too warm
My bed clean
My floors and counters...messy
I flop onto my bed
Half drunk half ******
The darkness fill my eyes
And for a second
I feel like falling in darkness wouldn't be too bad

****

This shouldn't matter !

In sleep you find comfort
In your crafts you find inspiration
In your pets you find love
But in the people you love
And who love you back
You find criticism
Short tempered
And anoyyed
In the presence of a Stranger
God forbids you speak up
You would take the word of a stranger that would comment about your appearence
But from the ones who love you a chuckle of disbelief escapes your breath
My love yes
I do wonder of our
F
U
T
U
R
E

deep sleeps
Slumber...
Drown me into
An infinite hibernation

Your Flower Lips
And your summer hands

Touch my frosty lips
and touch my icicle ribs

you melt me
you melt me

as you leave your rose lips on my neck

Biking is my only Medecine for me
Fast through the cold wind
I can't even feel my fingers about to fall off
When I bike I'm in the present
There's no past there's no future
Just keep on biking
Go fast
Gliding with the wind

I just wanna bike away

Remember when we used to keep waving at each other  until we were out of sight
When I used to bike across the city to see you
Laughed until we cried
Drank until we danced
These memories fill me
And Gush out
Late night car rides  
lonely train rides
dark bike rides
My mind riddled with your face
The peachy sunsets
And glittering stars are there to comfort me
The burning sun in the deep blue sky push me
The cotton candy clouds engulf me
“It’s just me now”
My eyes filled with tears now
the music soothes me to sleep
You’re so far now
And it’s because of me
I’m sorry
So sorry
Some times I just really want you back….

I stopped smoking ****

At least for a while

My head feels clearer

My motivation slowly comes back

I slowly feel joy in the simpler things

Sometimes it's good not to be high all the time

But sometimes it's great to be high all the time

When we first met
I thought u were Strange
Weird...
But you ended up being my best Friend
Once I knew you more
You were ...hilarious...knowledgable
My brother....

Time goes on and we change
I found a girl who touched my heart
You continued to be the "Lone Ranger"
Too man to cry
Too "man" to even be your own self

Adventures we had
The laughs that left us breathless
Are now just memories
We barely see eachother
We barely talk
We said we would be best friends...brothers
But now I'm not sure

We're on two separate paths
That...it's too late to make u walk back to come on my side
I hope one day u can cut through

I love you
Even if I dont talk to you
I miss you ..my brother
I hope one day we can somewhat
Expirience
The old days

I left my heart
In your skin
and bones

Days are dull
Grey skies and weeping clouds
The sun peaks through and says hello
And blue skies leaves you wanting more
Days are dull
Even when the sun blasts through and burns all the clouds in the sky
And you go home a different shade at night

This city , this open space ..
feels lonely without You
These morning and nights with empty beds and unspoken words ,leave me wondering
About you
Wanting you
You are far away In distance
But your galaxies away in spirit
When you talk to me
Your words fall like cement blocks on the floor
And pierce my chest and mind like knives

I sense it
My fear has finally settled in
You longer want me
You no longer have the need to talk to me
Oh how it breaks my souls
Oh how I want to cry on your shoulder and in your arms
But alas , that is no longer an option
I must comfort myself now
For you are just a mark
On the map of my past

You say “only you”
You say...

But i knows that’s *******

Closed my eyes
and i imagined
myself flying

Opened my eyes
found myself
sitting in the leaves of fall
drowning

Oh,love the night
and wake up in the snow

Run through the days
Until the leaves turn green
Until her face falls in the summer moon

My white brain
white bones
nibbled in the break of dawn
While i see laughter drops
falling from the curves of her lips

The frozen river
turns to spring

And the fumes of my coffee
wraps me to warmth

Singing on the summer beaches
with her red hair sinking in my bones

Trust me
My love

If I knew that I would have ended up with you

I would have done eveything different

Everything...

And you wouldnt be so hurt

Trust me my dear love

If I KNEW I was gonna have you
Hold you
Kiss you
Love you

I...
Wouldn't feel so guilty

We poets
see things
hear things
say things
that others don't.

We see the beauty
within everything
We try to write the beauty we see
with words

when we love a person
we just don't love them for the figure
of their body
Or whatever else society says
that makes a person beautiful or perfect
When we love
we love them for
the sound of their laugh
the way they smile
talk,walk
the way they look at you
the way they kiss you
or the way they tell you things

We love them for past
for their mistakes
the small things
we poets love

We love the way the water glitters
the sun shines
and the way it rains
everything

We poets wish we could say things
and people would love the words you say

but  we poets and can cry tears
and make it look like a poem

people who hate poems though
we could feel sad for them
cause we know they'll never
be able to say the words of their heart

We
Are
Poets
Be happy
for we are poets

the day turned into honey
my lungs filled with its sweet taste

and my heart beat fell
i couldnt see around myself

i am stuck...
stuck...
on your skin

the taste doesnt leave the back of my mouth
and thickness doent leave my eyes

wash me down
wash me down

now...
your maple honey skin
is drowning me

the music runs through
our body's in the summer
like water in spring

******
I wake up
My room pitch black
The sun of the outside world
Creeps ever slightly from the stairs
I want you to turn around
Be there in my bed and grab my face
Kiss me
The rhythm won't stop
Lost
Lost

I wake up
There I am
In the middle of this darkness

Who's...
Body am I in?

Bored in class
Smoked half my pack
I keep getting up for a snack
The days hot
I got a cold , nose full of snot
All I wanna do is bike
Nah man **** a hike
Give me a joint
Then I'll tell u my point

She has the most rarest eyes

Bluer then blue
Whiter then white

Intense
But calming

She is the most rarest girl

Loving me
Being patient with me

Just bearing with me

****
I love you

Deep inside
I hate myself

I love you
Thank you

So you saw me dancing on thin ice
As moon applauded me
and only me
ohhh
The stars are loving
the starts are laughing
looking down the world
looking on down me
and i'm shaking my head
to see my heart beat, was beating for the wrong one
------------------
youre falling,slipping, crying,sinking
wishing that you brought me down with you
youre shaking,lying,running,screaming
and i'm sitting down on this wooden chair
playing cards cards with your mind
confuzing you

and i'm crowing out my lungs
playing cards with your mind
confuzing you
-----------------
now the shortest day of winter
ate away the sun
tripping on you
and now am telling you
i'm dancing
As the words
slip your mind
making your lips dry
--------

youre falling
youre falling
youre falling
youre falling
youre falling

Playing cards with your mind
confuzing you...

To be honest
I wanna break free
Leave this city
Leave society
Bike far
Find my place
Live
Cleanse my brain with nature
I don't need these detailed problems
I don't  want these detailed resolves

I'm falling asleep again after an argument
I just wanna break everything
Bash my skull

I'll wake up refreshed

Sadly I'll have to deal with all this again

Fell asleep in the foggy park
Woke up to the sounds of her heart beat
With her head leaving a dent in my arm
and the grass ties us down

sun breaks through the leaves
and her warm body
moves ever so gently

We'll never forget
We'll never forget...

white clouds
travel through the sky
leaving us with a thought

We'll never forget
We'll never forget...
These
Spring mornings

the night was cold

but we were warm

as our skin touched

as our lips melted upon each other

she made a path with her finger on my bare ribs

and i made a path on her bare back with my finger

we kissed our honey lips

and our rose petal skin touched

beautiful the night

beautiful she was

oh
we have each other

i simply dont know

whats going on

with all this cold

it seems to half frozen my emotion
in one stage

frozen my  way of thinking
and it cant thaw

am still there
in that state

i simply
cannot seem
to be thawing
no matter what


******...

Oh,I love Summer
But i fell in love with spring
In winter