the soft snow bed
that lays on top of  the mountains
melting down
into the frozen lake
with soft slippery rocks
that feels good to drown your feet in
and feel the cold water dig under your finger nails
your hear beat,slowing down
you feel the clouds move
and you feel your skin streching
and for the first time
the trees became your best friend
the wind becoming music
to your brain

you slowly open your eyes
and slowly part your dried lips

you whisper in a sleepy voice
"i never felt so alive"

i want to get lost
with you in my hand oh love
oh lovely oh love

As we sing our song
screaming it out to the stars
come now take my hand

And we will ride clouds
upon the fall breeze of leaves
Flowers like love,oh

Shaking my head
you dancing around me
starting to fill my bones
i ask myself why
you just keep on tapping your feet

gave in
and the light just grabbed my heart
threw at the moon
well im gone
forever
dancing my tears away

and the stars
tell me
to glide across there glow
and i wouldnt be more happy

time
filled up in my skin
im tired of turning
i want to keep still
now...

so tell me
tell me
whats the purpose of you crying
and me laughing
come join me

in my veins
her blood runs

oh

in my brain
her footprints lay

Tell me your thoughts
of the deadly winter
and i'll"will say
"come under the covers with me
and follow my steps"
even though oh
my steps are faulty
i'll lead you the best way i can ohh

oh with these snowy flakes
take me away
with your -40 kisses
so we can freeze this moment time

OH OH Ohhhh
I'll tell you dear
my thoughts on the deadly winter

and you will say

"good, cause all i wanna do is sleep by your side
as the world freezes outside"

smoking ciggies now
Stress takes over , I don't quit
...the blue sky's look nice....

this humid morning
seems to be making me
seems to  me....
so take a deep breath
down your lungs
let me feel your eyes  turn me
oh
bright smile
always seemed to
have made me-
oh
it seems to me-

so drink of your cup of sin
and tell me in the morning
"why are  you making me sad for?"
ohhhhhhhh

seems to me
you found delight
in your own skin
but i thought you said you'd never-

never-

and now i forget

I wake up once the morning
And I slowly open the curtain to peek outside
Blue sky shines through and the green trees strengthen all the colours
The world is alive
And the heat has already spread inside of everyone's houses

On days like these
I want to have an adventure
Or work hard in the sun
I hate being in my house and do nothing or go to work and trapped inside all day
On a cloudy and rainy day
I do not mind
But the horizon on a sunny day calls me
The clouds lift me
The  trees and the grass wants to drown me

I used to never feel like this
Rain or shine is didn't make matter
I could stay in or go out and not matter what the weather is
But now
I desire an adventure

It's not that I want
It's that I can't
I don't know who you are
Nether do I know myself
I feel a gap in my brain
A gap in knowledge
Sitting in dark class
Is everyone alone
Or everyone together
Alone
All of us
Even with companys
We're alone
Stuck in the world we have created

The world still turns
Like it always has

Like it always will

But it doesn't feel the same

This world
Our world

What do we do

What have I done

What will I do

This world
My world

I am confused

-Yeah.I still do...

It was cold that day
and i walked into my favorite cafe
and i ordered a tea
i stood there waiting
i look to my side
kids that i knew all sitting in the middle long table
5 girls and one guy
it was interesting to see..
i scratched my stubble that i grew out for a bit
and i felt my mustache that i was growing for a year now
should i cut it?
it was tangled,
my toque down my forehead
my black hoodie with a faded chocolate stain
and buttons and pins on my left side
my grey jeans
and torn green converse
i looked at the cars pass by-
"Your tea sir!"
he layed it on the counter
looking past his glasses at me
with his long red beard
he stared at me long
i was confused for a moment
" oh th-thank you man!"
he walked away
i grabbed my tea  and walked out
with my hands around the cup
my frozen breath going into the cup
and coming out
intangled
with the tea's steam-
i looked at it escape into the air
and i remember i saw you early that day
looking at me from afar with food in your mouth
waving at me

i was confused

These nights
Seem odd
Relaxing but out of place
Maybe I am out of place
I came to the conclusion
I think about the future and past too Much
I have forgotten the art of
Enjoying the day
How?
Slipped right out of my  fingers
Perphaps it's my fault
I may have had "fun"
But I fell behind a bit
Now I'm catching up

******* why does society
Make me have to speed of my life up

Why can't I just live off the land
Enjoy the companie  of nature
And the sky

For the remainder of my life

How sad

Gone to bed with an empty feeling

**** I don't know

I should get more ******

Gone to bed ...feeling like I haven't said a word to you all day
Under my covers
The best feeling I've felt all day

****,everything else shouldn't matter

Falling deep into sleep
Your body  floating in the middle  of your own mind

The night seems long
But not long enough

The darkness only lasts a bit
The quiet comes to the end  

And you're back to where you were

Night
Making us sleep forever
Like death
The problems we create disappear for a second

Different color
Different art
A land that looks liked dried up tree roots
A sea of beauty
The black hole of wonder
Grows and shrink
To keep out the ugliness
And swallow  the beauty
And my eyes swallow your beauty...

I miss those days

i really do

you know those days

the sunset clouds
streching arcross the sky sea
the color of peach
and bleeding strawberrys
the crying blueberry clouds
the bright blue  sky pushing it away
all in the horizon
it almost looked a forest fire

We sat under it all
the fallen yellow leaves
flying on the air
and landing on our head
stickling to our hair

those fall days
i miss them

the sound of the trumpet

off in the distance

puts my brain to my sleep

and i fall into a  deep dream sleep

Dooooooooooooo
Dododooooooo

i'll die in the winter
and rise in summer
go on adventures
and sleep for the night
think of you under cold stars
and dream of you under the red sun
and when fall comes breaking in
i'll sleep under the covers
and i'll imagine me
standing in the middle
of the leaves
cold and writing poetry in my head
hoping you'll walk around the
falling tree

There
She stood

There
I stood


Both Lonely...

With

Rain sinking in our skin

with

leaves
under
our shoes...

The Trees
tired and wet

There she
stands

There i
Stands

in harmony

Giving
the
same
look

of

trust

Stop

What your thinking


You  are wrong


Stop

Feeling heart broken

'Cause you're mistaken

laughing away
until am water

snowing
on me, and i was warm...


turned into snow
and traveled the sky's

fell on a tree
and sleept endlessly

until the moon
and sun kissed

Waiting for your reply

Waiting all morning

The clouds pass
The sun sinks

Waiting all afternoon

My bed holds me up

i want  flowers to start growing out of my brain


so that  my eyes can turn into melting sweet honey

And your black hair
Covering my face
As you rest your chin on my shoulder
Breathing hard into my ear
You whisper softly
"I really ******* like you"
And you let your head fall
On my chest
My heart beat against your cheek
Yours against my rib
I respond
" me too love ...me  too "

engulf me into your skin

swallow me

together we will strive for a different life

drown me in your hopes

maybe all is not lost for me...

honey
crawling into my skin
down my veins
in my heart
"i feel like i'm crying honey"
the wind  is going through my brain
i feel its wind softly drifting in my skin
"oh man,oh man"
got the feeling
of putting october in a tea cup
"is it a new me"
i have realized the pure beauty of sunsets
fire  dancing with clouds, in each others arm
they burn the sky
"i love tea,with a lot honey"
kisses are nice
"im really bad it though"
i have accepted the fact that i am
"oh but they are wonderful"
its like clouds pecking the cheek of fumes
that comes from your foggy cup
poetry written on your skin
as you love everything around you
pen ink for your blood
for we love to write!
" oh poetry i love it"
and why is that?
" it can give words, but not the definition to the unspeakable!"

.......**i just love honey tea and red sunsets

Honey of fall
pours over the city

Trees grow tired and loose their leaves

The grass stops growing and goes to sleep

clouds turn grey
and the sun hides away

and i stay standing
in the middle of the field
the wind breaks through my clothes
and into my bones
oh how i shiver
oh how my bones shiver

and there she walks
pass the golden trees
with the smile that touches
the sun and moon
and her eyes like clouds in day
and the stars at night
her hair flows gracefully
like the wind breezing through the grass

oh how lovely
how lovely

and there i stand
cold and shivering
with a face thats rough
and brown hazel eyes
that are tired
black messy hair
dry hands
and i stand slanted

yet she holds my hand
my cold hands
yet she does
she does...

..not about you
Happiness doesn’t  lay within you’re successes
The love of someone might tickle your heart
The money might make your mind calm
The house might make you feel secure
The clothes and vehicles might make u feel confident
But happiness does not lay within in any of these things , in any material thing or  person

Happiness lays within you already
We’re just blinded on what happiness is
Happiness is in what you give to others
Love , help , time , laughter , a lending hand , a lending ear .
And it’s within the power of you pushing yourself everyday, exceeding your limit to grow and love.

You’re anxiety’s and sadness will consume you And the darkness in the tunnel will frighten you. Happiness won’t always be there in-spite of all these things. And the end of the tunnel not in sight

But you will find the fire
a smallest ray of sun through a crack
A small light
That will guide you

4th month

April 2013:

The month of my birthday came around
and i was looking forward to the day i turned a year older
My good friend started dating this one girl
and thats all he talked about,drove me insane
but he was happy and i was happy for him
I wrote a lot of poetry
of my confused state that month.
and continues making music with my friends
Warm weather was pearing over the hills.

The day of my birthday came,
my buddy came over and we walked around the mall
with a small keyboard we bought at a second hand store

He talked about his girl
and i shooked my head
and smiled.

Days in the summer


Dazed in the summer


My minds a bit tired
" I'll take a break "

Seems to never happen


Hidden away in my room
In the dark

I don't like light


Only you

It's been
Aproximetly
1320 days
Since that day
You became my clementine
And I became your valentine

A dream we both hold
Lays in the midst
And sometimes it's hard to even see it within our grasp
But late at night
When we are together
And  I turn my head to look at you
And when I look at you
Your eyes are closed
And your billions of worlds away
And when a soft breath
Escapes
Your soft lips
I know you are the one for me


But sometimes you are asleep
When you are awake
I cannot blame you
It must be hard being stuck in your own head...more then most

You know your my hearts beat

Love , my darling

But....




Is it that hard to say





"How you doing?"

In my big bed
Darkness all around me
Everything is quiet
Except for my head

Days are faster
19...just around the corner
First day of high school
Feels so long ago
Also...  like it was yesterday

Time is slipping by me
By the milesecond
And here I am awake from too much thinking
I miss the old days

I miss the old days

But here I am
Growing older

I'll miss these days too

Some day

into the sea we go
swim all the way to the bottom
until we find the ocean in us
ohh ohh ohh

now tell now tell
were does the time go when your
head hits the clouds
WHOA
i took a bit of you
and you took a bit of me
i guess we all ******

oh oh oh oh
grass skin grows on my bones
and am growing out of this winter
running with the air that intangles me

now am flying
flying
oh oh oh oh
looking
finding
the way i should hold your heart
in my eyes

oh oh now tell me
tell me
tell me
were did the time go
when my head hit the clouds
in early september?!

Your flower lips
Touched my withered lips
And warmed its frost

oh my chilling body
warmed by your heart


oh you
oh you

make my bones crumble
with this
feeling
you give me

your
summer feeling

You know!
that i want to hold you flower  body
on this winter bed
and melt
into this earth's skin
never to wake up

To all this rust
we just need to adjust

uggg i have words now
now i have them in my mouth
oh i wanna say it!
MAYBE it will change your mind
about choosing me
MAYBE it will make you come back?
I HAVE words now
leaking at my **** tongue
"am i beautiful?"
YES you are
you
but how do you want me to describe
your golden brown hair resting your rosemerry cheek
and how do i decribe the way your  upper lip is could pale
and your bottom lip rose pink!
and the way your upper lip rests sofly upon your bottom lip
HOW do i decribe
these words
that taste like honey
because there are sweet, my words
" this song is amazing!"
no its not!
it is something more
how do i describe the way a certain  beat reminds  me  of your beating heart
upon my chest
how do i describe the way it makes my heart
and my bones dance
HOW
oh i have words now
of my problems
how do i scream them out
so evertthing will be better
and my  happy parts
how do i laugh them out
for they are gorogeus!

OH I HAVE WORDS NOW
clinging on my teeth pouring off my tongue
I HAVE WORDS NOW
and i dont know how to say them...

How long can we do this


Make eachother sad

Make eachother hate each other

I don't know if I can do this

No....ill try

A bit more

I want to believe
Not know the world is round

love

you

deeply

D
e
e
p
l
y

.
..
.
..
.
.
.
..
.
.I love you..

Bike away

Bike today

Goodbye

Staring at me cause I smoke

Letting the smoke escape my mouth and nose  

I look at you

And  I throw my cigarette down then spit

" I don't care "

I stare at a girl in my head
with long blonde hair
with purple streaks gliding across
With lips that makes you want
to kiss the bad memories away

A girl that makes you want
to wrap your arms around
her warm heart
that makes you want to hold her hand
until your hand turns into a lake

she's a girl with a beautiful mind
with eyes of a blue sea
a face of soft clouds
a nose  that's perfectly round
with a red heart
white bones,with bravery written across it
a smile  that makes your ribs close in

just a girl
just a girl

that gives me this feeling
a feeling...

a feeling

" I've been busy"
sleeping,drinking,smoking
its a routine
thats implanted into my blood
everyday is beautiful,
but everyday I'm dead
walking  through everyones eyes
no one sees me
no one knows me
but every one hates me

her touch
that i know so well
brings me to life
with her smile
that rhymes her clear eyes
her clear eyes
her blue eyes
oh i know what makes me move on

his voice i know so well
his laughter that makes me cry
a friend who's become my brother
reminds me of my father
when i see him looking out the trains window
with sadness lingering down  his eyes
oh i know  what makes me move on

with every one laughing behind  there emotions
i lay there staring
with smoke in my eyes
oh I've gone blind
and no one yells
out for me
I'm falling through
my beds mattress
searching for comfort i cannot find

oh you know what i feel
but you still have the guts
to cut me up
you know what i say
but you still have the nerve
to take what i say away from me

no more please
let me melt
let me die
through your skin
cause your the only one
that makes me warm
forever

But to bad that I didn't know

I am very sorry

I’m so tired of loving people
Who don’t love me back