Ask me
how i will kiss you

Ask me
how i will hold you

Ask me
if i'll see you everywhere

cause i love you

I am so glad
to have let her
slip in my life
and make the moon shine again

In my slightly lit room

You'll find me sleeping under the covers

And outside you'll find
A wintry land

But in my head
You'll find something different
A hope
A glimmer

Maybe this whole thing
Can turn around

Telling the sun to bleed
upon my head
so i could sleep
in your arms
waiting to dream
with  your cold breath
crossing my hair
and your frail fingers
hold me in closer
to your body

The grey clouds cover the city
The streets seem empty
Yellow leaves have fallen in mid September
You drove away
In midst it all  
With a smile and wave
I’ll miss you

The two paths
Lay there peacefully
Quietly teasing you
Taunting you...
Your decision  couldnt affect them
In any way...

The two paths
Lay there
Stretching as far as the eye can see
With nothing in view


The two paths
Lay there as two paths
Not knowing
Never knowing
How they taunt me night and day

There
She stood

There
I stood


Both Lonely...

With

Rain sinking in our skin

with

leaves
under
our shoes...

The Trees
tired and wet

There she
stands

There i
Stands

in harmony

Giving
the
same
look

of

trust

I’ll write this
Yeah I’m drunk
But I feel good
I think you
But I don’t miss you
I hope your good
As our paths distance
Goodbye

You know
I never really got it
Stress, anxiety and all those things
I thought they were mild feelings
And a good sleep could cure it all
Until it happened to me
It's true what they say
"Don't know what you got till its gone"
But to me it was my confidence
My sanity
My cool and calmness
All of a sudden it was hard to just relax
Hard to work
Hard to be loving to my girlfriend
To sleep
To wake up
To enjoy the burning sun
the warmness on your skin
Music
Biking
Eating
Good thoughts
Days felt weird not normal
being myself felt...difficult
All I wanted to do is stay locked up at home , in my dark room  
..
....
.....
I can say I get better everyday
At least I hope

You know
I never really got it
Thought it could be cured with a good shower


Now I just feel happy when I get an hour that I feel like myself again

Soft delicate face
Oh how i want to hold you
Under a snow cloud

Oh
Darling
Can you?
Will you?
Dip my heart in love?

I wake up once the morning
And I slowly open the curtain to peek outside
Blue sky shines through and the green trees strengthen all the colours
The world is alive
And the heat has already spread inside of everyone's houses

On days like these
I want to have an adventure
Or work hard in the sun
I hate being in my house and do nothing or go to work and trapped inside all day
On a cloudy and rainy day
I do not mind
But the horizon on a sunny day calls me
The clouds lift me
The  trees and the grass wants to drown me

I used to never feel like this
Rain or shine is didn't make matter
I could stay in or go out and not matter what the weather is
But now
I desire an adventure

Oh,I love Summer
But i fell in love with spring
In winter

I told her
I finally told her
the words behind my teeth
and shared them so she could swallow my words
and rest nice in her belly
but she spat them out
and walked away

and that was it...

the music runs through
our body's in the summer
like water in spring

Fall in early September
My legs are getting tired
My bike ,rusted from the cold wind
The sky cries and the trees leaves die
Fall in early September
This feeling I remember
It’s been a while
And maybe soon you’ll be gone
But at least the memories of you are warm

the darkness leaks inside me
the reflection in the mirror, car windows,water
is a man who seems like a past acquaintance
the body my souls lies in seems strange

my mind is crushing in on itself
or maybe theres a hole there
empty
confused
these feelings tower over me like the devil
ready to take control of me once im fully weakened

her eyes are soulless when she looks at me
Her kisses hit me like a single snow flake
Her touch feels faint
her words...no emotion

Here I am
Reaping what I sowed
Dealing with the **** I myself made

My sanity clings on a tiny thread


I love her...
But I Despise myself

..not about you
Happiness doesn’t  lay within you’re successes
The love of someone might tickle your heart
The money might make your mind calm
The house might make you feel secure
The clothes and vehicles might make u feel confident
But happiness does not lay within in any of these things , in any material thing or  person

Happiness lays within you already
We’re just blinded on what happiness is
Happiness is in what you give to others
Love , help , time , laughter , a lending hand , a lending ear .
And it’s within the power of you pushing yourself everyday, exceeding your limit to grow and love.

You’re anxiety’s and sadness will consume you And the darkness in the tunnel will frighten you. Happiness won’t always be there in-spite of all these things. And the end of the tunnel not in sight

But you will find the fire
a smallest ray of sun through a crack
A small light
That will guide you

Cleanse me
Reach into my brain
My mind
And cleanse me
Bring me back to my normal self
Give me my confidence
Take away these thoughts
I am not this
I
Am
Not
These
Thoughts

Days are dull
Grey skies and weeping clouds
The sun peaks through and says hello
And blue skies leaves you wanting more
Days are dull
Even when the sun blasts through and burns all the clouds in the sky
And you go home a different shade at night

This city , this open space ..
feels lonely without You
These morning and nights with empty beds and unspoken words ,leave me wondering
About you
Wanting you
You are far away In distance
But your galaxies away in spirit
When you talk to me
Your words fall like cement blocks on the floor
And pierce my chest and mind like knives

I sense it
My fear has finally settled in
You longer want me
You no longer have the need to talk to me
Oh how it breaks my souls
Oh how I want to cry on your shoulder and in your arms
But alas , that is no longer an option
I must comfort myself now
For you are just a mark
On the map of my past

You say “only you”
You say...

But i knows that’s *******

It’s hard to let you go
The memories we had
Hurt so
When they cross my mind all day
The sweet things we would say
The little moments of love we had
Wish I could relive so bad
But our sparked died
I feel like I tried
But maybe I could have done more
My hearts on the floor
Do you miss me?
Do you think of me?
Like I do?
I’m on a hill and I’m the fool

Skin wrapped in blankets
I feel this anxiety fill me up
Skin on my skin
Sin on top of sin
Let me forget with a drink and a kiss
You’re eyes waver
It’s not the same, so I guess it’s goodbye
Let me forget with with the touch of skin
To soothe my sin
I wish it were, how it once was
Who knows if this is the right road to go
I’ll try to distract myself
With sin and a soft kiss
That’s unfamiliar