I wish humans were simple


But we're not

Complicated as ****

We don't even know our body and mind

I wish we were simple as ****

But our entire being
Is a maze

rip off your skin
and wrap me in it


ill die happy
with the wetness of your lips on my forehead

sometimes
i never wanna wake up

heads so full

and some times light

when i see your smile

oh. so windy
can't light my smoke

**** me now
id rather live in winter time
then in dark times

eyes so full

oh so tired

ill go to bed

stare at me
longer then a second
your eyes  are what i need
to cleanse my mind

hold me
longer then forever
cause your touch

is what keeps my heart at ease

we are becoming stitched together
questioning "why?" when out hands let go
i think of an other time
of us but we do not know each others name
nor know the taste of each others lips
and i get this shiver at the back of my brain
yelling out to my ear
"dont"
im holding  you
dont hold back
hold me now
till im in a deep sleep
kiss me on the forehead
and ill kiss you on the lips
i wont hold back
if you hold me now
cause ill hug you
till my arms shatter
and ill
have nothing left to hold  on with
and thats when i need you the most

So cozy

So warm

You're my sleeping pill

You're my blanket

intense clear blue eyes you have
i can get so lost in them
black hair just like mine
but mine shines brown in the sun
bitten fingers nails
just like my nails
lips so puffy like a cloud i could sink into them
layer of soft skin
just around your belly
or better said around you're whole body
i love you're skinny legs
that wrap my torso
i love youre red fingers(cause its so cold)
that scratch my head
when i have my whole head planted into youre belly
oh i could keep on going...

And you have a stressful family life
just like me
but i hate to see you teary eyed
my beautiful girl

" it depresses the hell outta me"

Teeth marks on my neck
oh teeth Marks on your chest
the feeling so great
with the most comfortable pain
oh i keep pulling
you keep tugging
and we wont satisfied
till our skin encounters
shivering,shy to meet
they've met,feel those goosebumps reach your  brain
no i never felt no better thing
then the touch of skin
yeah i feel like honey
sinking in these lovely bones
i step out of my mind
cause i cant believe
no i gotta step in
cause i wanna believe
youre the one
i need need need to hear  your heartbeat
to know youre here
cause maybe im not
cause youve got me to high
my feet touches the clouds
sinking in through the earth
never gonna stop
cause you me to high
my mind is touching the moon
never coming down
cause im crowded by stars

running
panting
lights in my eyes
the bones in my legs aching
people staring
panic running through my blood
" just run just run"
the dark city became evil in the night
the lights looked like it was shining on me
looking for me
pointing me out

sadness mixes with panic in my head
wandering what happened to my friends
what happened to the girl i care for so much

are they okay??


running
panting
the lungs in my chest aching
it sounds like ill cough blood

everyone is out to get me

early in the morning

in your dark room

drinking ***

our skin touches

our lips in-tangled

heavy breathing

high moaning

love making

at its finest

in your eyes
i see no one else but  you
and me sinking in your heart
slowly slowly

yeah you
see yourself in my own eyes
and me drowning in my mind

yeah you and i
see nothing
but each other
and each of us
loves to sink into each others skin

" I've been busy"
sleeping,drinking,smoking
its a routine
thats implanted into my blood
everyday is beautiful,
but everyday I'm dead
walking  through everyones eyes
no one sees me
no one knows me
but every one hates me

her touch
that i know so well
brings me to life
with her smile
that rhymes her clear eyes
her clear eyes
her blue eyes
oh i know what makes me move on

his voice i know so well
his laughter that makes me cry
a friend who's become my brother
reminds me of my father
when i see him looking out the trains window
with sadness lingering down  his eyes
oh i know  what makes me move on

with every one laughing behind  there emotions
i lay there staring
with smoke in my eyes
oh I've gone blind
and no one yells
out for me
I'm falling through
my beds mattress
searching for comfort i cannot find

oh you know what i feel
but you still have the guts
to cut me up
you know what i say
but you still have the nerve
to take what i say away from me

no more please
let me melt
let me die
through your skin
cause your the only one
that makes me warm
forever

my body is leaking through the cracks on my desk
im tired of the voices around me
im tired of all its fakeness
the scent of liquor lingers on my shirt
and  it reminds me  of the night before
my words are leaking through  peoples knowledge
they seem to be confused
they seem to be lost
but as lost as me?
i certainly do not know
winter is now printed on the city
everyone walks with there chin close to there chest
and there hands in there pockets
i wonder howll ill keep warm half the time
but i know i have her to warm me up
with her tight hugs and her soft kisses
i know i have her so i can talk to her
and she'll make me feel better
my heart is mellow
and i all i want is to  feel her light touch on my back

its summer now
i dont know,what to say
neither do i know the day
erasing my mind  everyday
like a bad drawing
down my lungs
and out my lips
in through  my eyes
in my brain
the clouds dance
and tell  me to sink into the grass
i cant stand
i wont walk
ill actually go crazy....
you dont understand
no...
she dips her legs in the pool behind her house
and i walk in the water up to my knees
in this pond surrounded by trees
with rocks under my feet
i feel the waves in my bones
true peace,rests  in my mind

and in your mind
i seem to have never stayed
oh and im quite proud
quite proud
now
now that the spring arrived
i cant resist to lay my green skin on the green grass
and they always told me
"you'll die catching your dreams"
but i just kept living
as I'm  killing my lungs
here we go another day
in my life
ohhhhh

you told me
lies
in my body
getting to high
forgetting how the rays of sun
feel
this smoke is making me look old
and now the clouds
cry forever
you told me

we laugh
crying like those clouds
forever
shiver down my skin
you kiss the clouds
forever
you told me
lies
in my body
hiding in the dark
getting to high
forever

this humid morning
seems to be making me
seems to  me....
so take a deep breath
down your lungs
let me feel your eyes  turn me
oh
bright smile
always seemed to
have made me-
oh
it seems to me-

so drink of your cup of sin
and tell me in the morning
"why are  you making me sad for?"
ohhhhhhhh

seems to me
you found delight
in your own skin
but i thought you said you'd never-

never-

and now i forget

The night was long
And the stars were singing softly as the moon danced around them
I could feel the air
Entering my body
I couldn't feel my feet touching the ground
Maybe I was flying
Flying in the air
All alone
With my acid thoughts
My mind was exploring
My eyes grew
And felt my eyes were turning like the  earth
I saw myself in a reflection
I barely recognized myself
Music was becoming a part of me
And I understood how it worked
Water slowly dripping down my ribs
A waterfall in my body
Who was I
Only my heart knew
... Morning came
And the sunrise was beautiful
I could almost drink it....

i felt the solitude
go into my bones
as a far cry in the distance
deep in the mountains
sings to the sky
i began to cry
my cold hands covering my face
i could feel the wind pushing me back
into the fog,
i thought of you
and fell on the humid grass
as the person as i used to be
reflects in the water
that slowly quivers in your eyes
tell me you'll still fall into my arms
even though im tired and cold
even though...
i'll still hold  you up to the moon
as my mind floats through this world

and when you held my hand

i lost all feeling from my head to my toes
from my head to my toes

i lost all feeling

through my bones
through my veins


when you held my hand tightly

above you
and you look at me, as if your waiting
waiting...
grasping my shoulders
you pull me in
our skin was touching
heating up,
your red nails dug into my back
but i loved it
your breathing hard
my mind cant take
im going crazy...
your blonde hair smells like fresh strawberrys
i could taste  it on your tongue

i cant get you out of my mind

****...

with this light a glowing
my heart is
breaking
drying
ohhh

empty veins
that are now dying
take me
to-

to the milky way
to die

and your smile starts it all


and i said " why....even the music dances"

soft whistling in my ear

*my heart couldn't take it

stars in my eyes

honey tea  in my hands

a button up shirt

and ***** grey pants

standing on a hill
the moon watched me closely
and sung into my ear
i sung loudly after him

you honestly think i miss you?

i miss  the days
i talked with the moon
and sat on a porch
with my friends
as they smoked cigarettes
the sunset...resting in our eyes
as we laughed
and made quotes,
the days i biked  
and felt so freely

then i proceeded to melt

into the earths  fingers...

like paint in the wind,
leavings tracks of colour
tracks of happiness...

your lungs are talking
making you cry

your brain is singing

your bones tighten

teeth glowing

heart pouring

filling the world
with your beautiful laughter

and you where there
in front me...
breathing softly
digging your hand in the other
your brown hair sleeping on your shoulders
i didn't know you then
but i thought
"this is going to be great"
i didn't know you then
and i dont know you now
after all the pages we written
smudges
and ink running out
you changed me
....
so much
we were strangers then
and we are strangers now
giving looks
looks
that make me remember
of all the things we did
"and now?"
**i ****** it up

cookies crumbling in my mouth
tea burning my teeth
slowly making the cookie crumbles
melt onto my gums...
i sat layed on my old couch
next to the big window
in the living room
the sunset creeping through the curtains
painting my skin gold
the tea fumes
slowly  disapearing into the thin air
......
i wondered
and wondered
"why?"
....
"i dont know"
responding to my own
question
laughing softly...
the tv was on
playing a movie
my eyes tired
my hands sinking in my couch...
happy..
happy..

honey
crawling into my skin
down my veins
in my heart
"i feel like i'm crying honey"
the wind  is going through my brain
i feel its wind softly drifting in my skin
"oh man,oh man"
got the feeling
of putting october in a tea cup
"is it a new me"
i have realized the pure beauty of sunsets
fire  dancing with clouds, in each others arm
they burn the sky
"i love tea,with a lot honey"
kisses are nice
"im really bad it though"
i have accepted the fact that i am
"oh but they are wonderful"
its like clouds pecking the cheek of fumes
that comes from your foggy cup
poetry written on your skin
as you love everything around you
pen ink for your blood
for we love to write!
" oh poetry i love it"
and why is that?
" it can give words, but not the definition to the unspeakable!"

.......**i just love honey tea and red sunsets

the soft snow bed
that lays on top of  the mountains
melting down
into the frozen lake
with soft slippery rocks
that feels good to drown your feet in
and feel the cold water dig under your finger nails
your hear beat,slowing down
you feel the clouds move
and you feel your skin streching
and for the first time
the trees became your best friend
the wind becoming music
to your brain

you slowly open your eyes
and slowly part your dried lips

you whisper in a sleepy voice
"i never felt so alive"

the
sun
rose
in
my
head
and
i
felt
differently

spinning like a record player
laugh hollers out my lungs
the sky and the sun became a beach for me
the clouds
washing against my face
We all sat out on a porch
smoking cigarettes
as the sun fell
they offered me a smoke
"no thanks"
two went back inside and sat and watched tv
three stayed outside and still conversed
my friend wearing sunglasses
he sat down on a wooden chair
taking a hit from he's cigarette
letting the smoke coming out of his nose
he said"guys i don't think a girl would want to sleep with me
if i smell like tom ford and cigarettes"

i sunk my teeth
in the soft sweet bread

then swallowed it down
with my coffee

"i put way to much sugar in this coffee"

oh well

i like it

...making me feel at home
as i lay on an open field
with autumn leaves
dancing with the autumn sunset

*love love
love love

i want  flowers to start growing out of my brain


so that  my eyes can turn into melting sweet honey

and i got lost

in the night sky

the stars melting and dripping down the navy blue sky


a thought crossed my mind
that came aloft

slipping through my skin
in my brain of wonders


a thought .....

so sweet
as sweet as  strawberry
growing on my lungs
the veins tangling my heart

my lips started to dry

and i wanted to kiss your soft flower petal lips

paint spilled onto my brain
the world around me was glittering like an ocean
and  the air felt like i was flying through a rain forest
my lips were dry
my mind was numb
i took my bike
and got onto a train
listening to music
the whole world
felt like a movie
looking out the window
you crossed my mind
how we went down this way
holding hands
looking out the window together
and you would turn your head to kiss me on the cheek
leaving my winter cheeks to melt softly
i wanted you by my side
but do you...

Shaking my head
you dancing around me
starting to fill my bones
i ask myself why
you just keep on tapping your feet

gave in
and the light just grabbed my heart
threw at the moon
well im gone
forever
dancing my tears away

and the stars
tell me
to glide across there glow
and i wouldnt be more happy

time
filled up in my skin
im tired of turning
i want to keep still
now...

so tell me
tell me
whats the purpose of you crying
and me laughing
come join me

fill my bones with clouds

so you can rest upon me

forever

telling me your eyes have turned to
strawberry fields
and you brain melting Through your ears
creating a pool
that take you to a new world
filling your bones with with music notes
so that all you breath is music
and the feeling happy
and i couldn't possibly knowwhat your thinking
but i know when your eyes look towards me
you silently whisper
" i hate him"
Say all you want
its just a drug to my mind
making me fly
so to the moon pool
of tears from love
all i do is relax
with the stars telling me there secret
"how to shine"

ooooOOoo have you ever felt this
you know that feeling
where you dont care
giving your mind numbness

and the feeling of kissing
the one you want to
wraps your stringy arms around

the feeling  of soft skin...

There's nothing left

Just us two

Holding hands

Prepared to survive

"We can do it"
"We can do it together"
We repeat it like a song

We are ready

As we hold hands

I sat on a hill one morning
6:00
One morning

The foggy blue sky
Became
A melting red strawberry
With a pinch of peaches
And coffee cream
Painted on the sky

The grass freshly wet
From the morning dew
Oh I wish I could put it in a tea cup
I would sip it all up
Down my ribs it will go
Painted on my lips
That'll do...
A sad tree leaning on its lover
All the others looking
Jealous
Of the love they hold
On the tips of there wooden fingers

The sun coming up slowly
Burning everything with the word
"Beauty"

My fingers sinking in the soft dirt
Reminding me of my morning coffee
Riding up to my nails

The morning of the day
Putting the haze and daze
In my eyes

I think of her
And her green,brown,beautiful eyes

And I drown
In the earths tears

And your black hair
Covering my face
As you rest your chin on my shoulder
Breathing hard into my ear
You whisper softly
"I really ******* like you"
And you let your head fall
On my chest
My heart beat against your cheek
Yours against my rib
I respond
" me too love ...me  too "

Falling from  my eyes
the hours
the minutes
until the new day
new year
breaks in

and i am a new person

the last day
nice and relaxing

my skin feels like syrup
i miss her touch...

the last day
i hopes it over soon
and wait for a new day
better day
pure as rain
and as snowflakes

i wait for a new day....

i don't what the future will bring

i'm i relaxed?!

i'm i anxious

i don't even know anymore

i'm so confused

the breeze goes
were my mustache used to be
i feel like i changed so much
its not just the mustache
its all the events that happened last night


why did it happen to me?