Love you in a way
You can't possibly understand
Impermanent like an artist's charcoal
Always present always changing shape
Staining and marring, yet making clear
That which you think but cannot say
And I find comfort in the cryptic
If you can find your way through
I'll see you on the other side

The pain draws you nearer
Won't need me
If I don't need fixing
I feel like I'm going to
Have to keep running
Towards the edge
So you can keep
Pulling me back
From it..
Do I have to cast myself
Into the storm
So we can dance in the rain?
Do I have to jump
So we can fly?

all to run away
All toward to run
Destructive spirals
Ride them ever on
and all the way down
Take the bus with me
Spinning slowly
Out of orbit
Ever away, Ever toward
You're my toxic medicine..

Breathing seems hard
I stitch the leather
That covered my skin
The day I almost died
I watch my skin purple
As it bruises over mistakes
Read words penned
Only shadow brings light
I crave one for the other..
A little death for a little life.

Craving sustenance
the ones and zeroes
are all but fickle
Yet so easily forgotten.
Forgetting I held on
The blue strings
Woven in the air
Connected me and you
And I swore I would never
And I swore forever.
There you were,
Forgetting..

I call her the shadow dancer,
punished with hope..
She twirls with reflections,
and shadows on her broken feet..
She struggles to remain beautiful,
to perpetuate the stereotype..
She leaps, weightless into the heavy air,
pointed broken feet, hiding the pain..
Odessa, the swan in her lake,
flying, oblivious....