Are you ok?

Well **** me. That’s a loaded question.

You kiss me for the first time
And it’s in this moment
I know we will never become anything
More.

You are so broken and so am I.
You don’t know what you want
But you want to fall asleep next to me
Tonight

You tell me that you wish you could be
Anything that I want you to be
That’s not how love works
Unfortunately

You compliment me all the time
You know my body so well
That I wish you could occupy my mind like
That

I’m sorry you’re so lost sweet boy
You have a mind of running demons
With a tight mouth that won’t speak
Up

I tried to save you and I tried to heal you
But where were you when I needed you?
Again, I am a one way street holding up other
People

Maybe we met at the wrong time
Maybe we can come together down the road
Maybe you just can’t commit to
Me.

He walked me to my car in the early morning and hugged me. Still in his arms, I told him that I was going to miss him. Instead of reciprocating that response, he complimented my German bumper stickers. Rejection. After that moment, I never said it again.




learning the games you play

Time will tell. I need to focus on me and myself and get my mind right, all over again. It’s ok. I’m used to doing it by now. My teeth are rotting.

Red flags:
Flirtatious
Open to an open relationship
Not good alone not good in relationships
Casual
Short temper

I can’t say sorry to your face, so I write it in a poem.
I’m sorry.

To hug someone. To fall into an abyss of not caring about what happens for a few days. To laugh. To get deep. To grow. To expand my horizons. To follow my desires. To skip logic. Ignore my brain. I want to fall in a deep love that I don't even know I'm in love until I think about it and then I'm like ****. There it is.