My tank is empty
I am running on low
Mary Jane, please fix me up
Breathe in some fresh air
in my lungs

Mary Jane,
I want to play your game
Darling, you put a spell on me
I need your magic touch
Hit me up with your punch
Let’s fly, together on cloud nine

Mary Jane, you are so *****
Filthy, outrageous, smoking hot
You’re so bad but so good
Honey I love, every inch of you

It’s simple, you are the one
When you come I come
My Sweet Miss Misbehaviour
Give me just one more blow
Baby kiss me until we’re done

In the middle of nowhere
On a non-existent chair
Sat down a nobody
It feels boring he said
There is nothing to do
Nothing to read
Nothing to write
What shall I do in this no-land
He looked upon
He looked beyond
Nothing he saw
He was really terribly bored
I will try something he thought
I will be someone I am not
And that is how Someone was born

Jimmy, Jimmy, Jimmy boy

You are a darling
Mama’s pride and joy
So what you’re grown, you
don’t work, don’t have a girl
Mama loves you and you love her

You live with your mama
On the second floor
You’ve got a room
all on your own
Mama’s there with you
sleeping right next door

She takes care of you
like you deserve
Always doing whatever
you want
Mama knows your needs
like no one in the world

Nobody can replace your mama
No other girl can be like her
Whatever she does
to earn your love
It will never be enough

Don’t ever forget
your mama’s love
You’ll always be mama’s boy
Remember that Jimmy
When your mama’s gone

And you, are all alone…

I keep on searching
But my pocket is empty
There’s a hole at the bottom

What a mess

Words all over the floor
Letters spilled in the kitchen sink
Thoughts in the bathtub playing
hide and seek

Nothing left

Today I won’t write anything

I need words to soothe my soul
Nurture my heart
Heal my wounds

I want to write to thank you

Soon

I’ll try again

But, not today

The dark, dark times had come

Their shadow long
Swallowing up us whole
They’re hungry
Starving for more
They’ll take it all

The dark, dark times had come

Sleepless spies
grinning their fangs
Their faces lurking
in the crowd
Ready to bite, eat us alive

The dark, dark times had come

It’s our turn
It's time to hurt
Pour never-ending tears
Fill up the bottomless seas
Give what is left to give


The dark, dark times are here

Don’t let them in...

The caravel is sailing today
Bored with the shore
Takes the course of a new
challenge
Setting the compass on
nautical adventure

The land left behind
watches with sadness
Sees the sails set high
Hears the excitement
of preparations

It doesn’t want to break up
But understands
The caravel is made
to navigate the sea,
to search unwaveringly
for new islands on the horizon

Such is its nature
To be free in the element
of wind and water
Go through storms
Dance with lightnings
Play with dolphins in the waves

The land knows very well

That at the end of the journey
The caravel will return
A prodigal son
Coming back home

It came in the post
In a pink envelope

Who would’ve thought...

It said; You’re invited to a party
You are the main meal
so
wear nothing
It will be worth it

It starts at midnight
In the underground bar
Called “Hell”
Remember, come naked

Oh, temptation
To be in the centre of attention
Wanted, desired

I went
And never returned the same

In pieces, blooded and bitten
Torn apart

Got what I needed to
grow up...

"It takes two years to learn to speak,
and all life to learn when to be quiet "
-Ernest Hemingway-


Shhhhh...
Don’t say a thing

We don’t need to talk right now
A single whisper will be too much
It’s time to end this altercation,
we’ve got be careful

Let’s put this fight away
Our tongues are so sharp
today
Stabbing open wounds
with two-edged sword,
over and over again

Don’t underestimate the power
Words can be hotter than fire
So easy to hurt with just one
of them
The damage done, so great

We know how to speak, shout,
scream
Words like bullets hit the target
perfectly
But to stay quiet... challenging

Close your eyes and count to ten
Shut down what you want to say
Now it’s time to let go of anger
driving frantically our temper

Let’s put our egos down to sleep
Sing sweet lullaby
Tomorrow we’ll look at the world
with brand new eyes

In the morning the storm will
be gone
Let the silence work
its magic touch
Untangling our feelings
and clearing up our thoughts


Stop, just say no more.

There it is
Consuming on me
Taking ****** bites
Eating me alive

I’ve tried so hard to feed it
Gave it whatever it wanted
But it’s never satisfied
Forever hungry

I’ve been searching
Praying for answers
But the hunger doesn’t stop
Never leaves my heart

It always wants more
of Something
To fill up the hole
that’s empty

Hidden deep inside
it never sleeps
Doesn’t close its eyes
Ready to eat

What does it need
I don’t know
This ravenous hunger
of my heart…

Yesterday you looked at me
Just for a second
I was so happy that you gave me
scraps of your attention

That moment was so special
A second of your life
gave me so much
So many dreams at night

You probably laugh right now
Have fun
Somewhere in the Promise Land
where you belong

I know how important you are
I understand
You reached the summit of
Mount Everest

I look up to you
You’ve taught me so much
By simply being who you are
A perfect man

I was so happy yesterday
When you looked at me
For the whole second
Even if, you didn’t see me...

This conversation is old

I’m drunk now
High on frustration and despair
My mama didn’t warn me it will
turn out like this

Overcooked meal

Tasteless

No pepper, no salt
No spice to go on

Nobody cares

Just expectations to measure up

I will make sure
Wear my best underwear
High heals
Good dress

The look on your face

It will be worth it

Let me serve you

Yeah, it will be something...

My darling smile
Where did you hide
It’s been so long since
I’ve seen you last time

Your place is here
You belong with me
I’m calling for you
Can you hear me

I need your sparkle
back in my heart
I’ve lost you somewhere
in the dark

I want you to know,
that I’m searching for you
Above and beyond
my grey, sad world

The maze I am in,
is hard to get through
But don’t you worry
I’ll find you

Last time I saw you
on the wings of the butterfly,
in the breeze of the wind,
waves of an ocean

Wherever you are
It won’t be long
I’ll keep my faith
You’ll come back home...

The Sun is shining
The day is beautiful
Today, i will meet your
expectations

i’ll be, who you want me to be
Do, whatever you desire
i can do it
Just have to work harder

i know
i haven’t been perfect
Far from it...
But i can do better
i promise

i’ll put more effort
Be smarter, exciting, bright
Say the right thing, at the right time
Look my best, just as you like

You’ve been waiting,
so patiently for so long
i am grateful for every minute
you wasted on me
Being useless and weak

Today i will meet your expectations
Like you deserve
And maybe then you will love me

i hope…

He lost himself somewhere
Took the wrong turn in
the labyrinth of life
And now a part of him
is left behind

He doesn’t know where to look
Not sure if he even should
Is it important
The lost piece of him
must be broken

Maybe he could grow it back
But should he even try
Shall he simply accept the fact
of not being full anymore
Is it so wrong to be spoiled

Who cares
It’s just one piece
He doesn’t even know what it is
He can still be happy without it
Probably

It feels different though
He’s changed now
Strangely numb
He doesn’t feel much anymore
Not like before

Only when it gets dark
he feels like he wants to cry
Mourn the piece that’s gone
Cause deep inside he knows
he’ll never be the same again

A new man

Look what I found
A piece of a broken heart
Someone lost it
I found it on the ground
Looking hopeless
I’ll pick it up and take care of it
I will put it in the pocket of my soul
I will plant it in the garden of feelings
I will water it with hope
Maybe one sunny day it will grow
Maybe again it will be whole.

I’m looking for you
Where are you
I don’t know where to find you
Yesterday in my dream we kissed
Now I know that you exist

I wished upon a Star to show
me the way
But she was to busy today
I thought the Sun might know
where to go
But the Sun was to hot to talk
I asked the Darkness to let
me through
But the Darkness wasn’t
in the mood
I climbed on top of the Mountain
Searched the Fairytale Lands
Combed through the leaves of
the Jungle
Sieved the grains of the Sands

I searched everywhere

But yeserday in my dream we kissed
Now I know that You exist.

It is pouring
The raindrops are flowing
in the stream of tears
Heaven torn to shreds,
doesn’t want to stitch
back together again
I am weak
Hidden in my shell
Waiting for it to finally 
crack open
 
I look through the window
The world so empty and cold
My eyes hungry
Searching for the glimmer of hope
I see one, tiny,
floating right towards me
 
I squint my eyes
 
You're there...
Summery meadow
gently rocked by the wind
Trembling hands picking flowers
Smell of happiness
 
I quickly catch 
the leftovers of light
I’ll hide them deep 
In the place, where the
tentacles of darkness,
can’t reach
 
I pray
Repeat the words
over and over...
 
It's raining and raining
The rivers of sorrow are
flowing incessantly
Is it my fault
What have I done
Have I sinned
Please give me a sign
I don’t want to cry
 
I close my eyes
 
You’re here...
A spark growing stronger
Your loving eyes so warm
Shining bright like a star 
in the blackness of the night
 
And
 
I am weak, hidden in my shell
But I know

You will split it wide open…

We’ve been stretched over
the horizon of time
Waiting patiently to become
Preparing our souls to be one

I am now
You are tomorrow
We haven’t discovered
each other yet

Disconnected
Searching our understanding

I am your present
You are my gift of hope
There you go
Something in common

At the peak of life we are one

If I could turn back time
I would wake up with you
Sit together, on your
favorite bench in the garden,
and be silent
I would look into your eyes,
and see how tired they really are
Touch your hands,
to understand the weight
they carry every day
I would listen to you
Hear the words coming
from your heart
Learn your fears, your hopes
and dreams
We would talk about your childhood
The scars you got growing up
About us...
How to fix what’s broken
Find the missing piece of a puzzle
How much we truly love each other
I would open up my heart
Show you what’s inside
Let you in...
We would joke,
and laugh until it hurts
Together,
Dad with his little girl
We would hug and cry
and it all would be all right

If I could only turn back time...

Ha ha ha!
I did it again
I made you laugh
It is like a sneeze
Disease
Infection
It is contagious
Be careful run away or you will be happy again...

I’m not playing
Rang the string quietly
I'm tired
Fed up with strumming
over and over the same
old melody
I want to be free!
Hear something new
Travel the musical world
Meet fresh, exciting tones
Play something special
Feel inspired!
Fly up to the sky with sopranos
Fall down and dive into bass
Swim with the notes
I never dreamed of
Enchanted by sounds
lose my head
And fall crazy in love
with music again!

Yesterday, I touched the edge
Felt, how sharp it was
Pitch black, on the other side

A tiny speck stayed on my skin
Now it is growing, mutating,
spreading all over me

First, it reached my *******
Changed my attitude

Now all my fingers
are in the middle...

Next, it started to cover my eyes
And all I see becomes black

Soon it will get to the heart
Turning it black inside out

I must admit, I quite like it
Can’t decide if it’s good or bad...

It didn’t happen in the morning
Wasn’t a start of a jolly day
It happened in the middle of
the night and left me in tears,
confusion and pain
Showed me the hard way
that I need to open my eyes
See things for real, the way
they are

I woke up

Dizzy with a headache
And then a funny thing happened
I didn’t feel broken
I felt ready for another chapter,
of my story
And let me tell you something
my darling
You can’t break me
I am actually grateful that you
woke me
You only made me stronger
on my journey
Thank you for a close call
But tomorrow I will go on
whether you like it or not.

Here again
You came
Quickly in the blink of an eye
you disarm my armor without
any resistance
You always know what to do
How to fool me
Now I’m waiting for my sentence
I kneel before you
I can see you pulling out a knife
You will strike
Stabbing my heart
And I will do nothing
Close my eyes and hold my breath
When you’ll be done
you will slowly walk away

I don’t understand

Your infinite cruelty
is making me lose my mind
I’m begging you to stop
but you don’t hear me
You don’t care

I do not understand

But I know what will come next

I know...

Tell me how to understand ?

I am loosing faith...

You broke me
I am in pieces
Like a shattered vase I lie on the ground
When you walk by you strike again and step on my heart
Stomping on it hard
Enough to squeeze out the last drop
of tears
I'm surprised there is some left
The remains
You collect them all and when you
leave you watch closely
searching for flaws

A collector feeding on drops of pain
I stand up
Count the time
before your return

The almighty King of Tears
always hungry for more

We are dead
Love is drained from our veins
Hearts of stone feel no more
Eyes empty blind
Seeing just what they like

We used to live
Spark connected our lives together
Each day was a pleasure found new
Every moment had a meaning
We were breathing

In time days gained weight
Unbearable
To heavy to carry
Hard work overtook our love
We were gone

The day we died was quiet
Nothing unusual happened
We woke up in the morning
Didn’t even notice our dead bodies

No heartbeat, no pulse
No blood flowing in our veins
A corpse of a once-living home
What’s left

Who killed us
Did this... to us
Where did we go wrong
We don’t know
All we have are the memories
Lost

Takes a breath away
This moment of truth
So honest so painful
Somehow beautiful

To die
Right now
It could be a choice
Unimportant
But yet meaningful

This moment here
Is real

What happens to us
To those who lost faith
Are we now criminals
Do we go straight to hell

How do we go on
How do we play this game
What happens to those
Who lost faith

No matter pleads that we’ve cried
Don’t count prayers no more
What’s important lies ahead of us
What’s ahead is where we belong

Without faith
On our own
Walking the revival road
Searching for the place we call home

There's still hope